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Update - 78

Sheetal chudne ke baad mujhse na kuch kahi aur na boli sidhe bathroom mein ghus gayi, safai to mujhe bhi karni thi par mene socha kya farak padta hai mene use andar kiya aur jeans uppar chada kar niche ki taraf jane laga. Jate hue apne aap hi chehre par hansi ubhar ayi.. ati bhi kyun na.. jo sach thodi der pehle mein batane wala tha, agar bata deta to shayad uske andar ye bhadki hui aag... kabhi itni bhadakti nahi... kyun ki mera plan.. juda hi us raat se tha.. jis raat mere aur sheetal ke bich asliyat mein kuch hua hi nahi tha...

Us raat jab sheetal tali ho gayi thi aur apna rape karwane ke liye puri utaru thi, soch kar hi muth marne ka dil kar jaye bc .......... han to us raat vo puri tayari kar chuki thi aur mein bhi tayiar hi tha... vo kapde khol kar chudne ke liye taiyar thi aur mein lund bahar nikal kar chodne ke liye... par phir usne nashe mein mujhe kuch batein batayi... jaise usne past bf ke sath bahut sex kiya hai par vicky ke sath itna nahi kar payi .. vajah uska past experience tha.. jo uski soch kehti thi vo ye.. ki bf ke sath jitna sex karo vo utni jaldi ditch karte hai.. abe tujh bitch to ditch karne ke liye hi bani hai .... Interesting fact hai ye.. isliye vicky ke sath sex nahi karti thi vo.. period ... ise ek baat to mujhe samajh ayi ki she needs sex.. ek baar laundio ki chut mein aag lag jaye to phir use bhujane ke liye lund hi kaam karta hai baki jitna pani barsa do aag bhujti hi nahi.. iske alawa usne apni sex desires aur bahut kuch baka... itna sab sun-ne ke baad to mera use chodne ka man bahut jada ho gaya tha.. lekin abhi abhi mein ek kand se bacha tha aur dusre mein fansa nahi chahta tha.. ladkiyan nashe mein kuch bhi karwa sakti hai par baad mein tumhari gand par police ke dande bhi padwa sakti hai.. kya pata koi rape ka charge ka lagwa deti.. desh ka kanun bhi aisa hi hai pehle sunega usi ki meri to tab sunega jab puri tarah se ukhad denge mujhe... aur na hi mein is jagah ar apni beghunai ka sabut dhund pata.. upar se ek aur ek do jod dete police wale to garima ka sach samne aa jata.. aur vo to bilkul mere khilaf hi bakti.. bas phir to mujhe tharki aur chodo ka thapa lagane mein police der na karti... itna soch kar hi bc mere to pasine nikal gaye... lekin lawda abhi bhi uchale mar raha tha.. bas usi pal mene ye plan banaya ki jab ladki sex ki itni need mein hai to use iski hi need mein todna hai.. plus uski kamjori.. vicky ... pata nahi kyun usne iske alawa uske bare mein kuch kaha.. yaad nahi kya.. par vo uske sath relation nahi todna chahti thi.. mere lie to ye ek aur plus point tha.. bs plan mere dimag mein banta gaya.... Isliye mene un dono ka patchup karaya.. isliye mein sheetal ko us raat ki yaad dilata tha.. juthi hi sahi.. par jaan kar use chidata taki ek din uske andar vo feeling jage... aur dekho akhir mein kamyab ho gaya... mana ki ek pal ke liye plan ki chud gayi thi par in the end mene chod hi dia.. Aur han ek aur baat.. sheetal pehle se hi gand se kheli hui thi.. ye baat us din usne nashe mein mujhe batai thi.. bahut bakka tha us din usne.. sahi mein.. bahut kuch bakka tha... isliye na chahte hue bhi mene apna lawda use chuswa hi liya tha taki kam se kam use mere swad ke barre mein halki memory reh jaye

" kaha tha itni der ? " vicky ne meri soch todi. Mujhe pata hi nahi chala tha ki mein gardan tak aa pahuncha hu sochte sochte. ' teri hone wali biwi ki gand ko dudh se nehla kar aya hun bhadve... '

" washroom mein hi tha.. "

" itni der ? "

" mujhe hugne mein itna hi time lagta hai "

" bc.. hugne gaya tha ? "

" kabhi huga nahi hai kya ? " us waqt sheetal ke maa baap nahi the shayad unka time ho raha tha.. ka..

" sheetal kahan hai ? "

" vo andar hi thi kya ? " mene anjan bante hue kaha.

" chutia hai tu.. " vicky bol kar andar jane laga itne mein use sheetal bahar ati dikh gayi, mein use dekh kar hairan tha kyun ki vo bilkul normal behave kar rahi thi jaise uske sath kuch hua hi na ho.. abhi abhi apne bf ke samne chudi hai vo bhi uske dost se.. Ye ladki bahut maze dene wali hai..

" abe kya sochta rehta hai ? " vicky ne phir mujhe nind se jagaya.

" bas maal ke bare mein soch raha hun.. "

" maal.. ? " vicky turant bola aur sheetal mujhe ghurne lagi.

" mall bc... maal nahi... behra ho gaya hai kya.. kaun se mall le jakar bore karoge tum mujhe.. "

" mene kab kaha mall jana hai ? "

" to kaha jana ha.. "

" sheetal batayegi... "

" ise to sirf chudna hai.. " mene uski taraf dekhte hue kaha par man mein, usne mujhe ek pal ke liye dekha.. phir vicky ki taraf dekhti hui uske hath mein apna hath dal lia.

" baby.. wherever you wanna go.. " wah.. itna pyar... mujhe to hansi aa rahi thi

Akhir decide kuch nahi hua aur hum gadi mein ja baithe.. vicky aur sheetal apas mein kuch baat cheet mein busy the itne mein mene phone nikala... ' bc.. 8 missed call.. ' missed call ankita mam ki thi.. pata nahi kya hua tha subh se.. lagta hai aaj besabar hoti jaa rahi hai.. acha hai ladkiyun ko jitna besabar banao vo utni jada chudti hai... example aage vali seat par baithi thi... Mene nazar utha kar dekha to sheetal mirror mein apna chehra dekhne ke bahane mujhe hi dekh rahi thi. Mein halka sa muskura dia jise dekh usne apni nazar vahan se hata li, kamal ki baat to ye thi ki ek ladki itni normal kaise ho sakti hai ? mujhe sheetal ne ye realize kara dia.. ki sahi kehte hai kahani mein.. ladkiyan bc randiyan ho chuki hai.. ya to unhe chudne ko chahie ya phir apne uppar kharcha karwane ke liye.. ye jo sharafat dikhane ki aur apne aap ko samjdhar pada likha dikhane ki kosish karti hai vo sirf dikhawa hai.. baki andar se to ek dum randi hoti hai.. randi.. sali .. inhe to sirf chodna chahie ... ye bani hi isliye hai..

Us din kuch khas nahi hua, sheetal normal thi par bol kam rahi thi.. mein bhi tassali mein ghum raha tha.. gand to mar h chuka tha.. ab chut ki bhi ek din vaisi hi band bajani thi aur mujhe pata tha ki usme der nahi hogi, sham ke time.. vicky mujhe ghar chodne wala tha lekin mene socha jakar ankita mam se mil aaun.. varna phir naraz ho gayi to manana mushkil ho jayega.. isliye bich raste utar kar mein ankita mam ke ghar ja pahuncha.. Subah ki tight chudai ke baad lund thak gaya tha par ab usme jaan aa chuki thi ki ek baar to ankita mam ko chod hi dega.

Mene door bell bajai aur kuch der baad ankita mam ne darwaja khola, mene muskurate hue unki taraf dekha.. par vo to kuch aur hi mood mein thi. Mein andar aya to vo mujhse kuch na boli.. mein samajh gaya ki phone ka na reply dene par gussa hai vo.

" sorry.. vo phone nahi uthaya.. asal mein jaan kar mein to apko surprise dena chahta tha.. " mein unke bagal mein jaa baitha .. vo sofe par baithi thi pairon ko hath se bandhe.

" kya hua. " mene unke kandhe par hath rakha to unhone jhatak dia.

" itni bhi kya narazgi yar.. aa to gaya ab.. ab raat ka dinner karke jaunga ab khush.. ? " vo phir bhi kuch nahi boli. Bahut lambe lawde lag gaye ye soch kar mene socha kaise manau tabhi ek idea.. aya.. ladkiyun ko gulguli karo to vo man jati hai.. mene aisa pada tha.. socha azma kar dekhun.. bas mene apne hath unki taraf badaye hi the ki meri hawa mein lehrati ungliyan aur chehre par ayi hansi bich mein hi ruk gayi.. aur mein vaisa hi baitha raha jab mene ye suna

" m pregnant... "
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" acha... " mein ek pal ke liye chup raha, " zara phone kya nahi uthaya apne to dil par hi le liya... " mene unhe kandhe se marte hue kaha. Unhone mujhe ghura to mera shak yakeen mein badal gaya ki vo mazak hi kar rahi hai.

" oo comon na.. aap to aise bheave kar rahi ho jaise mein apka pati hun aur mene apko pregnant karke apko bina baap ka bacha de dia hai.. " mein khade hokar hanste hue kaha par shayad mera ye mazak bahut jada galat tha.. matlab had se jada, agla pal jo mujhe yaad hai vo ye.. ki ankita mam ne mera hath pakda aur dusra hath mere gal par chipka dia, ek pal ke liye to kan mein sunnnnnn ki ghanti si baj gayi, abhi to vo ghanti shant nahi hui thi ki unhone mera color pakda aur mujhe sidha kar dia.

" tumhe kya zindagi koi kahani lagti hai... ki jo socha wahi sach hai.... " unki ankhein is waqt is kadar chadi thi mano pii unhone ho aur unki pi hui mere dimag ko dama-dol kar rahi ho. " how could you say this.. ? " is baar unki awaaz ladhkhadai aur meri zindagi ki ek takdeer hil gayi.

" i am pregnant ankit..... " is bar vo behad dhimi awaz mein boli aur unki ankhein kathor se narm ho gayi.

" ok.... " mene sans chhod kar bas itna hi kaha. Bas itna hi...

Kuch der baad... hum dono vaise hi baithe hue the, bina kuch bole... vo shayad ye soch rahi thi ki mein kuch kahun aur mein ye soch raha tha ki mein kya kahun ? i mean ... aisa lag raha tha ki lawde ke khet ke andar mein nanga nach raha hun aur jo koi mutne aa raha hai vahi meri gand mar raha hai....

" possible kaise hua ? i mean.. apne to hamesha pill li hai phir ? " mujhe in baton se sakht ghin ati thi.. i mean.. chut chudai bas... iske alawa ye pill aur ye samajh seva valle sawal lawda ... mere dimag ko irritate kar deta hai.

" maybe.. kisi din mein bhul gayi ... i dont.. know... " unhone apna sar pakad lia.

" aise kaise bhul gayi.. " mein ek dum se bol pada aur tab samajh aya ki log khud nahi gand marne atte.. mein khud deta hun apni gand... thali mein paros ki aao bhai bhojan grehan karo...iski bcccc......

" i mean.. ye galti meri bhi hai.. " aise gambhir mamlo mein hume apni galti bhi manni chahie varna gand parosi nai jati balki lut li jati...

" ab ? " mujhe to kuch samajh hi nahi aa raha tha, bc lawde lag gaye the itna pata tha par dimag ko yahi laga hua tha ki sab sahi hua isliye bc dar nahi lag raha tha ye pehla hi vakya tha.. bc.. aisa kaise ho sakta hai...

" i don't know... i don't " itna keh kar vo mere galle se aa lagi, lawda.. yahan lawde ka sperm pehli baar sahi jagah ja kar chipak gaya par galat time par lekin inhe galle chipakne se fursat nahi mil rahi ? i mean , itna hi nahi galle lag kar vo rone lagi... rona banta bhi tha.. ab ek ladki bina shadi kiye gaye maa ban jaye vo bhi mere dwara bc ladki ke to lawde lagenge hi... par beta ankit apna soch.. tere to ghanghor lawde lag jayenge......... par jab insan kante par khada ho aur vo kanta apke lawde ko chu raha ho tab apko dar is baat ka nahi hota ki apko bahut dard hoga balki is baat ka hoga ki na to aap kabhi muth mar payenge na hi kabhi chudai... aur aise pal mein apka dimag ek dum satik aur thik nirnaye par pahunch jata hai.

" idea.. " mene unhe apne se alag kiya aur unka chehra aisa ho gaya jaise mene suhane mausam mein kadkadati dhup lakar khadi kar di ho.

" abortion kara lo... so simple... isme itna tension lene ki kya jarurat hai yar.. sab kuch sahi ho jayega.. bas .. " mene apna aisa idea sunaya jisne mere sabhi sawalon ko hal kar dia.

Kash ye mera socha hua idea utna hi suhana hota jitna mene socha tha, par ye kash shabd hi sala aisa hai ki isme hum sirf soch aur afsos kar sakte hain lekin badal nahi sakte... usme hum sirf badalne ki soch rakh sakte hain. Us din iske alawa aur koi baat nahi hui, ankita mam ne kaha ki vo sochegi aur phir baat karegi, mene unhe ye pura dilasa dia ki mein is kaam mein unke sath hun.. mein unhe chhodunga nahi.. shayad is baat ki tasali thi unhe.. aur isme sirf unhi ki galti nahi thi, chudai ki bhasad to mere lawde mein bhi lagi thi na.. to galti aur is galti ko sudharne ka ilaz hum dono ko ek sath mil kar karna tha.

Mein ghar par baitha tha na jane kyun ankita mam ke ghar par tha tab thik tha par ghar par akar ajeeb sa ho gaya tha, sheetal ke whatsapp par message the par reply dene aur dekhne tak ka man nahi tha. Aisa lag raha tha jaise koi galti ho gayi ho.. ek pal aya ki ankita mam se baat kar lun unhe bhi acha lagega.. lekin phir socha vo shayad abhi baat nahi karni hogi unhe isliye nahi karta.. varna vo khud hi phone kar leti.. ye soch kar mene phone hi nahi kiya.. Khana khate time bhi maa bhi papa se baat kar rahi thi ki kisi ke ladka hua hai.. bada pyara hai.. pata nahi baat kiski thi.. par ye sun kar man mein aya, ' ki han bc.. aaj aise hi sunne ko milega.. pehle hi gand fati padi hai.' mene ek pal ke liye gaur se maa aur papa ko dekha to illusion hua ki mein baap banne vala hun ye baat unhe pata hai lawde ki kasam ... lawde fat kar uske andae titar beetar ho gaye.. aisi fatii meri.... Mene ankita mam ko abortion vali baat phir likhi kar send kar di.. par phone nahi kia.. pata nahi kyun..

12 se 1 baj gaya par nind na ayi.. dimag sala is baat se hat hi nahi raha tha ab.. abortion kaise hoga.. dr ko kya kahenge.. chutiap fail gaya tha mere dimag mein.. jitna socha tha ye to use kahin jada mushkil tha.. samajh hi nahi aa raha tha ki kya karna hai.. jab samajh nahi aya to mein laptop khol kar baith gaya.. par bc muth marne ke liye lawda bhi nahi khada ho raha tha isliye band karke sone ki kosish karne laga, dimag mein bahut se lawde jage hue the.. jaise agar abortion nahi hua to ? abortion hua to ? kahani kya banayenge dr se ? dr kya sawal karega.. kya mein bhi ankita mam ke sth jaunga hospital ? nahi nahi unhe hi bhej dunga... bc gadar movie ki tarah mere jism se handpump ukhad dia gaya tha aisi feeling aa rahi thi..... kareeb 3 baje ke pass mujhe nind lagi aur theek subah8 baje nind khul gayi.. 8 baje nind khuli ... aur 9 baje mein ankita mam ke ghar par.. ye soch kar... ki no phone no text... direct baat hogi ab... Mein bahut kuch soch chuka tha ki kya karna hai.. aur kya kehna hai.. aur kis tarah kehna hai.. mein unke ghar pahunch kar door bell bajai... koi ahat nahi hui..

" kya ho gaya.. kahin ruth to nahi gayi.. bc lawde lag jayenge ... " mene darwaja khat-khataya.. door bell bajai... par nahi khula.. meri aur fatne lagi.. bc andar hi andar aisa lagne laga ki mut nikal jayega bc mera .. jab darwaja nahi khula to mene phone karne ki sochi.. mene jeans se phone nikalne ke liye nazar niche ki to dekha...

" yahan to lock laga hai .... " darwaja bahar se lock tha... mene sochte hi phone par ankita mam ka number nikala aur dial kia...

" the number your trying to reach is switch off.. " mene ek nahi do bar nahi.. balki 30-35 bar ikhate dial kiya aur same response....

Ab ?

sham ke 7 baj chuke the...... mein vahin sidiyun par baitha phone try kar raha tha aur unki rah dekh raha tha... gate abhi bhi lock tha aur mere phone se nikla vo 157 va call tha.. jisme wahi response aa raha tha.. phone ki battery bhi ab dead ho chuki thi.. aur shayad meri hope bhi...

9:20 minute par jab kuch nahi hua mein apni jagah se utha aur nikal pada vahan se......
 
Update - 77

" you sick.. " window se lagte hi vo boli.

" aaj tak mene aisa kisi ladki ke sath kiya nahi hai, majbur mat kar.. " mein uske kareeb aya, literally uske chehre ki fati padi thi, vo apni ankhon ki madad se niche ki taraf dekh rahi thi.

" kya karoge ? " usne ankhon ki putliyan phir meri taraf ghumai aur apni himmat banaye rakhi.

" is window ka lock kidhar se khulta hai.. " mein uske behad kareeb aa khada hua. Meri ye baat sunte hi uski eyebrows aise upar chad gayi jaise ek khuni yani ki mein uske samne khada hai.

" what are you saying ? dekho mujhe aise joke pasand nahi hai " uski sansein tez ho gayi.

" mujhe bhi... " mein uske chehre ke bilkul kareeb aa gaya.

" what do you want ? " uski awaz ruansi ho gayi.

" same question.. " vo meri baat ka matlab samajh chuki thi.

" please... kya chahte ho tum... " usne meri shirt pakad li.

" tumhari khwaish puri karna.. "

" are you mad ? jo tum soch rahe ho vo nahi ho sakta.. "

" mein kya soch raha hun.. "

" you wanted to have sex... " vo itna bol kar chup ho gayi. Uske chehre par sharam thi jiski mujhe umid nahi thi.

" don't you.. ? " english ka vajan jada hota hai .. aise halat mein isliye mera flow sahi na hote hue bhi usi disha mein tha.

" no... " kehte hue usne apni ankhein fer li.

" sure ? " mere sawal se usne mujhe ghura.

" i m not a bitch... " vo gusse mein boli jaise mein uski izat ke sath khilwad kar dia ho.

" ok.. mene aisa socha bhi nahi tha ... i thought tumhari kuch desire hai.. samajh sakta hun us raat tum nashe mein thi... theek hai.. " mein piche ho gaya. " par ek baat ye bhi sach hai.. ki u want something.. aur tumhari ankhein aaj nashe mein nahi hai... " itna bol kar mene use ek pal ke liye dekha, vo usi position mein khade hokar dekh rahi thi.

" aur vaise bhi tum itni khusbsurat bhi nahi ho.. ki mein.. tumhe chance deta rahun.... kyun ki every pussy is not lucky.... " mein mud gaya, kaha to mene bahut hi chatkare lekar tha, lekin itne waqt baad aaj pehli baar mere pure plan... mere itne mehnge soche hue dialog ki maa chudi thi... seriously itna dukh mujhe tab hua tha jab india pakistan se hara tha vo bhi champions trophy ke final mein

Vo kehte hain na.... Haar har samay nahi rehti.. vaise to pichle kuch dino se haar hi raha tha.. lekin ye waqt badlega.. ab to sirf ek hi ka sahara bacha tha jo meri zindagi ke is bure waqt ko badal sakti thi. ' bc ankita mam se yaad aya unhe phone milana bhul gaya... yahan se nikal kar unse milne jata hun.. chutie ko bol dunga ki ghar mein kuch kaam aa gaya hai... han ye sahi rahega.. ' mein bas aage badta use pehle socha ki is item ko sach bata dun.. khama-kha zindagi bhar afsos aur guilt mein mar jayegi... ab jab mujhe ise kuch lena nahi to kam se kam de hi du.. kush ho jayegi bechari.. ' mein bas muda hi tha ki sala jo jhatka mene dene ki sochi thi vo usne mujhe de dia
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Kahani mein bhabhi, aunty, naukrani, gf, friend, dost ki friend, dost ki friend ki friend, friend ki cousin, sister ki friend, brother ki friend, friend ki friend ki cousin uske relative mein hone vali chudai ki kahani padhkar bahut muth mari hai aur har time bas yahi socha hai kya vakai mein ye sach ho sakta hai? itna hi nahi, aye din hum reality tv show mein ya kai baar sun lete hain ki gf fucked with his bf friend and vice versa par yakin karna mushkil hota tha kyun ki jahan mein rehta hun vahan ki society itni high nahi hai kyun ki vahan to bc gf/bf dur ki baat hai koi ladki ladke ke sath dikh jaye to ghar-ghar ki aurtein padosiyun ke sath yahi batein parosti hai, isme mein dusron ko kya kahun meri maa bhi aisi hi hai.. shayad ye meri society hai isliye itna sab soch to rakha tha lekin yakin karne ki koi vajah nahi thi kyun ki kabhi aisa dekha nahi tha lekin...

Mein jab sheetal ko batane ke liye muda to vo bilkul mere samne khadi thi, yani najdeek, ek pal ke liye usne meri ankhon mein dekha aur phir mere galle lag gayi, normal valla nahi ek dum tight wala, ye achanak kya hua ? khud se pucha par phir aise hi galle laga raha, jab vo nahi hati to mene bhi reponse dia aur use apne hathon ke niche daba lia. 1 minute tak to hum dono aise hi khade rahe honge.. maybe use kam ya jada keh nahi sakta lekin maza bahut aa raha tha aur vo maza tab badla jab usna apna sar piche kiya aur mere chehre ke aage apna chehra kar liya, bilkul satte hue chehre the hum dono ke, sansein ek dusre ke uppar hi gir rahi thi, naam matr hawa nikalne ki jagah thi, bc isne to mera lawda jaga dia. Sahi mein behad erotic, khatarnak eroticness sensation paida kar dia tha. Mein to honth rakhne hi vala tha ki usne hi rakh dia jaise jo sensation mere andar hai vo apne andar rakhe baithi hai....

Pehle to dhire-dhire shuruwat hui, ek do bar honth jude phir hat-te.. phir jude phir hat-te.. phir jude .. is baar lambe time ke liye, phir alag huee, kasam se ye khel mein zindagi bhar khel sakta tha, mere hath uski pith par nagin dance kar rahe the bc.. uske hath mere shoulder par the, vo bilkul still khadi thi, bas honton ka use kar rahi thi.. alag hue honth jab is baar jude to jabar jude.. hum dono ek dusre ko honton mein harane ki jung mein lag gaye, honth chuste chuste mein uski pith ko sehlata hua uski gand tak aya aur vahan sehlane laga, kabhi uska sar piche ki taraf jhukta kabhi mera.. yani hum dono hi takat lagane mein kami nahi dikha rahe the, kissing bahut uppar sthar par pahunch chuki thi.. kiss karte hue mein sheetal ko piche ki taraf le gaya ya phir mere force se hi vo piche ho gayi aur tab tak hui jab tak vo window se na takra gayi. Jaisa mene kaha tha is bar jo honth jude vo hatne ka naam nahi le rahe the lekin mera mood ab hothon ke aage aa chuka tha, mene apne honth hataye aur uske galle ko chumta chatta hua gardan tak aya vahan chata... hath se uski dress chatiyun ki taraf se niche karne laga jaise fad dena chahta hun aur vahan apne honth rakh kar chus lena chahta tha. Sheetal ki garam aur sensation mere kano mein gunj rahi thi, mein bhi uski gardan chatte hue chatiyun tak pahuncha hi tha ki vo ek dum bol padi.

" no.. " usne fauran mera sar piche kar dia, uska aisa karte hi mein sidha khada ho gaya. " not more... " usne tez chalti sanson se kaha, mein uske chehre ko dekh raha tha, uski awaz jo keh rahi thi vo uske chehre par bilkul nahi tha. Mene apne honth aage badaye taki phir se use mood mein kar dun.. par usne apni gardan fer di, jab mene uski nazron ka picha kiya to paya vo window se niche ki taraf dekh rahi thi. Bc... salli ghasti kahin ki... kasam se yahi nikla man mein... in ladkiyun ka mood behenki lodiyan.. itni jaldi badalti hai jitni jaldi to uppar wala ek miti ka putla nahi bana pata hoga.. pata nahi kaun se chemical se inka mood bana hai ha baar naya hi result ata hai.. sala mood nahi hogya infinite loop ho gaya.. jitni bar chalega kuch alag hi output dega maa ka lawda.... gusse mein mera jee kiya thapad hi dun lekin phir dimag ne kuch aur hi mehsus kiya aur ye bataya ki is wat ye situation is gusse ka nahi balki fayda uthane ka hi hai...

Sheetal vaise hi khadi thi... mein maze to pure lena chahta tha ache se khol kar lekin vo to aage bhi ho jata filal to is botal ko kholna jaruri tha.. glass mein to baad mein bhi ujhal jayegi.... mene bina der kiye uske kandhe pakade aur use palat dia. Vo kuch samajh pati ise pehle to vo palat chuki thi, uske palate hi mein use sat kar khada ho gaya aur apne sharir ko uske sharir se ragadne laga, body to body massage...

" aaah.. ankit... no.. " usne ankhein band kar li thi. Par force rati bhar bhi nahi tha, matlab rati bhar bhi.. yahi mera signal tha.. tabhi to mene direct apna lund nahi pela tha mein dekhna chahta tha.. aur mera sochna sahi hua ladki behad uljhi hui thi.. vo chahti to bahut kuch thi lekin ruk rahi thi aur mujhe bas isi soch ke bich mein apna kaam kar dena tha ise pehle koi ek soch havi ho jati.

Mene uski nangi pith par kiss karna shuru kar dia, vo no no karti rahi, par ye mera ek tarika tha jise is time ke andar mein apna lawda bahar nikal lun. Mene apna lund bahar nikla... sheetal ka pehla top jada mehnat nahi karni padi.. hath andar gayi uski penty niche hui aur mene apna lund uski gand se sata dia, is baar bina kapdo ke tha... bc aag nikal rahi thi.. andar se.. bahut garam thi.. aise garmi to mene aa tak mehsus nahi ki thi... han uski wetness to bahar se mehsus nahi hui thi abhi tak.

" ankitt.t...t.t " usne apna hath piche kiya aur mere chehre ko pakad liya, ab bas yahi mauka tha, mene lund set kiya aur kisi tarah uski chut ke ched par tikka kar dhakka mara. Window ke zor se hilne ki awaz ke sath sheetal ki awaz ayi par lawda andar nahi ghusa paya kyun ki uski chut band thi, vo khadi hi aisi thi. Mene ghutne se uski tang kholne ki kosish ki par nahi khol paya, ise pehle mein kuch karta, vo tangein jiski thi usne khud khol di, signal free ka mil chuka tha yani ab nonstop manzil tak pahunchne ka signal. Mene lund par phir zor mara aur is baar lund sheetal ki chut mein ghusta gaya, aaahh maza aa gaya... wetness, smoothness.. hotness.. sabka ehsas ho gaya.

" eeeeeeh... aah.. " usne jaise awaz ghont di, mein uske kano ke pas hi chehra liye the, isliye mene fauran use apne honton mein daba liya, hum dono ke badan ek dusre se jud chuke the, aur judte bhi kyun na mera ang jo usne apne ang mein chura liya tha. Bas ek baar mein use chumta hua niche tak ana chahta tha, islie mein uski pith par kiss karte hue niche tak jhuka jitna jhuk sakta tha phir uski gand valle hisse ko pakad kar apni pakad uspar banai aur apni kamar piche karke ek zor se jhatka dia, is bar bhi same wahi hua, window ke hilne ki awaz ayi aur phir sheetal ki band galle mein dabi sisakne ki awaz. Mere chehre par hansi ubhar ayi kyun ayi ye to nahi bataunga abhi.. par ab time the fuck the pussy.....

Mene sheetal ko chodna shuru kiya aur chudte chudte .. vo standup doggy position mein tabdeel hoti gayi, uske dono palm window par the, lekin jhatke itni zor se mar raha tha ki bar bar vo hath fisal raha tha, isliye uske hathon ke nishal window par chapte jaa rahe tha, ab vo guthi hui sisakne ki awaz thodi khul gayi thi aur vo sisal rahi thi. " eeeeehhhhhhh aaaaahhh uhmmm... aahhhhhh " abhi bh vo bich bich mein honton ko daba rahi thi, lekin mujhe use kya.. ladki chud rahi thi aur mein chod raha tha, lund ko chut ke andar jad tak gusa kar... wah.. re...wah.. kya maza aa raha hai... dost ki gf.. usi ke ghar mein... aaaaah... maza to mujhe bahut aa raha tha, par tabhi mujhe dost se kuch yaad aya.. kuch bahut purana jo mene apne dost se vada kiya tha.. yaad hai apko ?

" chinta mat kar ek din teri gf ki gand teri hi samne marunga bc.. " ye baat men vicky se kahi nahi thi lekin man mein.. par khud se jarur promise kiya tha.. ye sochte hi mere chehre par ek baar phir muskan jaag gayi. Mene window ki taraf dekha vicky samne hi tha.. bilkul samne.. ek kanch ke tukde ke samne... mene usi pal dhakke lagane band kar di aur lund bahar khinch liya. Achanak se hue is bartav par sheetal ne mujhe piche ki taraf dekha aur tabhi use apni galti samajh ayi, uske piche dekhne ka matlab tha ki use vahi maze mil rahe the jo mujhe, usne fauran samne dekhna shuru kar dia aur usi position mein khadi rahi.. signal number do.. ladki chudna chahe par keh na paye yahi haal sheetal ka tha.. aur mein kaun sa use chhodne wala tha... mene to lund pakda pana jo uski chut se gila tha aur rakh dia uski gand par..

" ankit ... no way... not there... " vo piche mudti hi cheekhi par kya faiyda tha.

" ghabrao mat i know.. " mene dhemi awaz mein kaha aur ek halka jhatka dia lund ka supada ghus gaya... vo dard mein cheekhi aur uski pakad window se hat gayi par tabhi meen uski chatiyun ke aage apna hath laga lia aur use pakad liya.

" bas ek aur... " itna bol kar mene dhakka mara aur lund uski gand mein andar.. Woooooooohhhhhhhhhh... betichod... behenchod... madarchod... gandchod..chutchod..duniachod... universe bhi chod bc...............

Mera reaction tha ye andar se jab mene apna lund uski gand mein dala tha, ye mera first time tha... kisi ladki ki gand mein... bina soche mene apna vadaa nibhane ke liye gand mein dal dia tha.. sheetal ki jitni fati utni meri bhi.. sheetal hath paun mari par kuch hi second mein vo shant lekin mera lund to abhi tak jal raha tha bc.... jab vo shanti hui to khud ba khud window ka sahara le li lekin mene apne hatha nahi hataya... mein vaisa hi khada raha... aur jab mein aise hi bina kch khade raha to usne khud kamar hilani shuru kar di... jiske baad mujhe hosh aya sheetal dhire dhire gand hila rahi thi... vo jitna chahe chupa le par uski andar se jo atma keh rahi thi vo vahi kar rahi thi.... ye chiz hi aisi hai bc.. ek baar ghus jaye to achon achon ke keleje mein ched kar de... mene socha aur phir apna lund andar bahr karne laga... bc itna tight tha.. ki meri to gand ka ched chunna sa ho raha tha jab bhi lund bahar khinch raha tha.... sheetal ab sisak rahi thi paglon ki tarah...

" aaaaaaaaaaaahhh..... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah... ankit... please.... don't....aahahhhh fuckkkkk... mee.e..... ohhh aahhhhhh ..... i am about to cum... yessss... aahhhh fuck... fuck fuck fuck fuck... meeeeeeeee..... " meri aur uski nazar dono ki nazar niche thi, vicky aur uske khud ke parents par... sheetal ki ankh se pani nikal raha tha jiski vajah se uska kajal faialta jaa raha tha, mein chodne mein laga hua tha.. lekin gand marne mein iti mehnat lagti hai ye nahi janta tha.. do jhatke aur mare aur jab teesra marne gaya tab hi samajh aa gaya ki ab bas nkal hi jayega..

" aaahh.. aaa. " mene lund ko bahar se andar dhakela aur ek ke baad ek chote chote jhatke marta hua jhadne laga. Vo bhi sisakte hue ankhein mich kar khadi ho gayi aur usne apni gand ka ched aur sikud gaya jise mera lund jo pehle hi chus chuka tha gand ke dab jane ki vajah se sale mein se aur sperm nikal gaya jsine meri to gand ka ched bada kar dia bc. Hum dono standing doggy position se sidhe khade ho gaye aur mein uski hi pith se sat kar hafne laga, mera lund bahar aa gaya tha uski gand se aur sahi mein relief mila tha, vo bhi window par apne sharir ka dabav lagaye khadi kuch soch rahi thi ya dekh rahi thi... who cares man..
 
Update - 76

Agar mein ye kahun ki jo mene kaha vo sirf meri ek soch thi ? to kya hoga.. socho ? Kuch yaad aa raha hai ? ya phir Dimag kharab ho raha hai ? ye phir chutiap lag raha hai ? Socho bas ek soch kitne sawal paida kar deti hai.. meri batai ek soch se mein khud pareshan hun to baki kyun nahi honge..

" kya hua ? koi problem hai ? " vicky ne mujhe hilakar pucha.

" hmm kya.. "

" kaha kho gaya... sheetal ke mom dad hai.. dhang se behave kario "

" teri bc.. " mein use khub gali marta lekin shant raha kyun ki mein abhi tak apne hi uljhano se lad raha tha. " susu aya hai bahut tez... yahi kar lun kya... " andar ghusne se pehle mene vicky se pucha.

" chutia hai kya.. bc andal toilet hoga.. andar kario " vicky kuch sheetal ke maa baap ko lekar badbada raha tha something aisa.. " dono pakayenge ab.... " par mera dhayan do jagah par tha.. ek tha susu dusra to wahin jahan aap sab bhi abhi tak soch rahe hain... kamal ki dunia hai .. yahan tatte ufan par hai aur sabko apni pareshani ki padi hai maa ke lawdon ek din tumhare tatte ufaan par ayege tab samjh ayega..

Andar atte hi sheetal ke mom dad baithe the jinke milte hi randi rona welcome kiya yahan bc jeans bhi fat jaye aise tatte fat rahe the.

" aur beta vicky how's college, sheetal was saying ki aaj kal pressure jada hai " uska baap bola, abe college ka nahi tatton ka pressure hai.. bhosdike ye fat gaya to tera ye farmhouse mutr-mukt ho jayega mere mutr se

" abe mujhe bahut zor se aa rahi hai mein bahar deewar par kar ata hun tu yahan ye chutiap kar " mene vicky ke kaan mein bola to jaise use kuch yaad aya.

" any problem ? " uski maa boli.

" nothing aunty.. vo ankit ko actually washroom jana tha. "

" oh .. no worries beta.. andar jakar right lena vahan se left... " usne itna hi kaha aur mein to jaise vahan se aage badh gaya... andar ghuste hi right muda aur vahan sidiyan dikhi to vahin chad gaya, sidiyan chadte sath vahan sab khali.. iski maa ki chut galat address de dia par tabhi aage darwaja dikha, to mujhe laga wahi hoga, par vo band nikla, mene zor zor se knock kiya tab uske khulne ki awaz ayi aur vo khula.

" you ? " sheetal mujhe dekhti hi boli.

" tu bathroom mein kapde pehen kar nahati hai "

" ohh hello.. ye mera room hai... "

" washroom ko hi room bana liya hai.. tum bade log bc kuch bhi kar sakte ho.. ek andhe ko langda bula sakte ho aur ek chutie ko samjdhar bf bana sakte ho.. "

" what the fuck... " vo chillai.

" tum yahan kya kar rahe ho ? " vo raste ke aage se hat nahi rahi thi.

" tune hi to bulaya hai "

" no .. i didn't "

" invitation to tune hi dia tha parking lot mein us din.. ab palat mat.. nahi.. palat jaa... "

" tum kya bakwas kar rahe ho... vicky kaha hai " vo gusse mein cheekhi.

" tere piche... " mere bolte hi vo palti aur mene use kandhe se dhakka dete hue hat gaya.

" oyee.. kahan jaa rahe ho "

" susu karne... tu bed par susu karti hai.. " andar ghuste hi dayein aur bed pada tha.

" washroom udhar hai... " gusse mein uski chatiyan fatne ko thi, bathroom ki aur ishara pakar mein turant vahan gaya aur chain khol apna lawda bahar nikal kar jo muta hai... matlab jo mutna shuru kiya hai.. maza hi aa gaya.

" useless... total useless.... gate ko band bhi karna hota hai.. " vo bahar se cheekh rahi thi lekin mein apne mutr visargan ki dhun mein leen ho gaya tha.

Susu ki rahat se bahar akar jab mera dimag flow control mein aya jo tatoo ke flow mein kahi kho gaya tab hath dhote hue mene abhi theek 7 minute pehle ki ghatna ke bare mein socha jahan sochte hue vo mene sheetal ki chumi le li thi.. really man ? shit... sala ab to sach mein kahani padna band karna padega.. ya phir kahin mein bhi time travel karna sikh gaya hun.. khud se joke marte hue mene ye to samajh liya ki is bar meri soch khuch jada hi dur tak chali gayi... sala reality ka touch de gayi bencho.. Hath dho kar mein bahar aya to sheetal kamre mein idhar udhar ghum rahi thi vo bhi tezz kadmo se.

Tatto ke pressure ne ye to mujhe dikhaya hi nahi ki sheetalbomb lag rahi thi, purpule colour ka one piece pehna tha jo thigh tak tha uppar se no sleeve not a single patle wala dhaga type sleve... sala pura khulla... gazab lag rahi thi benchod

" what the fuck u are thinking ? " vo mujhe dekhte hi chidte hue boli.

" susu .. "

" what.... " itni buri shakaal bani usne ki sari tharak bc gas mein pichwade se nikal gayi...

" su...su.... jo karte hain vo mein.. "

" shutup.. i know what is su... i mean.. i know.. but ye kaun sa tarika hua kisi ke bedroom mein ghusne ka.. aur uppar se itni gandi batein "

" kaun si gandi ? "

" ki mein bathroom mein kapde pehen kar nahati hun "

" kamal hi ho gaya yar tum ladkiyun ka.. ye baat gandi hai.. to phir bina kapdo ke nahana gandi baat nahi hai "

" eeeeeeeeh... forget it.. u are cheap... "

" and still you can't buy me.... " wahh betichod... ise kehte hain dialog par dialog.. mein to kasam se ek din movies ke dialog likhunga... sabhi ki gand fad dunga theatre mein... waoo awesum feeling ayegi jab itni sari gand fat-fat kar ek sath seats par fategi... Mujhe andar se bahut khushi hui dialog marne ke baad par shayad sheetal ko na hui isliye vo mujhe ghurti rahi.

" disgusting... i don't know why even i am tolerating you "

" because tu mujhe pasand karti hai isliye "

" huh.. your dream... "

" ok... to phir maybe darti hai ki kahin mein vicky ko bata na dun ki us raat party mein tune mere sath.. "

" enough... " vo unchi awaz mein boli.

" jada tez na bol tera sathi apne saas sasur ke sath hi hai " mene uske piche ishara kiya, ek badi window jahan se niche ka nazara saaf dikhai de raha tha. Sheetal ne piche mud kar niche ki taraf dekha aur phir meri taraf mudi, mein uske kuch kareeb aa khada hua tha.

" look... ab vo baat over ho chuki hai.. you can't blackmail me forever... "

" mene tujhe blackmail kab kiya ? kya mene tujhse teri nangi tasveerein mangi.. ? ya phir tujhe force kiya ki tu mere sath sex kare ? anything ? " is baar mein uspar havi hui. Vo chup ho gayi... ladkiyan sochne ke baad bhi soch kar nahi bolti aur isi baat ka faida mein utha raha tha.

" so what do you want ? " vo kisyate hue boli.

" same question "

" what ? " is baar uski volume low thi.

" what do you want.. " mein uske aur nazdeek aya.

" look ankit.. tum jaisa samajh rahe ho vaisa kuch nahi hai... "

" you are guilty... " mene use bich mein roka.

" sorry ? "

" you are guilty ki tum us din mere sath sex karte hue hosh mein nahi thi.. " mein ek pal ke lye ruka aur uske expression padne laga. " varna tum vicky ko chhod deti... " usne meri ankhon mein dekha aur phir eka-ek hans di.

" are you mad ? tum mujhe samjhte kya ho ? " attitude bhari nazron se usne mujhe dekha.

" A girl with a pussy... " ye line mene kahi suni thi ya phir mene khud banai nahi janta lekin ye line sunne ke baad uski shakal bheegi billi ki tarah ho gayi.

" you just go away .. otherwise... "

" varna kya ? "

" mein batata hun tujhe ki tu chahti kya hai... tu mujhe chahti hai ki mein tuje aise dhakka dun.. " mene use push kiya...

" ankit... " vo cheekhi.. lekin mene use push kia... dubara push kiya aur tab tak push kiya... jab tak vo piche window se na takra gayi... Aaj iska marna tay tha.. ab chahe ye suicide dikhe ya murder.. par marna to isko tha hi...
 
Update - 75

Wahi hua jiska mujhe dar tha, behen ke lawdon ne bahut sahi gand chodi hamari, company to ayi lekin company ke naam par consultancy ... madarchod .. uske baad gand fad apti matlab gand fad mein to pehle hi round mein bahar ho gaya par second round mein bachon ne kya ukhad liya.. i mean kya ?? first round valon ke kapde fate, second round half-rape ... jike baad sirf 1 bacha.... yani sirf 1 bacha select hua PI ke liye.. behnchod samajh nahi aya ki vo hume lene aye the ya hamari aukad jhadne.... itni aukad to mera lund nahi dikhata mujhe ... hilao to pani jarur nikalta hai chahe lagatar 4 bar kyun na mar lu bund to tapka hi deta hai par college aur unki bulai company unhone to sukha hi bachon ke dimag mein ched kar-ke chhod dia aur aisa nahi ki us 1 bache ka selection ho gaya jab PI mein gaya to aisa miti ka tel daal kar bhuna use interviewer ne ki bencho narak ke mein logon ko bhune ke kaam mein uska contract sign ho gaya... ... talented bando ko kahin bhi jagah mil jati hai... even narak mein bhi....

" benchod gand fad di yaar.. aise aise question matlab aise aise question.. asal mein unhe fresher chahie nahi unhe to koi experience chahie tha.. ye salle college valle chutia banate hai.. dikhane ke liye aye... varna fresher se aise question puchte hai.. mein to programming round mein hi samajh gaya tha.. le li interviewer ne meri... " vo baklol jab se interview dekar aya tha tab se ek-ek ke pass jakar ye bak raha tha.. same story, same bullshit.. same melo drama... same chutiapa.. Well ye thi hamari college life ke end hone tak ki dastan.. waise to ab tak farewell ho jana chahie tha..aur ho bhi jata lekin kuch lund uchal kar kud pade ki payal ki death ki vajah se hum farewell nahi lenge... inki maa ka bhosda.. aur uppar pahunch chuki us bhosdiwali ka bhaaasodaaa.... maa ki chut marne ke baad bhi apni panauti laga ke gayi isliye mene kaha ki college ka safar ab end ho chuka tha... shayad ek aad din hi jana reh gaya tha.. i mean fuck offf... bahut bada chutia kata mera is college mein ane ke baad... ab gand fat rahi thi future ki ? jisme sath dene ke liye ghar vale hamesha sath hi rehte hai

" koi company ayegi ya sirf ghar mein hi baitha rahega, muft ki rotiyan todega aur sara din laptop par baitha rahega " kamre se andar bahar karte hue maa ne tanna kasa. Mene unhe ignore kiya aur story padta raha.... is angle mein vo mujhe nahi dekh sakti thi ki mein kar kya raha hu

" meri koi izzat hi nahi hai ghar mein.. kutia hun jo bhauki jaa rahi hun jawab nahi dena " emotional atyachar ke melodrama ab shuru ho chuka tha jise mujhse behad chid thi.

" ab companiya ayegi tabhi na intervew dunga.. ya aise hi chala jaun "

" aise ghatia college mein admission kyun lia dekh kar lena tha na "

" pehle se likhwa kar nah laya tha "

" bas behas kara lo, ab kya karega sara din muft ki rotiyan todega "

" 2 din hue hai ghar mein baithe hue, aur tanne dekho apko.. itna hai to mat khilao... jada bolne ki jarurat nahi hai " mein bhi chad gaya ab matha kharab ho gaya mera ek dum

" izzat ki umid to tumse hai hi nahi ab.. aise hi bol sakte ho yahi sikhaya hai mene "

" pehle aap bolna sikh lo "

" han ab yah kaam hai mera.... sari zindagi kaam karo, phir pati ki suno ab bachon ki.. meri to kismat mein hi yahi likha hai "

" ab ye faltu ka drama mat shuru karo "

" han tujhe to ab drama hi lagega... "

" abe yaar had karti ho, ab jb companiyan nahi aa rahi tho mein kya karun... aur vaise bhi abh exam baki hai.. mil jayegi itna chilla kyun rahi ho " mein thoda shant hua.. maa ke emotional atyachar vale dialoge bahut dukh dete hai

" karna hai jo karo.. zindagi tumhe jini hai .. hamara kya hai budhapa ayega mar jayenge.. " itna keh kar vo chali gayi, par sala sidha dil par aa lagi baat, in benchod madarchod bhosdiwale gandu lawde .. haramzade college walle inki gand mein aisa dande de narak valle ki talne ke baad ek nayi dish izad ho.. dande vali gand stick chicken

Andar se itna buraa laga ki mein fatafat naukri dhundne mein lag gaya, profile banayi etc etc chutia job sites par.. bahut sari vo bhi... aur kuch der job khamkolne ke baad thak gaya, pith mein dard ho gaya tha isliye so gaya, sidhe sham ko utha.. muh hath dhoya khana vana kha kar tv dekhne baith gaya... fir raat ko khana kha kar kamre ki light off karke padh gaya benchod, din mein socha tha ki jam kar padai karunga interview ki .. aur padh bhi raha tha par ankita mam ke sath ho rahi chatting ke messages....

Aaj vo kuch jada hi mood mein thi aur mein bhi ban gaya tha... sala intrview ka pressure jaise ankita mam ne bahut ache se handle kiya tha... aaj kuch alag hum video call sex kar rahe the... haye asliyat mein chodne par aap dhang se dekh naih pate lekin ye kamukta behenchodddddd matlab iski to baat hi kuch alag hoti hai... naya feature abhi aya tha whatsapp mein aur is feature ka labh hum dono bahut gazab tarah se utar rahe the... fingering karte hue ankita mam aisi lag rahi thi ki abhi apna lund ukhadun aur phone ki screen ek andar dete hue chut mein pel do bc... like a fucking human dildo .... unki fingering aur siskiyan aur mera hasthmaithun.. aahahaaa..... cream rolll dabate hue cream jaise nikalta hai mere lawde se cream ki baarish tab hui jab unki fingering aur seduce karne ki power extreme level se bhi jada high ho gayi.. bc NASA ki 100GB per second ki internet ki speed se bhi jada .... cream ke sath mere pran bhi nikal jayenge bilkul aisach feel aya... kasam se maza maza aur totally maza aa gaya, kaun kehta hai sex mein maza hai.. bc janat to yahan hai..... aahahhhhh Is video chudai ke baad aur hastmaithun ke nikle saman ke baad jo nind ayi hai bhosdiwali .... i mean jo nind ayi hai.. sidhe 8 baje subh vicky ke phone ki vajah se khuli varna sara din sota benchod....

" han bol bc... " nind mein akheein khul hi nahi rahi thi. " nahi benchod abhi mein so raha hun.. mein nahi aa raha.... beti chod... itni dur na aa raha.. uske lye abhi se utna padega... kya.. acha... chal thik hai... fir adha ghanta aur so lun... han to bhasade ke bhiz abhi tujhe ek ghnata lagega... han mein adhe ghante mein ready ho jaunga jisme mein tatti kaurn ya na.... tu apni dekh bas agar tu late hua to salle teri gaddi mein tatti karunga... bhosdika... " phone cut-karke mene alaram lagane ke liye phone unlock kiya aur apni ankhein kholi jo badi mushkil se khuli, sabse pehle nazar gayi missed call paar... 4 thi..

" ye ankita mam thank u karne ke liye itni betab kyun hai kal raat ke liye. " unki missed call ko swap karke hatate hue mene kaha aur socha baad mein call karunga... phi socha whatsapp dekhta hun, phir socha chhodo.... so jata hun ankhein jal rahi hai bc likha bhi na jayega... ye soch kar adhe ghante ka alaram laga kar so gaya... Thik ek ghante baad mein vicky ki gadi mein baitha jo mujhe lene aya tha ghar par hi... pehli baar lund ne kuch aand jaisi akal ka istemal kia.

" kahan jaa rahe hain betichod subh subh utha dia uppar se meri maa... bc subh subh gali khilawa di vo alag... sara din ghumwa lo ye kar lo vo kar lo bass... ab bakega kahan jaa rahe hain "

" farmhouse "
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Farmhouse to logon se aise banwa rakhe hain jaise khairat mein bante ho vaise to khairat mein hi bante hue the, 2 number ke paise se to log desh ka paisa lut kar bhag gaye ye to phir bhi farmhouse tha. Khair farmhouse bana bada gazab ka tha, matlab bahut hi jada gazab, aage bada sa lawn aur piche badi si safed building aur shayad uske piche bhi kuch tha.

Vicky jab se hum aye the tab se hi sheetal ke maa baap se chuchya raha tha sala lugai kahin ka... 15 minute se khade the, vicky to chhodo sheetal ke maa baap salle sanskarless luliless.. kab se baate kar rahe the par baithna ka nahi bola tha aur yahan kahde khade mut laga pada tha betichod...

" ankit "

" mujhse kuch kaha ? " mein apne vicharon se bahar nikla.

" sheetal ko bula la yar.. mujhe uncle se kkuch baat karni hai "

" han behen ke lawde sale beti ko kitni bar choda hai yahi puchega uska baap, tabhi akele mein baat karni hai tujhe " man mein mene uski taraf dekha aur phir han mein sar hila.

" take right from that door and upstairs... " sheetal ki maa boli, ab samajh aya ki uski beti itni angrezi mein kyun bolti hai.. jo pait ho hi angrezan ka uske hole se to angrezan hi bahar ani thi..

" aisi kya baat karni hai jo apni gf ko bulane mujhe bhej dia.. bc ... kahin milf ko bhi to ... kya pata baap ko pata chal gaya, lekin sheetal ki maa ke thobde se to nahi lag raha tha uski chori pakdi gayi.. vaise uski maa bhi thik thak hi thi " mujhe jaisa bataya gaya to mein vaise hi uppar aya aur samne ek kamra dekh uski aur bada. Kamra band tha, ya nahi tha pata nahi lekin mene ghusne se pehle knock kiya.. bc koi na bola andar se.. matlab koi bhi nahi... mene phir knock kiya lekin phir wahi... uske baad mene koi kosish na ki, darwaje ko dhakka dekar andar hi ghus gaya..

Kamra khali tha, samne bade se sishe mein se suraj ki roshni andar aa rahi thi, kamra kafi jada chamakadar tha uski vajah se aur bade ka to kya kehna itna bada to hall bhi nahi tha mere ghar ka, mera kya normally hum jaise logon ke ghar nahi hota, ' gazab ka chutia banaya mujhe yahan to maal hi nahi hai... kahin raat mein ye kothe par to kaam nahi karti ... kal jada chudne ki vajah se vahin reh gayi ho ' mein mud kar jane laga ki itne mein bathroom se awaz ayi, ' kamre mein bathroom bhi hota hai.. kahan mein bhi kothe tak pahunch gaya... ' . Bathroom se sheetal bahar ayi, use jara bhi umeed nahi thi ki mein vahan hun, par usko dekh kar meri nazar uspar chipak gayi, uski pehni hui ajeeb si shirtt nighty whatever thighs ko bas touch kar rahi thi, chehre par abhi bhi nind thi aur vo abhi sone ke liye palang ki aur hi badh rahi thi.

" suraj chad chuka hai par ankhon ka nasha abhi tak utra nahi hai " meri awaz sunte hi jaise uske sharir ki karwat badal gayi, vo usi pal ghumi aur mujhe vahan khada dekh chaunki... aisa mene man mein socha par hua ulta hi, vo ubasi lete hue palti aur phir palang ki taraf badi.

" what are you doing here "

" mujhe nahi pehchanti, mein tumhara bf hun.. bas shakal kuch badal gayi hai.. aur pehle se jada smart ho gayi hai " meri baat sunkar vo hans padi,

" look your pysicque... hilta hua danda ho tum.. a stick with no polish... " maa ki chu itni badi bezati salli....

" jo stick use karni chahie.. usme bahut takat hai.. koi azma chuka hai " meri phir is baat ko sun usne palang se apna chehra utha kar meri taraf dekha.

" vicky kahan hai "

" vo raha .. tum use dekh sakti ho.. usne kaha ye tumhara har baar ka hai bol kar khud sote rehna, isliye vo bulane nahi ayega tumhe.. ana hoga to ayegi varna mein chala jaunga.. mujhe uski ye baat pasand nahi ayi to socha mein hi tumhe bulane chala aun.. " meri baat sun kar vo ek dum se khadi hui aur us khidki se niche jhankne lagi jahan se vicky use saaf dikhai de raha tha aur sath mein uske maa bap bhi. Mein to piche khada uske figure ko dekh raha tha, sach mein uski gand aisi dikh rahi thi ki bass... mera to lund hi khada hone laga tha... sahi mein hum laundon ko bas hint de do.. lund to bc example dene ke liye khud se ready ho hi jata hai.

" mazak kar raha tha usne aisa kch nahi kaha " meri awaz sun kar vo ghabra gai aur mud gayi, mudte hi vo mere chehre ke samne aa gayi, kyun ki mein uske behad kareeb khada tha. Face ke bilkul kareeb...

" what you want ? " uski ankhon mein kajal abhi tak laga tha, aur sone ki vajah se thoda faila tha, suraj ki roshni ki chamak mein dekh kar samajh aa raha tha ki ye ladki vakai mein khubsurat hai.. kyun ki agar koi ladki bina makeup ke khubsurat dikh rahi hai to samajh jao beauty uski natural hi hai..

" tum sach mein khubsurat ho.. "

" what ????? " vo shayad is baat ke liye taiyar nahi thi.. koi bhi nahi hota aur mene bhi sirf ek normal tone mein ye baat kahi thi....

" behri hai kya "

" tum.... " vo itna hi bol payi ki mene uske honton par apne honth rakh die, vo is baat ke liye bilkul bilkul bhi taiyar nahi thi, ek pal to use ye lag gaya ki ye ho kya raha hai aur jab samajh aya to dusre pal usne mere kandhe ko pakad kar mujhe piche dhaka de dia.

" are you mad ankit.... what the fuck u are doing.... " vo itni zor se chillai ki ek pal mujhe laga niche tak awaz gayi... mein bhi ek aad minute vaise hi kahda raha, mujhe laga shayad meri planing mein bahut bada hole reh gaya, ye mene nahi socha tha, aisa nahi ho sakta tha.... hona kuch aur chahie tha... shayad mene kuch jald bazi kar di.. phir mene socha maybe timing is right but not enough effort...

Mene uske honth phir apne honth mein le liye aage badh kar, usne phir mujhe piche karne ki kosish ki lekin is baar mene apni takat puri laga rakhi thi, vo kanch se lagi hui thi aur fadfada rahi thi, 10-20-25 second vo vaise hi fad-fadai ab meri bhi sansein fulne lagi thi mujhe laga sach mein gadbad ho gayi, planing ki maa chud gayi hai aur ab bahut solid chudegi.... ye mene bahut bada risk liya tha.. i mean had se jada risk...
 
Update - 94

Tumhare jawab sawal ban jaye to kaisa lagea tumhe ? kya tumhare pas uska jawab hoga ? agar ha to do nahi to kya doge ? Mene kahani ki tarah jawab to die par abi usi jawab ke aage sawal aye to mein chup tha.. kya ye meri galti thi ki mene usko aise jawab die ? shayad nahi.. ye galti na mere jawab ki thi na hi akansha ke sawal ki... ye galti hum insan ki hai.. jo na hi kahani samajh pate hain na hi zindagi ke us rishte ko jise nibhane ke liye hum shuruwat mein puri kosish karte hain aur baad mein ate-ate uspar apni pakad dhili kar dete hain... vaise bhi ye koi patang nahi jahan dhil dene par bhi jeet mil jaye.. ye zindagi ka vo part hain jahan dheel dete hi sab kuch khatam ho jata hai.. mene yahan yahi galti nahi ki... mene na to zindagi ko dheel samjha nahi hi dil mein panap rahe is rishte ko...

" kya pyar mein pyar ki bhi umeed nahi karni chahie ankit ? " akansha sawal karke chup rhi, uski ankh se abhi abhi ansu utra tha aur vo mere jawab ka intezar kar rahi thi.

" jis pyar mein pyar ki bhi umeed karni pade vo pyar hota hi nahi akansha " mene akhir apna jawab de hi dia.

" to phir i love you bol kar kya dikhate hain hum ? " aaj usne kasam kha rakhi thi mujhe fasane ki...

" keh nahi sakta.. par vo hum tabh kehte hain jab kisi se dur na hona chahte ho " mene aaj tak kisi se ye baat kahi nahi thi kyun ki meri life mein aj tak koi aisa aya nahi tha.. aaj se pehle...

" sab juth.. tum bhi juth bol rahe ho.. " mein ? par kaise.. puch nahi paya bas chup raha. " pyar kya sirf kehne ke liye hota hai ? ab jab mein us pyar ka waqt mang rahi hun.. use aage badana chahti hun to kyun vo piche hat raha hai ? "

" mein kuch samjha nahi akansha.. dekho tum mujhse sawal karogi to mein shayad uska jawab to de dunga par tumhari is takleef ko dur nahi kar paunga.. " mein use janna chahta tha ki akhir hua kya hai .... vo shayad meri baat ka matlab samajh gayi thi.. usne apni ansu poche aur ek gehri sans lekar usne mujhe bataya ki, Akash jiske sath akansha ka relation tha, jiski vo fiance banne wali thi vo pyar to karta hai par is rishte ko aage badane ki jab bhi baat ati vo use talta jata, ab akansha ki bato mein ye samajh nahi aya ki vo kaam ki vajah se tha ya phir koi aur par akansha ko ye chiz bardasht nahi ho rahi thi, vaise bhi mein kafi time se sun raha tha ki uski kabhi bhi engagement ho sakti hai lekin kabhi uske muh se aisa nahi suna tha, isliye lagta hi nahi tha ki vo kisi relation mein hai na hi kabhi akash ke sath uski itni baat hote dekha tha. Samajh to mere itna aa raha tha ki akansha use behad pyar karti hai par akash ka response bahut low tha, jaise use fikar na ho.. isliye akansha pareshan rehti thi .. aur is waqt bhi isliye jada thi kyun ki akash ki hui baat cheet mein uska jhagda isi baat par hua tha.. short mein kahun to ye wahi love story thi jo aksar hoti hai....par isme farak itna tha ki samne wale ko pyar to hai bas uske pas samay nahi kyun ki vo apni zindagi ke bare mein pehle soch raha tha aur akansha ke bare mein baad mein.. kya akash apni jagah sahi tha ? agar ha to kya akansha galat thi ? aur agar akash sahi nahi tha to akansha ka kehna galat nahi ? ya phir dono apni jagah sahi the ya dono galat... ? shayad nahi... shayad ye pyar hi galat tha... kyun ki jahan tak pyar ki baat hai.. chinta hume apni nahi hamesha uski hoti hai jisne hamari zindagi ko ek naya mod dia.. khud ki chinta to hum bachpan se karte aye hain.. to agar abhi bhi khud hi karenge to vo badlav ka faiyda kya ? ye to samne wale ke waqt aur uski chinta ki tauheen hai ... jo hum sirf apne matlab ke liye istemal kar rahe hain.. jab jab mauka mila humne use apnaya aur apni zindagi durust ki aur phir aage badh gaye use bhul kar... yani baat to wahi hui.. na mera jawab galat tha na hi akansha ka sawal... galat to insan hai..

" kya tumhe mauka nahi dena chahie kuch aur ... " mein dhire dhire bolte hue chup hua... " thoda aur... " ye baat bolne ka man to nahi tha par kehna pada.

" mazak hi karna hai mere sath to mein road par khadi ho jati hun... let everyone have a mauka.... " mein sunn.. uski sansein tez thi.. ankh se phir ansu aa nikle.. uski nazar itni paini thi mere uppar ki meri nazre hi niche jhuk gayi.. baat ke andar aisa tamacha mara usne ki mere andar ki sari samjhdari ghus gayi.

" mein sundar hun.. par kya farak padta hai.. shayad mera pyar sundar nahi hai" itna keh kar vo phir rone lagi... yakeen karna shayad meri baat ka har kisi ko mushkil hoga lekin mujhe aisa lag raha tha jaise vo mujhse shikayat kar rahi hai.. Uska rona mere kano mein chub raha tha, kya usne mujhe isliye apne sath rehne ke liya kaha tha ki vo mujhe apna dard suna sake ? nahi.. balki vo is dard se alag hona chahti thi isliye usne mujhe apne pas rukne ko kaha tha.. lekin mein kaun hun ? ek ajnabi.. ya had se jada ek naya dost.. aaj ke waqt mein insan kya hai kuch samajh nhi ata, ajnabi...dost... pyar.... kuch nahi samajh ata.. kyun ki hum jo dil se hain vo juban par bilkul nahi hai... phir bhi mujhe to kuch karna hi tha..

Mein shayad uska dard khatam to nahi kar sakta tha jabki karna to bahut chahta tha kyun ki mere dil mein ye pyar hi tha jo ki ab mein 'shayad' keh kar apne dil ko bevkuf nahi banana chahta tha... mene apna hath uthaya aur akansha ke hath par rakh dia jo vahin sofe par rakha tha .. jaise hi mera hath uske hath par gaya usne rona to band nah kia.. mera dil bahut zor se dhadak raha tha jbki ye uske sath hona chahie tha.. vo abhi shant nahi hui thi.. to mene is bar uske hath ko apne hath mein tham lia, use halka sa kas lia.. mujhe umeed thi ki vo bura manegi mujhe bahar bhej degi... kyun ki itna hak mere pas nahi tha ... hai na ?

Par mein yahan galat tha... usne bura nahi mana balki apne hath ko mere hath se kas lia, aur usi pal mene uski taraf dekha, vo chup ho gayi thi par abhi bhi ansu nikal rahe the.. par mein kuch nahi bola, aisa hi baitha raha.. kabhi kabhi hamare actions shabdon se jada dil ko rahat dete hain... Kuch der akansha aise hi baithi rahi phir dhire dhire vo sarakte hue mere kareeb ayi aur mere kandhe par sar rakh kar baith gayi... hathon ki ungiya apas mein mil chuki thi, jaise ye mera hi pyar tha jo mere liye hi bana tha... Jab insan itna jada kareeb ho jata hai to kuch chizein bhul jata hai aur is waqt mein.. ya yun kahun hum.. zindagi ke sabhi rishte bhulte jaa rahe the .... yahi vo pal tha jo naye rishte ka janam data ban gaya ..
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Kya khona, kya pana waqt se pehle na to keh sakte hai aur na hi waqt ane par use bhul sakte hain, jo bhi hota hai uske piche ane wali zindagi ki tasveer ban jati hai bas farak itna hota hai ki us tasveer ko dekhne ke liye hamare pas ankhein nahi hoti. Samajh nahi aa raha tha kya karu, kya kahun.. kya isi tarah akansha ke sath baitha rahun yun hi is rishte ko aage bada dun ? Agar zindagi mein koi mujhse puchega ki zindagi ki sachai uski takleef kya hai.. to mein uska purra dosh pyar ko dunga.

Mera hath usi tarah usi majbuti se uske hathon ke sath juda hua tha, time kitna guzra par akansha jaise abhi bhi waisi hi thi.. hamare liye kisi ke pyar ki takleef ek filmi kahani lagti hai aur usi mein hum sahabunti bhare dialog chap kar apni samjhdari dikha dete hain par asliyat mein uski takleef vahi samajh pata hai, hona bhi chahie, ek insan apna bhrosa, apna waqt sab deta hai aur badle mein shayad mangta bhi wahi hai ... mein akansha ki shayad hi madad kar sakta hun kyun ki mein to us dard se guzra nahi jo use samjha sake lekin phir bhi uske dard ko ache se samajh raha tha.

" akansha.. " usne suna par kuch kaha nahi, " pyar karne par takleef hoti hai ye to suna hai par dekh pehli baar raha hun.. " mein bahut soch soch kar bol raha tha jisme kai bar bich mein rukna padh raha tha mujhe, kano mein cartoon ke shor ki awaz, uske sath akansha ki .. jisme uski sansein.. uska dhadkta dil aur khamoshi..

" please... roo mat... sab theek hoga.. " mene kaha tha na hum sirf sahanbuti de pate hain wahi mene bhi kia. Vo kuch bol nahi rahi thi aur mere dimag mein khud se kabhi kuch ata nahi .. bina uske jawab ke kya bolu ? ye samajhta raha par kuch der baad vo boli, jisne meri uljhane bada di.

" keh do mein bevkuf hun jo ro rahi hun, vo bhi kisliye ? bahut mil jayenge jo mere sharir se pyar kar lenge.. " na jane kyun emotions mein hum khud ko ek bikau chiz bana dete hain jise ab har koi kharid sakta hai.. kya aaj ke waqt mein insan itna bikau ho gaya hai ?

" mere kehne ka vo matlab nahi tha akansha... mein... " ise aage ka mauka usne chin liya, usne apna sar utha kar mere chehre ke samne apna chehra kar dia.

" sab yahi kehte hain ankit... chehra dekho mera.. khubsurat hai na.. kisi ka bhi dil behla sakti hai... hai na ? to kyun mein us insan ko lekar roo rahi hun jab mujhe hazaron mil sakte hain ? " kehte hue uski ankh se ansu aa nikla, " pyar ko bechna hi hai to use kharid kar kyun nahi kar lete.. kitna asan hai na ? " is bar uski ankh se ansu nikle to mein dekh nahi paya aur mene uske chehre ko hath mein tham kar unhe ankh ke niche ate hi hata dia. Ye kya ajeeb waqt hai, kitna acha tha aaj se pehle par abhi ye sab kyun badal gaya, mujhe na akansha ke relation se matlab na tha aur na hi apni khushi se... matlab tha ki kisi tarah iska dukh hat jaye, mein sirf aise hi nahi keh raha yakeen karo mera, chehra akansha ka ... kehlwa raha tha mujhse...pyar ho gaya tha mujhe aur ab mujhe afsos ho raha tha ki kyun hua? Kuch rishte aise ban jate hain jiske khali panne bhi hume bharne padte hain aur mitane bhi hume hi padte hain... na to mein cha kar use apna paa raha tha na hi chhod paa raha tha.... kash chhod deta.. kash... akansha ko is waqt chhod deta agar pyar na hua hota to.. par is pyar ki majburi ne aise fansa dia ki na to ab alag ho sakta tha aur na hi is rishte mein aage badh sakta tha... ab mein kya bataun apna haal... samajh nahi paa raha tha ki is naam ko alag kaise karun khud se... na to juban se kuch nikal raha tha na hi dil se ise nikaal paa raha tha... bura fans gaya tha..

" bharosa rakho.. khud par ... jo tumhara hai use koi chin nahi sakta tumse " mene uski dono ankhein saaf karte hue kaha.

" aur jo kabhi ho hi na use kaise paun ? "

" tab ... bhul jao use "

" kya tum bhul jate agar tumhe is tarah mujhse pyar hua hota to ? " rulayegi kya pagli... kya bol dia isne... pakka ro dunga agar muh se kuch bhi nikal gaya to, aur bezati hogi alag... mene bas naa mein mana kiya vo bhi kisi tarah khud par kabu rakhte hue, varna ankhon se nikalte jarur, ansu ya phir us pal ki soch ka dukh...

" dekhaa.... tum to bina kare nahi soch sakte aur mujhse keh rahe ho ? " baat uski itni theek thi ki man kia abhi keh dun ki tum shayad nahi jaan paogi ki mein pyar kar chuka hun isliye mana kar raha hun...

" pyar doobara bhi hota hai akansha.. " mere muh se nikal gaya, shayad uski baton ne majbur kia tha.

" bajaru ban chuka hai pyar.. kharid lo... bech lo.. isliye to har bar ho jata hai " ye baat mujhe uski bahut galat lagi , aisa mehsus hua jaise mujhe hi boli gayi ho.

" guzara karte hain vo log zindagi ko, jo tumhare jaise pyar ko samjhte nahi ... par iska maltab ye nahi ki tum apni sachai chhod do.. " mein use samjha raha tha ya use rula raha tha kyun ki vo meri baat sun kar roo padi, mene use apna hath alag kiya aur uske chehre ko dono hath se tham lia, " pyar mein nafrat karna bahut asan hota hai akansha par use karke nibhana sabse jada mushkil.. aaj agar tumne pyar se nafrat kar li to tum zindagi bhar dosh pyar ko jabki isme uski koi galti nahi.. " usne apni nazre jhuka rakhi thi, mene apna chehra jhukaya aur uske kareeb le aya, " pyar bikau nahi hai akansha... vo bas mushkil hai... bas use pakde rakho... har nahi manni... nahi manni na ? " meri nazar uspar thi, vo mere sawal par han mein sar hilane lagi, banane vale ne aurton ko dimag kyun nahi dia iska jeeta jagta jawab mere samne the... kaise deta dimag ? kyun ki vo sirf umar se badi hoti hai asal mein to bachpana unka sath kabhi chhodta hi nahi.. ye mein isliye nahi keh raha kyun ki mujhe uppar wale ne bataya balki isliye keh raha hun kyun ki vo masumiyat is waqt akansha ke chehre par thi aur yahi vo ghadi thi jisme har ladka ek ladki se aise pyar kar baithta hai jo vo dilo dimag se nahi nikal pata aur mujhe bilkul wahi pyar ho chuka tha....
 
Update - 93

36 Hours Before !!

" aunty uncle kab se bahar hai ? "

" 5 saal ho gaye ab to.. "

" atte-jatte nahi ? "

" atte hain.. par kabhi kabhi "

" aap bhi wahi shift ho jaoge ab ? " ye sawal karne ke liye mene pure 2 min lagaye sochne mein ki kaise puchun

" maybe.. " usne apni ankhein gol gol karte hue kaha aur lunch karne lagi aur mein bhi phir achanak se vo boli.

" tumhari baat hui ghar mein ? " yaad tha use.. mein hi bhul gaya tha ki mene use sab bata dia hai ki mein ghar se kaise vapis aya.

" nahi.. " mene nazre niche kar li aur lunch karne laga. Mera mood badal gaya.

" why ? "

" aise hi... "

" ankit ? "

" ankit.. " usne dusri baar mera naam liya tab mene nazar uppar uthai kyun ki mein janta tha vo kya bolegi.

" tum itne mature ho.. phir aise kaun karta hai ? vo bhi apne hi parents ke sath ? and baat karo vo to shayad bhul bhi gayi hongi and expect kar rahi hongi tumse baat karne ke liye they always misses you trust me.. and you know na ki jab koi nahi hoga they are for you.. "

" aisa nahi hoga... mere liye mein hi kaffi hun.. " mera jawab sun akansha ek pal ke liye hairan hui.. shayad bahut.. kyun ki use mujhse aisa expect shayad nahi tha.

" Ok " iske baad vo kuch nahi boli. Mein janta tha jo mene kaha vo bilkul sahi nahi tha bilkul... Uske baad akansha ne meri taraf dekha nahi aur phone par busy hokar bas lunch karti rahi jaise mein uske liye kuch tha hi nahi.. usne meri taraf tab tak nahi dekha jab tak usne meri awaz nahi sun li.

" han maa... kya kar rahi ho ? " uske baad meri maa se kuch der tak baat hui aur jab baat khatam hui to akansha ne muskurate hue meri taraf dekha. Kaisa asar tha uske is rukhe pan ka jo bardasht hi nahi hua...Par jo bhi hua dil bada halka hua.. ek ajeeb sa bhoj jo tha kuch din se jo samajh nahi aa raha tha kyun hai vo is waqt nikal gaya.

" thank you "

" for what ? "

" bas aise hi.. galti meri thi aur mene hi baat nahi ki ghar par.. "

" i know... " raat ko batein karte hue kab time kat jata tha pata nahi chalta tha. Sone se pehle mein akansha ke bare mein hi soch raha tha.. soch kya raha tha balki use picture kar raha tha uske ho sakne wale fiance ke sath aur sath mein ye bhi soch raha tha ki mujhe kaisa feel hoga.. sach kahun.. ek baar to man kiya ki zindagi mein dard to mile par ye dard nahi jise nind mein bhi dil roye.. phir agle pal jab vo chiz mehsus hokar bardasht nahi hui to sochna hi chhod dia aur ye sochne laga jis raste ko chun nahi sakte use life ki paheli mein banana hi kyun.. Sona behtar option tha vo bhi bina kuch soche.. kyun ki hum us bare mein jitna sochte hain jo hamare liye hai par hume nahi milegi utni takleef hoti hai.. Insan hai yar .. janwar nahi jo mehsus karke bol nahi sakte.. roo nahi sakte...

12 Hours Before !!

Mene message kiya tha par reply nahi mila tha aaj, aisa pehli baar nahi tha kafi baar hua tha, lekin lunch par hum milte the, mein roz ki tarah vahin baitha tha. Par aisa nahi hua tha ki itni der baithe rehna pade, message mene kuch bheje par response nahi aya tha, nazar bar bar darwaje par thi.. lunch mein bahut hi jada tukdon mein aur dhire dhire kar raha tha ye soch kar ki vo aa jayegi par aisa hua nahi.. ek pal call karne ki sochi par nahi kia aur jo lunch 10-15 min mein khatam ho sakta tha usme mene 1 ghanta laga dia vo bhi pura nahi kia aur beman se khaya jo khaya.

Zarur office mein hi busy ho gayi hogi, ye soch kar mein office vapis aya aur phir uske office walle floor ki taraf chal dia. Ab office mein jakar kaise puchun ? meri nervousness hamesha mere sath jo rehti hai.. wahin khada raha andar nahi gaya mein... idhar udhar ghumta raha gate ke bahar jhankta raha... matlab mein janta tha ki andar jakar puchta to 2 minute lagti lekin 20 min se chakar laga kar apna khun ka pressure bada raha tha..

Yakeen mano mera mene kayi baar kosish ki andar jakar kisi se puchun par nahi puch paa raha tha
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uppar se rahul ko phone karta to uske sawlon se mera sar fatta aur uski gand... isliye us chutie ko phone nahi kia

40 minute nikal gaye, office se sar ke 2 phone aaye jis bich mein office jakar do chote mote kaam nipta aya, phone bhi check kiya mene apna par message ka reply nahi aya tha, call karne ki sochi par bas office meeting ka soch kar nahi kia, par aisi kaun si meeting thi ye ? pehla sawal.... aur mein itna bechain kyun ? dusra sawal... jawab khojta use pehle vo hua jo mein kab se soch raha tha ki bc is office mein koi bahar nahi ata kya ? tabhi ek admi bahar aya jo pata nahi office ka koi kaam karne wala hi lag raha tha.. cleaning types wala..

" excuse me bhaiya " meri awaz sun kar vo ruk gaya. " akansha madam ko jante ho tum ? "

" han. " vo aram se bola

" meeting mein hai ? "

" nahi sir, vo to ayi hi nahi aaj.. "

" oh.. " mere muh se ek bar yahi nikla aur phir ek pal ke liye blank. " thank you "

Office ke 6 bajane mushkil ho gaye aaj.. ajeeb sa mood off ho gaya.. bina kisi reason ke.. ye kaun sa reason hua ki usne mujhse koi baat nahi ki, lunch sath nahi kia to mood is tarah kharab ? Kisi tarah thoda bahut kaam kia aur sham ko nikal gaya. Raste bhar rahul kuch na kuch bolta raha lekin mene koi interest nahi dikhaya, ghar pahunch kar mein thoda laita... par sala is laitne mein kahin se bhi aram nahi tha... dimag kharab ho raha tha..

1 Hour Before !!

Mein akansha ke flat ke samne khada tha, i dont know kyun .. kaise... office ke andar nahi ghus paya tha yahan bhi yahi haal hai.. darwaja hi nahi khatkhataya jaa raha tha.. kyun ? aree samjho mein use kya bolta ki mein use milne kyun aya hun .... kya kaam hai mujhe ? usko to yah lagega ki mein uske sath flirt kar raha hun aur involve hone ki kosish kar rhaa hun ye jante hue bhi ki vo kisi aur ke sath ? confusion ne mere dimag ki nasbandi kar di thi. Akele nahi hui to ? kisi aur ke sath hui ? tab.. us time kya karunga.. koi bekar sa excuse... shit.. aya hi kyun mein yahan... Dil itni zor se dhadak raha tha ki next pal itna sab sochne ke baad bhi mene bell baja di.. aur phir to sansein tez ho gayi.. bc mera bp kisi din mere dil ki nasein fad dega.. ye mohabat sach mein kisi din marwyaegi... abe kya bola mein?

Iske aage kuch hota use pehle darwaja khulne ki awaz ayi.. aur akansha ne apna chehra bahar nikal kar meri taraf dekha, mene usi ek pal mein soch liya tha ki mein kaise react karunga..

" hi akansha.. " mein khule hue smily ke sath bola.. jaise mein kitna khush hun bina ye dekhe ki vo kaisi hai...

" i am sorry ankit... i can't talk to you.. please go.. " itna bol kar door band.. aur uske baad mera muh.. bc bc pehli baar kisi ke sath is tarah se mene confornt kiya tha aur usi mein chud gaya.. bc isliye kehte hai jab muth marni na aye to lund ko kisi bhi angle mein nahi modna chahie.. varna tumhari nasle tedi paida hone lagegi.... Mujhe bada gussa aya... khud par.. aur mera mood jo kharab tha uske attitude bhar aya .... man mein to bahut galiyan dene ka man tha khud ko... par bina kuch bole mein jane ke liye mud gaya.
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Mein samajh gaya tha ki iske piche reason kya hai aur khud ko bhi gali de raha tha ki mein aya kyun? ek hi din ki to baat thi... lekin phir bhi mein aya aur uska result ye nikla... bohat jada gussa aya... par kar kya sakta tha .. ye meri kharidi hui icha jo nahi thi... Mein vapis jane ke liye mud kar do kadam aage bada tha ki piche se mujhe rok lia. Kaun rokega... akansha hi ... Mein jab muda to vahi thi.

Vo kuch bol nahi rahi thi par usne mujhe pakde rakha tha. Vo ek tuk mujhe dekh rahi thi aur mein uske chehre jispar kuch ansu shayad abhi bhi reh gaye the aur vo behad pareshan dikh rahi thi, mein samajh gaya tha ki shayad phir kuch baat hui hai par har ki tarah mene tab bhi use nahi pucha.

" its ok akansha.. i am sorry mene tumhe disturb kar dia .. " vo mera hath chhod chuki thi. " i think mujhe chalna chahie.. " mene ek dafa use aur dekha, man to kar raha tha use gale laga kar uske sare dukh ko sokh lu apne sine mein lekin ye sirf kehne ki batein thi.. Bada hi asmanjas sa mahol tha, isliye mene jana behtar samjha kyun ki mujhe nahi pata tha akhir yahan karna kya hai.. Mein bas bye kehkar thoda hi piche hataunga ki uske lafzon se behad dhimi par is khamoshi mein bhi itni clear sunai di ki mere pair ruk gaye.

" co...m.e..e pl.e..as.e.. " uski awaz aisi thi jaise dard uske dil se nikal kar lafzon mein aa gaye ho.

' kya hua hai akansha ? tum is tarah pareshan ho.. batao.. mein sach mein tumhe aise nahi dekh paa raha hun.. please batao kya hua hai.. shayad mein tumhare is dard ko itna kam kar dun ki us dil ko pata bhi na chale ki dard hota kya hai ? bas ek baat batao to.. ek baar.. mujhe samjhao dekho kaise mein phir tumhe use itna alag kar dunga ki khojne par bhi sirf ek hi chiz milegi.. sukun.... ' ye sab batein mein bolna chahta tha.. kehna chahta tha lekin kya nikla... muh se.. kuch nahi sirf ankhein samne chal rahe tv par thi jispar koi cartoon film chal rahi thi aur mein bas sofe par baitha tha.. bagal mein baithi thi akansha vo bhi bas tv ki taraf hi dekh rahi thi.. Is this really so difficult ? kuch kehna.. par mein aisa to nahi tha.. mein bol sakta hun.. sidhe.. ki kyun ro ri hai ? chal aja.. kuch excited krte hain .. maza hi alag milega... nahi? shitt.. kya soch raha hun ye mein.. Mene ek taraf akansha ki taraf halki si nazar dali, uski dress bahut hi jada revealing thi.. uska top.. man mein ek ajeeb sa khayal aya... hat bc chutie... pata nahi kaise ajeeb ajeeb si batein aa rahi thi par jo bolna tha vahi nahi bol paa raha tha, shayad vo mujhse kuch expect kar rahi thi.. par mein hi tha jo uski expectation ko khatam kar chuka tha. Achanak se akansha ke hasne ki awaz ayi... mene usi pal uske chehre ki taraf dekha to vo vakai hans rahi thi par kyun ? phir uski nazar ki taraf dekha to uski nazar tv par hi zami hui thi, phir jab mene bhi tv ki taraf dekha to vo cartoon film ke scene par hans rahi thi..

Emotions.. Badi hi kutti chiz hai.. kai bar bikh dene ke liye 10 rs ka emotion nahi hota hamare pas aur kai baar itne emotions ikhate ho jate hain ki unhe hum sambhal nahi patte.. shayad kuch aisa hi akansha mehsus kar rahi thi aur mein abhi tak shant tha, meri nazar tv par thi par dhayan kahin aur .. phir agle pal vo hansti hui awaz rone mein badal gayi..

Vo is bar zor zor se ro rahi thi, chehre ko band muthi mein daba kar phir ek dum se usne rona band kar dia aur nak sikodti hui apne hathon se chehra saaf kia aur phir shant hokar baith gayi.

" akansha.. "

" uhmm.. " uska galla itna jada bhara tha ki ek pal mujhe aisa laga ki ye uski awaz nahi balki koi thokar hai jo shayad andar se use mil rahi ho.

" what happened ? "

" nothing.g. " vo mushkil se boli par boli, uska chehra ansu ... ankhon ke niche kajal aur un emotions ki wajah se bilkul lal ho gaya tha. Dil ab teharne ko mana kar chuka tha, usne meri soch band kar di .. Mein akansha ke thoda najdeek ja baitha... jada pas nahi par dur bhi nahi...

Mene apna hath uthaya uske hath ko uske chehre se alag karne ke liye taki mein uska chehra apne samne la paun.. par vo bich mein ek pal ke liye ruka.. mera hath.. lekin dil ke aage insan itna kamjor ho jata hai ki khud ka hath bhi gairana ho jata hai..

Mene bas uspar hath hi rakha tha vo ek dum se hadbada kar baith si gayi aur usne apna chehra samne kar liya aur mein bhi thodi dur hokar apna hath khinch lia. Mujhe laga shayad mene kuch galat kar dia, touch nahi karna chahie tha bas yun hi puch lena tha. Akansha bahut normal hokar baith gayi.. mujhe kabhi itne complex nature, emotions ko mehsus karne ka muka nahi dia tha zindagi ne, ya phir diya tha lekin mere pas hi emtions nahi the jaise is waqt the.. iske liye..

" tumne kaha tha ki hume kisi se umeed nahi karni chahie ... par kya bina umeed ke hum pyar ke rishte ko rishta bana sakte hai ? kya us rishte mein hume pyar ki umeed bhi nahi rakhni chahie ? " mere pas har baat ka jawab hota hi tha lekin is sawal ne jaise mujhe mere hi sawal mein pakad liya tha aur ise bahar nikalne ke liye mere pas kuch nahi tha...
 
Update - 92

" apne kaha tha na ki apke future ki khushi kahan hai ... "

Mene tab ye bolne se pehle nahi socha tha ki iska asar aur asliyat meri zindagi mein aage bhi ayegi.

" ankit, how ? i mean.. " use bilkul umid nahi thi uski ye confusion saaf bata rahi thi.

" i think, ki aap khush nahi ho " meri baat sunne se pehle uske chehre par smile nahi thi lekin kehte hi vo halka muskura padi.

" aisa to mene nahi kaha.. "

" bina kahe andaz samajh jana hi to feeling kehte hai akansha ji.. " mene ye baat kahi mazakiye tarike se thi, lekin mein us waqt ye samajh nahi paya ki is baat ke piche ka matlab kuch aur hi tha.

" why.. ? " kuch der pehle akansha jo apne darwaje par chup kar khadi thi ab vo uske shahare khadi mere se baat kar rahi thi.

" matlab ? "

" ye surprise kisliye.. " uske kehne ka matlab mere ane se tha.

" Ye surprise hai ? seriously... finally mene kisi ko surprise to dia. " mera reaction kuch jada hi over reaction tha.. Bahut si chizen sikhni thi mujhe.. Vo kuch nahi boli to mene hi apne reaction ko control kia.

" i don't know honestly, par han.. " mene ek second liya sochne ke liye " kabhi kabhi dil ki sun leni chahie kyun ki vahi dusre dil ke kori dhadkno ki awaz sun sakta hai... "

" how sweet... " vo bahut halki awaz mein boli par mujhe sunai de gayi aur mein nature ke viprit sharma sa gaya. Na vo kuch boli aur na mein.. ye aisi khamoshi thi jisne meri soch ko pareshan kar dia tha, mein kabi uski taraf dekhta to kabhi idhar udhar...

" are you ok now ? " akhir kuch na soche jane par mene yahi pucha.

" hmm.. " vo itni hi boli, mene pehli bar uski ankhon mein dhayan se dekha, pata nahi raat ki nind thi ya phir uski pareshani ..

" good.. mein ab chalta hun... take care.. " mere kehne par use jaise kuch yaad aya.

" ohh i m sorry.. andar aao.. mujhe to dhayan hi nahi raha.. i am so sorry.. " vo darwaje se hati.

" nah nah... phir kabhi.. raat bahut ho gayi hai.. good night.. u take care.. bye.. "

" bye... nd good night... " dono ke chehre par ek smile thi, mere chehre par isliye kyun ki mein khud se satisfed tha uske chehre par... ?

Subh alaram bajne par utha, par nind itni thi ki laita raha.. late to hona hi tha to socha ho hi jaye aaj late..

" uth ja .. " rahul ne meri gand par chapet laga di, sala ek number ka dalla bisexual hai.. harami.. mene man mein kaha par koi jawab nahi dia.

" tune kal akansha ka number itni jaldi mein kyun manga tha.. ? " mene phir koi jawab nahi dia.

" salle dalle bhul mat uska kabhi bhi tanka bhid sakta hai.. vo already numbered hai.. " pata nahi kyun uski is baat ne meri gand sulga di.

" teri gand mein kyun itne kide nach rahe hain... madarchod... apne kaam se kaam rakha kar.... tere se kisi ne pucha uska kya hai kya nahi.. aa jayega apni gand bich mein lekar marane .. itna hi shauk hai to sale red light par khada ho jaya kar roz.. bc ab ye launde sikhayenge hume jo khud apni boss ki gand mar kar office mein zinda hai... " vo mere chehre ko ghur raha tha.

" pyar se bhi bol sakta hai.. bhadak kyun raha hai.. ja taiyar ho jaa.. " vo phir meri gand par chatak lagate hue bola aur room se nikal gaya.

" aur bhosdike.. ye teri gand nahi hai jo hak samajh kar bajata rehta hai... "

" apni gand kaun bajata hai be ... i like every other gand's hahaha.. " vo bol kar flat se nikal gaya. mein kuch nahi bola aur phir naha dho kar office ke liye nikal gaya. Office pahunchne ke baad mene phone nikal kar net on kia to kuch apps ke notification aur whtsapp par messages the, jinme se ek akansha ka tha.

" thank you.. it means a lot, what you had done today.. " man to kiya nach uthun.. chatti ful rahi thi.. garv mehsus ho raha tha. Samajh hi nahi aya ki jawab kya dun ? Bas simple wala smily send kar dia aur phone rakh kar kuch thoda kaam pada tha use khatam karne laga.

" are you free ? lunch ? " uska message dekh kar chehra khil utha, kaam niptane ke baad jab phone dekha to uska message tha. Mene 'sure' likha aur phir use lunch par join kar lia. Vo kal ke mukable aaj kuch alag mood mein thi, yani khush.. pichle lunch ke mukable is bar hamari batein jada thi.. ek raat rishte mein.. nahi nahi ek pal.. rishte ko badal kar kahan se kahan le jate hain iska pata insan ko nahi chalta.. shayad yahi vo connection wali feeling hoti hai jisme hume umeed nahi hoti lekin phir bhi rishta jud jata hai.. shayad ise hi rishta kehte hain.... Do batein, do pal ki khushi aur phir unhi baton ka intezar.....

Mene kabhi is baat ko nahi socha ki mera use rishta kya hai, mene sirf us pal ko dekha jab uski mulakat mere sath hui, par jaise jaise waqt aage badh raha tha mein khud se haar raha tha... harna matlab kamjor ... Akansha ek aisi ladki thi jo itni straight thi ki mere jaise complex ke sath koi bhi rishta behad ajeeb tha, ye baat mene do teen bar khud se sochi bhi.. par mein jab bhi is rishte mein negative sochta to khud se hi gussa ho jata.

Lunch to jaise bina ek dusre ke ab hota nahi tha, ek din ki baat hai, lunch karte waqt vo mere sath apni kuch memories share kar rahi thi aur unhe share karti hui us memories mein vo phone par photos dikha rahi thi. Meri to samajh nahi aa raha tha kiski taraf dekhun, un photos ko ya phir uske hanste hue chehre ko jo bilkul mere chehre ke kareeb tha, aisa nahi tha hum dono ek dusre ke kareeb pehli baar baithe the, par filal uska itna kareeb baithna.. mene apni sans par kabu rakha, mein bahut galat jaa raha tha... aur khud se baar baar ye baat khud ko samjha raha tha. Par vo to befikar thi.. jaise kuch nahi hai.. itni befikar.. shayad jo mein feel kar sakta tha uske bare mein vo nahi soch rahi thi aur vo sochegi kyun ? galti uski nahi thi.. balki meri thi... Khud se sawalat karne ke baad mein uski kahani sunne laga.. aur vo apni memories share karti hui jab photos scroll karne lagi to mene ek dum se uska hath rok dia aur ek photo ko piche scroll kar dia.

" kudrat ki paheli ko koi suljha nahi sakta.. "

" kch kaha tumne ? "

" nahi bas.. " mein kuch keh hi nahi saka us photo ke aage, vo shayad subah subah ki li hui ek random click thi.. lekin random sirf vo waqt tha... tasveer to kudrat ki subah ki tarah gulabi thi. Itna nikhar jagne ke baad koi dekh le to shayad uska din kabhi bura jaye hi na.. uppar se vo banawati muskurana.. aisa laga jaise pahadon ke piche se suraj... mein ye soch kar hans pada ki us mahol mein akansha kya soch rahi hogi jo soch kar vo hansi.. aur akansha ne bhi fauran us hansi ko pakad lia.

" hans kyun rahe ho ? "

" nahi kuch nahi.. "

" nah.. kuch to baat hai.. tum hamesha baat ko aise tal dete ho.. tell me.. "

" ye photo.. " mene bas itna hi kaha.

" i know.. ye photo.. random click tha.. tum bhi jaan kar yahan ruk kar mera mazak bana rahe ho na.. "

" nahi .. this is the best... ye jo photo hai .. ye natural hai.. iska glow... " mein bahut kuch kehna chahta tha lekin ruk gaya... aur photo scroll karne laga, akansha kuch der chup rahi aur phir apni baat batane lagi.

Mujhe itna malum hai ki ek ladki apni tarif se ladke ke intension samajh jati hai aur is kahani mein jab mujhe khud apne intension nahi malum the to mein kaise akansha ko mere intension judge karne deta.. jabki i know ki vo kabhi bhi engaged ho sakti hai ?

Mein nahi janta tha hamara sath kitna hai aur na hi kab tak is rishte mein yun hi bina umeed ke mein khush rahunga par jab bhi tha mein khush rehta tha.. uski maujudgi hi kafi thi.. sab kuch normal chal raha tha, mere intension, meri feeling ko mein daba kar rakh chuka tha, par uske rishte sirf mujhse hi nahi jude the aur uski wajah se is normal kahani ki likhai badal gayi...

Mere hath uske hath ki taraf bade aur dhire dhire hi sahi mene unhe pakad liya, dil ye sab karte hue behad tez dhadak raha tha, mere hathon ka sparsh pakar jab uska response nahi aya to mene himmat karke uski taraf dekha, vo ankhein band kar chuki thi, jinme se shayad uske bhare ansu bahar aa nikle the, mein uske itne kareeb tha ki uske ansu ki chamak roshni mein nazar aa rahi thi, mein uske chehre ke najdeek gaya aur uske ansu ko chehre se saaf kar dia, meri bhari sansein uske chehre par padh rahi thi is baat ka abhas mujhe tha, kyun ki jis hath ko mene pakad rakha tha un hathon ko usne sofe par kas liya tha.

" akansha.. " mera itna kehne par usne apni ankhein kholi aur apna chehra meri taraf mod lia, chehre itne kareeb the ki uski sansein mere chehre par thi, aur khamoshi itni ki uski sanson ki ghabrahat, dil ki bechaini mere kano mein gunj rahi thi. Ye ek aisa moment tha jisme vichar, soch jab ghul jate hain kuch samajh ata to vo tadap jo us moment mein do dilo ke andar bhar chuki hoti hai aur nikalne ke waqt dunia ko bhul jati hai.. rishton ko bhul jati hai..

Mere aur uske honth ek dusre se ja jude jiske baad akansha ne mere hathon ko majbuti se pakad lia.
 
Update - 91

Meri baat ka koi reaction nahi dia usne, bada ajeeb sa moment hota hai ye samajh nahi ata ki kya kahe aur kya nahi..

" akansha.. " naam pukarne par usne reaction dia.

" hmm... " aur phir mera dhayan phone ke background ki taraf gaya uski itni khamoshi hi thi jisne us shor ko suna dia.

" ek ladki sidhi sadhi si.. soti raton mein jagi si.. " mene kaha aur vo ek pal ke liye samjhi nahi.. " yahi song sun rahi hu aap abhi.. mein bhi yahi channel par song laga kar baitha hun.. "

" bhighi bhagi si.. " vo boli.

" matlab ? "

" ek ladki bhighi bhagi ssi.. "

" han yahi song sun raha hun "

" tumne sidhi sadhi kaha.. "

" ohh acha.... "

" old song pasnd hai tumhe ? " usne mujhse pucha.

" nahi.. par kabhi kabhi sukun de dete hai.. as in relief.. "

" hmm " itni upset ? jada ho raha hai ye.. nahi koi badi baat hi hui hogi, par puchunga to vo aur upset hogi, isme koi faiyda to hoga nahi balki batein shayad yahi khatam ho jaye.

" apko yaad hai apne mujhse kuch pucha tha ? "

" hello ? " response na ane par mene kaha.

" uhmm... i am sorry.. mera dhayan nahi tha.. "

" ohk.. "

" tum soch rahe hoge ki kaha fans gaya ? its ok .. you can go.. "

" go se yaad aya.. meri maa ne yahi kaha tha aur mein do din pehle ghar chhod kar aa gaya tha.. "

" matlab ? " vo ek dum se action mein ayi, ladkiyan jitni bhi pareshan kyun ho na lekin batein janne ke liye hamesha taiyar rehti hai. Uske puchne par mene sab bata dia, actually ye baat mein islliye nahi batana chahta tha kyun ki hamare bich kuch itna close relation tha hi nahi.

" tumne aisa kyun kiya ankit ? " vo meri baat sun kar boli. " tum nahi samjhoge ki unpar kaisi beeti hogi.. you know.. jab hum kisi se pyar karte hain to haq hota hai unka hume dantne ka.. "

" haq hi hamare rishton ki sabse kamjor rassi hai..ehsan ki tarah hoti hai.. jab pura kar do tab rishte rehte hain varna jata diye jate hain.. "

" tum.. " usne ek pal ke liye pause lia. " kis way mein rishton ko dekhte ho ? "

" mein.. ? "

" hmm " jawab nahi tha isliye mene kuch time lia.

" matlabi... " mein kuch soch kar bola.

" mein kuch samjhi nahi "

" asan hai.. hum apni feeling kisi ko batate hain.. matlab hua to vo samjhta hai varna apni zindagi mein mashul ho jata hai.. "

" isme feelings mazak hue ? ya rishte ? "

" feelings... rishte jodte hain... aur rishte insan ke matlab.. "

" bina un matlab ke rishte nahi bante ?

" nahi.. "

" galat.. "

" bina un matlab ke hum insan bante hain.. aur ek insan rishte banata hai na ki unke matlab ... " akansha kuch aur kehti use pehle mene apni baat puri ki. Usne ek gehri sans li..

" tum sab itna asan samjhte ho .. "

" kyun ki mein akela hun.. " mein janta tha vo kya kehna chahti hai.

" tumhe sab pata hai.. kya tum ye bata sakte ho ki mein kab khush hongi ? " mein pura andaza laga sakta hun ki usne vo baat bahut masumiyat se kahi thi. Uski awaz ka rukha-pan.. gale mein tehrav.. shayad vo roo rhi thi.. ya so chuki thi... ya bolte hue rona chahti thi.. inme se kuch to tha.. Mein apni jagah se khada ho gaya...

" hum khush kyun nahi hote janti hai aap ? " mere pas jada waqt nahi tha, jitna tha usme ab irritate karna padne vala tha. Vo kuch nahi boli, mein janta tha vo is waqt mujhe kuch jada hi samjhdar samajh rahi thi aur sath mein irritate ho rahi thi.

" apke pas koi hai.. ? "

" matlab.. " usne apni naak sikodi, jaise rote tym hum aksar karte hain.

" apko hi nahi pata ki apke pass kya hai.. "

" nahi... kya.. "

" aap khud... "

" mein samjhi nahi.. "

" mere pas kya hai mere alawa... akelapan right ? "

" hmm.. "

" to apke pas kya hai apke alawa.. ? "

" uhhh.. "

" apki ye khamoshi.. "

" do you want to go ? " mein janta tha meri baton se yahi hona tha.

" kyun ? "

" i don't know.. it feels like it.. "

" but if you wanna go its fine.. i can understand... " vo bolti gayi mein chup raha.. jaise vo khamosh thi ab mein tha.. " ankit .. r u there ? "

" yes.. sorry.. vo just.. i think.. apka koi door knock kar raha hai.. ? "

" mine ? " usne jaise phone khud se dur krte hue kaha. " no.. "

" hmm.. aisa laga ki koi apka door knock kar raha tha... acha mein kuch keh raha tha.. apne abhi apni feeling ki baat kahi.. right ? "

" hmm.. "

" to kya aap ye bata sakti hai ki... " mein ruka.. " apne suni ? "

" kya ? "

" apka koi door knock kar raha hai.. "

" par.. i couldn't hear.. wait.. "

" dhayan se kholna.. der kafi ho gayi hai.. " usne apne kan se phone hata lia tha aur phone par uske chalne ki awaz aa rahi thi. Iske baad uske door ki lock khulne ki awaz ayi aur phir dhire se door khulne ki jo jada nahi tha..

" kaun .. ? " Usne apna chehra bahar nikalte hue kaha aur phir.. " ankit you.. ? "

" apne kaha tha na ki apke future ki khushi kahan hai ... " mein halka sa smile karte hue bola. Ye mene kaise kiya mein khud nahi janta.. lekin akansha ki us baat ke baad mein ghar se nikal gaya... aur usko baat mein bas uljhaye rakhna chahta tha taki time par pahunch saku.. mein janta tha ki vo mujhe dekh kar khush to nahi hogi lekin mein to use dekh paunga ki vo kaisi hai, keh nahi sakta.. par shayad ye baat sahi hai ... ki himmat ke liye insan ko kisi ke sath hi jarurat nahi hoti... vo hamesha uske sath hi hoti hai..
 
Update - 90

Par mere phone milane par sirf ring jati rahi aur kuch nahi.. Puri ring hoti use pehle mene kat dia kyun ki achanak ye zehen mein aya ki aise itni raat ko phone milana shayad sahi nahi hai. Nind jaise kahin kho gayi, man itna bechain ho gaya ki samajh nahi aya kya karun.. do sawalon mein kho gaya tha, message karun ? ya nahi.. do teen bar kosish ki par nahi hua, ajeeb musibat thi.. ajeeb fansa dia isne.. jab baat nahi karni thi to phone kyun kia ? i mean.. ye galat hai bc..... Sone jata uski jagah tv dekhne baith gaya, tv mein to vaise hi kuch nahi ata.. ek channel par akar ruk gaya kyun ki vahan gane badia aa rahe the, aa to purane rhe the lekin badia lag rahe the. Sunte hue meri nazar phone par gayi.. ye sali chiz hi kharab hai.. phone nahi ye ladkiyan... Akhir phone utha kar mene message ke liye whtsapp khol hi dia. Bc zindagi ki adhi barbadi to ye whtsapp hi hai...

" every thing is ok ? " mene message send karke phone aise patka jaise lakhon ki tizori ka maal saaf karke baitha hun aur ye dikha raha hun jaise mene kuch kiya nahi. Dil se ek bhoj phir kam ho gaya ki mene apni taraf se kaam kar dia hai, isliye ek gane mein magan ho gaya...

Kareeb 5 minute baad phone ki taraf nazar gayi to dekha ki led light blink ho rahi thi yani message aya hua tha. Mene phone unlock kia aur dekha akansha ka message aya hua tha.

" hmm yes.. " pehla message

" no " second

" sorry for disturbing " teeno message tab ke the jab mene kiye the yani 5 minute pehle. Chutia se bada chutia hun mein

" akansha are you ok ? " is bar mene whtsapp band nahi kiya aur phir baton ka silsila shuru hua jiske baad ye shuruwat ek ajeeb se ant tak pahunch gayi.

" i am sorry, mujhe tumhe call nahi karna chahie tha "

" are you ok ? " mein apne sawal par hi zama tha.

" yeah.... i don't know "

" kya hua ? "

" nothing "

" personal? "

" i don't know.. " shak to mujhe ho raha tha lekin mein khud se kehna nahi cha raha tha par uske jawab majbur kar rahe the ki mein hi puchun.

" wanna share ? "

" why everything seems so complicated ? "

" mere hissab se complicated hota nahi hai "

" then ? "

" hum banate hai shayad... "

" hum ? kaise ? "
" uhmm.. ichayein bahut hoti hai hamari aur jahan hum umid rakhte hain life wahin se complicate ho jati hai " usne kafi time liya iske baad kuch kehne ke liye, mein bhi baitha raha, agar vo online nahi rehti to shayad chala jata lekin online bhi thi bas ye lag raha tha shayad kahin aur busy hai par uske jawab ne to bata dia ki vo meri hi baat ke bare mein soch rahi thi.

" to kya hume ab umeed bhi nahi rakhni chahie ? "
" nahi mene aisa bhi nahi kaha "

" i am confused "

" Umeed mein feelings judi hoti hai shayad tabhi hum udas hote hain aur yahi reason hai complications ka.. "

" tumhe kaise pta ki mein sad hun ? "

" feelings se.. " baat-cheet itni gehri thi ki mein bas keh gaya.
" can i call you ? if you are ok ? "
" sure " jab samne se ek ladki tumse baat karna chahti hai to ye to pakka hai ki use abhi jarurat hai aur uski jarurat ke hissab se tumse behtar insan koi nahi hai.

Akansha ka agle minute phone aa gaya " hello " mene pick karte hi kaha. Vo phone milane ke baad bhi khamosh thi. Pareshan lag rahi thi.. mein samajh to raha tha ki ek ladki tabhi itna pareshan hoti hai jab uski umeed ki feelings ko chot pahunchti hai ab ya to mein us chot ki vajah jan sakta tha ya phir uspar malham laga kar uski jalan ko kam kar sakta tha, pehle raste mein shayad mere pas kuch na hota par dusre raste mein kuch jarur mil jata..

" itni khamoshi kyun hai bhai ? " bahut hi cheap aur ghatia shuruwat thi par karni to thi hi
 
Update - 89

Kya faida hota hai sochne ka ? Na chaha kar bhi insan sochta hai aur sirf tabhi jab usme koi ladki ho, lekin faiyda kya hua... raat ko to mein ye soch kar so gaya ki koi farak nahi padta lekin agli subh ki khulti ankhon ke baad hi sala chain se baithna mushkil ho gaya tha, pehle to hath mein phone lekar ye sochne laga ki samne se mein khud message karun... sochne mein time lagaya phir himmat kar phone par message bhi likha ' kya plan hai ? ' par use delete karke koi message nahi kiya.Phir is baat ki umeed bhi puri thi ki vo message karegi kyun ki usi ne pucha par sath hi sath is baat ka dar bhi tha ki kahin vo busy hokar bhul gayi thi ? phir laga ki mein itna kyun soch raha hun ? Subh ke routine se free hua to ye sochne laga ki uska message ayega vo mujhe apne pass bulayegi phir hum sath jayenge ek sath, baat karte hue... lekin hua kya...

Mein Akansha ki batayi jagah par pahunch chuka tha, aur kareeb 15 minute se uska intezr kar raha tha. Vakai mein kuch bhi sochna bekar hai.. aur sahi mayine mein ek baat samjhun to mein itna interest kyun le raha hun ? Ab mujhe gussa aa raha tha kyun ki mujhse intezar nahi hota, sahi mein ? ya phir gussa mein shayad isliye tha kyun ki mera man ka abhi tak kuch hua nahi tha..

" ankit ? " shayad dusri ya tisri baar mein mera dhayan aya ki koi mera naam pukar raha hai. " kya soch rahe ho ? "

" kuch nahi bas aise hi.. " akansha mere samne khadi thi.

" sorry thoda late ho gayi.. "

" nhi koi baat nahi "

" hmm chalo.. fir.. bahut tezz bhuk lagi hai.. " Uske baad hum lunch karne gaye, vahi socha tha bahut batein hogi.. lekin vo bahut shant thi aur mein to kuch bolne jaisa tha hi nhi.. order dete time humne thodi baat ki ho uske baad kuch der aise hi baithe rahe, phir kuch sawal jawab.. Mein bich bich mein uski taraf dekhta, sundar to bahut thi... use jada itna shant chehra mene shayad hi kisi ka dekha ho, matlab kaise samjhau.. aisa lag raha tha jaise na to kisi baat ki chinta hai na hi kuch... Phir abhi lunch khatam ho rha tha ki baton mein ek dusre ke kaam ke bare mein baat chalne lagi.. rahul ne bataya tha ki marketing ki head hai.. mere bare mein jitna pata tha use aur thoda jana.. phir vo batein families par ayi aur phir vo baat ayi.. jo rahul ne kahi thi... she is about to get engaged.

Lunch normal raha, mera thoda mood kharab ho gaya tha pata nahi kyun par aisa lag raha tha jaise kuch sahi nahi hai. Us din ke baad mujhe laga jaise sab normal ho jayega.. aur hona bhi shuru ho gaya tha, rahul vapis aa gaya tha, routine life bhi chal padi thi, par ab uske sath sath meri aur akansha ki baat cheet hone lagi thi, din mein 5-7 min hi sahi par hone lagi thi. Mere andar jo feeling uske liye aye the vo gayab ho chuke the, mera vo upset hona sab kuch jaise khatam.. ye meri soch thi.. kyun ki mene apna dimag filal apne kaam mein laga lia tha ...

Us din sham ko mein office se jaldi ghar aya tha, laptop par baitha tha, aur achanak muth marne ka man kar gaya.. aur phir muth marne laga.. vo porn thi bhi gazab.. bc 3 minute mein hi beh gaya mein to... aaj bahut dino ke baad muth lagi thi to sar aisa halka ho gaya tha jaise dunia ki sab takleef dimag se khatam ho gayi ho.. dunia bekar mein sharab par kharcha karti hai.. thoda kharcha apni hath ki lakeer lund par masal de to vaise hi safal ho jaye sab kuch.

Muth mar kr tv dekhte hue raat ho gayi aur roz ki tarah aaj bhi akansha se baat cheet chal rahi thi.

" tell me one thing ? "

" hmm.. "

" tum asal mein sharmate ho ya sirf dikhate ho "

" samjha nahi "

" last time hum lunch par gaye the tab mene notice kia "

" kya ? "

" tum mujhse nazre kyun chipa rahe the ? " ab mene message read kar lia par jawab kya dun ye sochne laga. Bahut socha ye likhun vo likhun.. par end mein kya likha..

" nahi aisa kuch nahi hai.. "

" itna kehne ke liye itna time ? kuch to gadbad hai boss.. "

" nahi nahi aisa kuch nahi hai " aaj pehli baar hamari is tarah ki baat cheet ho rahi thi shayad itne dino ki understanding ki vajah se attitude mein changes aa rahe the jo ki bahut normal tha.

" gf hai isliye nahi dekh paa rahe the ? "

" gf ? meri.. nahi koi hai nahi "

" r u serius ? "

" yep "

" juth mat bolo "

" nahi yar seriously.. "

" hmm.. strange "

" aisa kyun ? "

" bas aise hi.. "

" apko aisa kyun lagta hai ki meri gf hogi ? " vo offline jaa chuki thi, iske baad usne reply bhi nahi dia. Subh utha to akansha ka message tha ki sorry was in call, mene swipe kare hataya aur office ke liye nikal gaya. Office ka kaam ab office mein kam client ki taraf jada rehta tha.. yun kahun ki office ko client side handle karne vala ek naya banda mere roop mein mil chuka tha.. khair badia tha.. mere liye bhi .. jab kaam kam hota to ghar bhi jaldi aa jata tha.. lekin aaj kuch jada hi late ho gaya tha.. pichle kuch dino ka sara aram aaj hi nikal gaya.. Ghar akar mein fresh hone ke liye chala gaya aur khane pine ke baad, jab charging se phone hatane gaya to dekha 5 missed call the akansha ke. Mene time dekha to 11:45 ho rahe the, aaj se pehle hume kabhi call par aise baat karne ke liye call nahi ki thi, isliye ajeeb laga.. socha phone karun ya nahi.. ye sochta raha ek pal ke liye phir kuch soch kar phone lagaya.. dil mein dar tha aur man mein sawal ki vo kya sochegi ? itni raat mene use phone kyun kia... Akhir phone ki ring bajti rahi aur end mein phone cut ho gaya... mera bhari dil thoda halka hua ye soch kar ki chalo mene apna farz pura kia call karke varna vo sochti ki missed call dekh kar bhi call nahi kia. Bas abhi phone rakh kar mein bathroom ki taraf jaa raha tha ki mera phone bajne laga.. umeed yahi laga raha tha ki akansha ka ho... par dikha aisa raha tha bahr se ki na jane kaun aa gaya itni raat?

Screen par akansha ka naam hi flash ho raha tha, mene phone kuch soch kar kuch second baad uthaya.

" hello " mene kaha.

" helo ankit... " vo itna bol kar chup hui... aur phir.. " kuch nahi.. " itna keh kar usne phone cut kar dia. Ajeeb baat thi.. bahut ajeeb... aisa call par kaun karta hai.. aur iske alawa jis tarah ka sanata aur khamoshi thi mera naam lene ke baad use aisa laga jaise kuch hai.. vo kuch kehna cha kar bhi nahi keh pai isliye phone cut kar dia, awaz normal thi ya nahi ye to mein samajh nahi paya.. par kya ho sakta hai ? khud se itna sochne par dimag ne kuch aur nahi socha aur is baar bina parwah kiye mene akansha ka number dial kar dia..
 
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