Update - 78
Sheetal chudne ke baad mujhse na kuch kahi aur na boli sidhe bathroom mein ghus gayi, safai to mujhe bhi karni thi par mene socha kya farak padta hai mene use andar kiya aur jeans uppar chada kar niche ki taraf jane laga. Jate hue apne aap hi chehre par hansi ubhar ayi.. ati bhi kyun na.. jo sach thodi der pehle mein batane wala tha, agar bata deta to shayad uske andar ye bhadki hui aag... kabhi itni bhadakti nahi... kyun ki mera plan.. juda hi us raat se tha.. jis raat mere aur sheetal ke bich asliyat mein kuch hua hi nahi tha...
Us raat jab sheetal tali ho gayi thi aur apna rape karwane ke liye puri utaru thi, soch kar hi muth marne ka dil kar jaye bc .......... han to us raat vo puri tayari kar chuki thi aur mein bhi tayiar hi tha... vo kapde khol kar chudne ke liye taiyar thi aur mein lund bahar nikal kar chodne ke liye... par phir usne nashe mein mujhe kuch batein batayi... jaise usne past bf ke sath bahut sex kiya hai par vicky ke sath itna nahi kar payi .. vajah uska past experience tha.. jo uski soch kehti thi vo ye.. ki bf ke sath jitna sex karo vo utni jaldi ditch karte hai.. abe tujh bitch to ditch karne ke liye hi bani hai .... Interesting fact hai ye.. isliye vicky ke sath sex nahi karti thi vo.. period ... ise ek baat to mujhe samajh ayi ki she needs sex.. ek baar laundio ki chut mein aag lag jaye to phir use bhujane ke liye lund hi kaam karta hai baki jitna pani barsa do aag bhujti hi nahi.. iske alawa usne apni sex desires aur bahut kuch baka... itna sab sun-ne ke baad to mera use chodne ka man bahut jada ho gaya tha.. lekin abhi abhi mein ek kand se bacha tha aur dusre mein fansa nahi chahta tha.. ladkiyan nashe mein kuch bhi karwa sakti hai par baad mein tumhari gand par police ke dande bhi padwa sakti hai.. kya pata koi rape ka charge ka lagwa deti.. desh ka kanun bhi aisa hi hai pehle sunega usi ki meri to tab sunega jab puri tarah se ukhad denge mujhe... aur na hi mein is jagah ar apni beghunai ka sabut dhund pata.. upar se ek aur ek do jod dete police wale to garima ka sach samne aa jata.. aur vo to bilkul mere khilaf hi bakti.. bas phir to mujhe tharki aur chodo ka thapa lagane mein police der na karti... itna soch kar hi bc mere to pasine nikal gaye... lekin lawda abhi bhi uchale mar raha tha.. bas usi pal mene ye plan banaya ki jab ladki sex ki itni need mein hai to use iski hi need mein todna hai.. plus uski kamjori.. vicky ... pata nahi kyun usne iske alawa uske bare mein kuch kaha.. yaad nahi kya.. par vo uske sath relation nahi todna chahti thi.. mere lie to ye ek aur plus point tha.. bs plan mere dimag mein banta gaya.... Isliye mene un dono ka patchup karaya.. isliye mein sheetal ko us raat ki yaad dilata tha.. juthi hi sahi.. par jaan kar use chidata taki ek din uske andar vo feeling jage... aur dekho akhir mein kamyab ho gaya... mana ki ek pal ke liye plan ki chud gayi thi par in the end mene chod hi dia.. Aur han ek aur baat.. sheetal pehle se hi gand se kheli hui thi.. ye baat us din usne nashe mein mujhe batai thi.. bahut bakka tha us din usne.. sahi mein.. bahut kuch bakka tha... isliye na chahte hue bhi mene apna lawda use chuswa hi liya tha taki kam se kam use mere swad ke barre mein halki memory reh jaye
" kaha tha itni der ? " vicky ne meri soch todi. Mujhe pata hi nahi chala tha ki mein gardan tak aa pahuncha hu sochte sochte. ' teri hone wali biwi ki gand ko dudh se nehla kar aya hun bhadve... '
" washroom mein hi tha.. "
" itni der ? "
" mujhe hugne mein itna hi time lagta hai "
" bc.. hugne gaya tha ? "
" kabhi huga nahi hai kya ? " us waqt sheetal ke maa baap nahi the shayad unka time ho raha tha.. ka..
" sheetal kahan hai ? "
" vo andar hi thi kya ? " mene anjan bante hue kaha.
" chutia hai tu.. " vicky bol kar andar jane laga itne mein use sheetal bahar ati dikh gayi, mein use dekh kar hairan tha kyun ki vo bilkul normal behave kar rahi thi jaise uske sath kuch hua hi na ho.. abhi abhi apne bf ke samne chudi hai vo bhi uske dost se.. Ye ladki bahut maze dene wali hai..
" abe kya sochta rehta hai ? " vicky ne phir mujhe nind se jagaya.
" bas maal ke bare mein soch raha hun.. "
" maal.. ? " vicky turant bola aur sheetal mujhe ghurne lagi.
" mall bc... maal nahi... behra ho gaya hai kya.. kaun se mall le jakar bore karoge tum mujhe.. "
" mene kab kaha mall jana hai ? "
" to kaha jana ha.. "
" sheetal batayegi... "
" ise to sirf chudna hai.. " mene uski taraf dekhte hue kaha par man mein, usne mujhe ek pal ke liye dekha.. phir vicky ki taraf dekhti hui uske hath mein apna hath dal lia.
" baby.. wherever you wanna go.. " wah.. itna pyar... mujhe to hansi aa rahi thi
Akhir decide kuch nahi hua aur hum gadi mein ja baithe.. vicky aur sheetal apas mein kuch baat cheet mein busy the itne mein mene phone nikala... ' bc.. 8 missed call.. ' missed call ankita mam ki thi.. pata nahi kya hua tha subh se.. lagta hai aaj besabar hoti jaa rahi hai.. acha hai ladkiyun ko jitna besabar banao vo utni jada chudti hai... example aage vali seat par baithi thi... Mene nazar utha kar dekha to sheetal mirror mein apna chehra dekhne ke bahane mujhe hi dekh rahi thi. Mein halka sa muskura dia jise dekh usne apni nazar vahan se hata li, kamal ki baat to ye thi ki ek ladki itni normal kaise ho sakti hai ? mujhe sheetal ne ye realize kara dia.. ki sahi kehte hai kahani mein.. ladkiyan bc randiyan ho chuki hai.. ya to unhe chudne ko chahie ya phir apne uppar kharcha karwane ke liye.. ye jo sharafat dikhane ki aur apne aap ko samjdhar pada likha dikhane ki kosish karti hai vo sirf dikhawa hai.. baki andar se to ek dum randi hoti hai.. randi.. sali .. inhe to sirf chodna chahie ... ye bani hi isliye hai..
Us din kuch khas nahi hua, sheetal normal thi par bol kam rahi thi.. mein bhi tassali mein ghum raha tha.. gand to mar h chuka tha.. ab chut ki bhi ek din vaisi hi band bajani thi aur mujhe pata tha ki usme der nahi hogi, sham ke time.. vicky mujhe ghar chodne wala tha lekin mene socha jakar ankita mam se mil aaun.. varna phir naraz ho gayi to manana mushkil ho jayega.. isliye bich raste utar kar mein ankita mam ke ghar ja pahuncha.. Subah ki tight chudai ke baad lund thak gaya tha par ab usme jaan aa chuki thi ki ek baar to ankita mam ko chod hi dega.
Mene door bell bajai aur kuch der baad ankita mam ne darwaja khola, mene muskurate hue unki taraf dekha.. par vo to kuch aur hi mood mein thi. Mein andar aya to vo mujhse kuch na boli.. mein samajh gaya ki phone ka na reply dene par gussa hai vo.
" sorry.. vo phone nahi uthaya.. asal mein jaan kar mein to apko surprise dena chahta tha.. " mein unke bagal mein jaa baitha .. vo sofe par baithi thi pairon ko hath se bandhe.
" kya hua. " mene unke kandhe par hath rakha to unhone jhatak dia.
" itni bhi kya narazgi yar.. aa to gaya ab.. ab raat ka dinner karke jaunga ab khush.. ? " vo phir bhi kuch nahi boli. Bahut lambe lawde lag gaye ye soch kar mene socha kaise manau tabhi ek idea.. aya.. ladkiyun ko gulguli karo to vo man jati hai.. mene aisa pada tha.. socha azma kar dekhun.. bas mene apne hath unki taraf badaye hi the ki meri hawa mein lehrati ungliyan aur chehre par ayi hansi bich mein hi ruk gayi.. aur mein vaisa hi baitha raha jab mene ye suna
" m pregnant... "
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" acha... " mein ek pal ke liye chup raha, " zara phone kya nahi uthaya apne to dil par hi le liya... " mene unhe kandhe se marte hue kaha. Unhone mujhe ghura to mera shak yakeen mein badal gaya ki vo mazak hi kar rahi hai.
" oo comon na.. aap to aise bheave kar rahi ho jaise mein apka pati hun aur mene apko pregnant karke apko bina baap ka bacha de dia hai.. " mein khade hokar hanste hue kaha par shayad mera ye mazak bahut jada galat tha.. matlab had se jada, agla pal jo mujhe yaad hai vo ye.. ki ankita mam ne mera hath pakda aur dusra hath mere gal par chipka dia, ek pal ke liye to kan mein sunnnnnn ki ghanti si baj gayi, abhi to vo ghanti shant nahi hui thi ki unhone mera color pakda aur mujhe sidha kar dia.
" tumhe kya zindagi koi kahani lagti hai... ki jo socha wahi sach hai.... " unki ankhein is waqt is kadar chadi thi mano pii unhone ho aur unki pi hui mere dimag ko dama-dol kar rahi ho. " how could you say this.. ? " is baar unki awaaz ladhkhadai aur meri zindagi ki ek takdeer hil gayi.
" i am pregnant ankit..... " is bar vo behad dhimi awaz mein boli aur unki ankhein kathor se narm ho gayi.
" ok.... " mene sans chhod kar bas itna hi kaha. Bas itna hi...
Kuch der baad... hum dono vaise hi baithe hue the, bina kuch bole... vo shayad ye soch rahi thi ki mein kuch kahun aur mein ye soch raha tha ki mein kya kahun ? i mean ... aisa lag raha tha ki lawde ke khet ke andar mein nanga nach raha hun aur jo koi mutne aa raha hai vahi meri gand mar raha hai....
" possible kaise hua ? i mean.. apne to hamesha pill li hai phir ? " mujhe in baton se sakht ghin ati thi.. i mean.. chut chudai bas... iske alawa ye pill aur ye samajh seva valle sawal lawda ... mere dimag ko irritate kar deta hai.
" maybe.. kisi din mein bhul gayi ... i dont.. know... " unhone apna sar pakad lia.
" aise kaise bhul gayi.. " mein ek dum se bol pada aur tab samajh aya ki log khud nahi gand marne atte.. mein khud deta hun apni gand... thali mein paros ki aao bhai bhojan grehan karo...iski bcccc......
" i mean.. ye galti meri bhi hai.. " aise gambhir mamlo mein hume apni galti bhi manni chahie varna gand parosi nai jati balki lut li jati...
" ab ? " mujhe to kuch samajh hi nahi aa raha tha, bc lawde lag gaye the itna pata tha par dimag ko yahi laga hua tha ki sab sahi hua isliye bc dar nahi lag raha tha ye pehla hi vakya tha.. bc.. aisa kaise ho sakta hai...
" i don't know... i don't " itna keh kar vo mere galle se aa lagi, lawda.. yahan lawde ka sperm pehli baar sahi jagah ja kar chipak gaya par galat time par lekin inhe galle chipakne se fursat nahi mil rahi ? i mean , itna hi nahi galle lag kar vo rone lagi... rona banta bhi tha.. ab ek ladki bina shadi kiye gaye maa ban jaye vo bhi mere dwara bc ladki ke to lawde lagenge hi... par beta ankit apna soch.. tere to ghanghor lawde lag jayenge......... par jab insan kante par khada ho aur vo kanta apke lawde ko chu raha ho tab apko dar is baat ka nahi hota ki apko bahut dard hoga balki is baat ka hoga ki na to aap kabhi muth mar payenge na hi kabhi chudai... aur aise pal mein apka dimag ek dum satik aur thik nirnaye par pahunch jata hai.
" idea.. " mene unhe apne se alag kiya aur unka chehra aisa ho gaya jaise mene suhane mausam mein kadkadati dhup lakar khadi kar di ho.
" abortion kara lo... so simple... isme itna tension lene ki kya jarurat hai yar.. sab kuch sahi ho jayega.. bas .. " mene apna aisa idea sunaya jisne mere sabhi sawalon ko hal kar dia.
Kash ye mera socha hua idea utna hi suhana hota jitna mene socha tha, par ye kash shabd hi sala aisa hai ki isme hum sirf soch aur afsos kar sakte hain lekin badal nahi sakte... usme hum sirf badalne ki soch rakh sakte hain. Us din iske alawa aur koi baat nahi hui, ankita mam ne kaha ki vo sochegi aur phir baat karegi, mene unhe ye pura dilasa dia ki mein is kaam mein unke sath hun.. mein unhe chhodunga nahi.. shayad is baat ki tasali thi unhe.. aur isme sirf unhi ki galti nahi thi, chudai ki bhasad to mere lawde mein bhi lagi thi na.. to galti aur is galti ko sudharne ka ilaz hum dono ko ek sath mil kar karna tha.
Mein ghar par baitha tha na jane kyun ankita mam ke ghar par tha tab thik tha par ghar par akar ajeeb sa ho gaya tha, sheetal ke whatsapp par message the par reply dene aur dekhne tak ka man nahi tha. Aisa lag raha tha jaise koi galti ho gayi ho.. ek pal aya ki ankita mam se baat kar lun unhe bhi acha lagega.. lekin phir socha vo shayad abhi baat nahi karni hogi unhe isliye nahi karta.. varna vo khud hi phone kar leti.. ye soch kar mene phone hi nahi kiya.. Khana khate time bhi maa bhi papa se baat kar rahi thi ki kisi ke ladka hua hai.. bada pyara hai.. pata nahi baat kiski thi.. par ye sun kar man mein aya, ' ki han bc.. aaj aise hi sunne ko milega.. pehle hi gand fati padi hai.' mene ek pal ke liye gaur se maa aur papa ko dekha to illusion hua ki mein baap banne vala hun ye baat unhe pata hai lawde ki kasam ... lawde fat kar uske andae titar beetar ho gaye.. aisi fatii meri.... Mene ankita mam ko abortion vali baat phir likhi kar send kar di.. par phone nahi kia.. pata nahi kyun..
12 se 1 baj gaya par nind na ayi.. dimag sala is baat se hat hi nahi raha tha ab.. abortion kaise hoga.. dr ko kya kahenge.. chutiap fail gaya tha mere dimag mein.. jitna socha tha ye to use kahin jada mushkil tha.. samajh hi nahi aa raha tha ki kya karna hai.. jab samajh nahi aya to mein laptop khol kar baith gaya.. par bc muth marne ke liye lawda bhi nahi khada ho raha tha isliye band karke sone ki kosish karne laga, dimag mein bahut se lawde jage hue the.. jaise agar abortion nahi hua to ? abortion hua to ? kahani kya banayenge dr se ? dr kya sawal karega.. kya mein bhi ankita mam ke sth jaunga hospital ? nahi nahi unhe hi bhej dunga... bc gadar movie ki tarah mere jism se handpump ukhad dia gaya tha aisi feeling aa rahi thi..... kareeb 3 baje ke pass mujhe nind lagi aur theek subah8 baje nind khul gayi.. 8 baje nind khuli ... aur 9 baje mein ankita mam ke ghar par.. ye soch kar... ki no phone no text... direct baat hogi ab... Mein bahut kuch soch chuka tha ki kya karna hai.. aur kya kehna hai.. aur kis tarah kehna hai.. mein unke ghar pahunch kar door bell bajai... koi ahat nahi hui..
" kya ho gaya.. kahin ruth to nahi gayi.. bc lawde lag jayenge ... " mene darwaja khat-khataya.. door bell bajai... par nahi khula.. meri aur fatne lagi.. bc andar hi andar aisa lagne laga ki mut nikal jayega bc mera .. jab darwaja nahi khula to mene phone karne ki sochi.. mene jeans se phone nikalne ke liye nazar niche ki to dekha...
" yahan to lock laga hai .... " darwaja bahar se lock tha... mene sochte hi phone par ankita mam ka number nikala aur dial kia...
" the number your trying to reach is switch off.. " mene ek nahi do bar nahi.. balki 30-35 bar ikhate dial kiya aur same response....
Ab ?
sham ke 7 baj chuke the...... mein vahin sidiyun par baitha phone try kar raha tha aur unki rah dekh raha tha... gate abhi bhi lock tha aur mere phone se nikla vo 157 va call tha.. jisme wahi response aa raha tha.. phone ki battery bhi ab dead ho chuki thi.. aur shayad meri hope bhi...
9:20 minute par jab kuch nahi hua mein apni jagah se utha aur nikal pada vahan se......
Sheetal chudne ke baad mujhse na kuch kahi aur na boli sidhe bathroom mein ghus gayi, safai to mujhe bhi karni thi par mene socha kya farak padta hai mene use andar kiya aur jeans uppar chada kar niche ki taraf jane laga. Jate hue apne aap hi chehre par hansi ubhar ayi.. ati bhi kyun na.. jo sach thodi der pehle mein batane wala tha, agar bata deta to shayad uske andar ye bhadki hui aag... kabhi itni bhadakti nahi... kyun ki mera plan.. juda hi us raat se tha.. jis raat mere aur sheetal ke bich asliyat mein kuch hua hi nahi tha...
Us raat jab sheetal tali ho gayi thi aur apna rape karwane ke liye puri utaru thi, soch kar hi muth marne ka dil kar jaye bc .......... han to us raat vo puri tayari kar chuki thi aur mein bhi tayiar hi tha... vo kapde khol kar chudne ke liye taiyar thi aur mein lund bahar nikal kar chodne ke liye... par phir usne nashe mein mujhe kuch batein batayi... jaise usne past bf ke sath bahut sex kiya hai par vicky ke sath itna nahi kar payi .. vajah uska past experience tha.. jo uski soch kehti thi vo ye.. ki bf ke sath jitna sex karo vo utni jaldi ditch karte hai.. abe tujh bitch to ditch karne ke liye hi bani hai .... Interesting fact hai ye.. isliye vicky ke sath sex nahi karti thi vo.. period ... ise ek baat to mujhe samajh ayi ki she needs sex.. ek baar laundio ki chut mein aag lag jaye to phir use bhujane ke liye lund hi kaam karta hai baki jitna pani barsa do aag bhujti hi nahi.. iske alawa usne apni sex desires aur bahut kuch baka... itna sab sun-ne ke baad to mera use chodne ka man bahut jada ho gaya tha.. lekin abhi abhi mein ek kand se bacha tha aur dusre mein fansa nahi chahta tha.. ladkiyan nashe mein kuch bhi karwa sakti hai par baad mein tumhari gand par police ke dande bhi padwa sakti hai.. kya pata koi rape ka charge ka lagwa deti.. desh ka kanun bhi aisa hi hai pehle sunega usi ki meri to tab sunega jab puri tarah se ukhad denge mujhe... aur na hi mein is jagah ar apni beghunai ka sabut dhund pata.. upar se ek aur ek do jod dete police wale to garima ka sach samne aa jata.. aur vo to bilkul mere khilaf hi bakti.. bas phir to mujhe tharki aur chodo ka thapa lagane mein police der na karti... itna soch kar hi bc mere to pasine nikal gaye... lekin lawda abhi bhi uchale mar raha tha.. bas usi pal mene ye plan banaya ki jab ladki sex ki itni need mein hai to use iski hi need mein todna hai.. plus uski kamjori.. vicky ... pata nahi kyun usne iske alawa uske bare mein kuch kaha.. yaad nahi kya.. par vo uske sath relation nahi todna chahti thi.. mere lie to ye ek aur plus point tha.. bs plan mere dimag mein banta gaya.... Isliye mene un dono ka patchup karaya.. isliye mein sheetal ko us raat ki yaad dilata tha.. juthi hi sahi.. par jaan kar use chidata taki ek din uske andar vo feeling jage... aur dekho akhir mein kamyab ho gaya... mana ki ek pal ke liye plan ki chud gayi thi par in the end mene chod hi dia.. Aur han ek aur baat.. sheetal pehle se hi gand se kheli hui thi.. ye baat us din usne nashe mein mujhe batai thi.. bahut bakka tha us din usne.. sahi mein.. bahut kuch bakka tha... isliye na chahte hue bhi mene apna lawda use chuswa hi liya tha taki kam se kam use mere swad ke barre mein halki memory reh jaye
" kaha tha itni der ? " vicky ne meri soch todi. Mujhe pata hi nahi chala tha ki mein gardan tak aa pahuncha hu sochte sochte. ' teri hone wali biwi ki gand ko dudh se nehla kar aya hun bhadve... '
" washroom mein hi tha.. "
" itni der ? "
" mujhe hugne mein itna hi time lagta hai "
" bc.. hugne gaya tha ? "
" kabhi huga nahi hai kya ? " us waqt sheetal ke maa baap nahi the shayad unka time ho raha tha.. ka..
" sheetal kahan hai ? "
" vo andar hi thi kya ? " mene anjan bante hue kaha.
" chutia hai tu.. " vicky bol kar andar jane laga itne mein use sheetal bahar ati dikh gayi, mein use dekh kar hairan tha kyun ki vo bilkul normal behave kar rahi thi jaise uske sath kuch hua hi na ho.. abhi abhi apne bf ke samne chudi hai vo bhi uske dost se.. Ye ladki bahut maze dene wali hai..
" abe kya sochta rehta hai ? " vicky ne phir mujhe nind se jagaya.
" bas maal ke bare mein soch raha hun.. "
" maal.. ? " vicky turant bola aur sheetal mujhe ghurne lagi.
" mall bc... maal nahi... behra ho gaya hai kya.. kaun se mall le jakar bore karoge tum mujhe.. "
" mene kab kaha mall jana hai ? "
" to kaha jana ha.. "
" sheetal batayegi... "
" ise to sirf chudna hai.. " mene uski taraf dekhte hue kaha par man mein, usne mujhe ek pal ke liye dekha.. phir vicky ki taraf dekhti hui uske hath mein apna hath dal lia.
" baby.. wherever you wanna go.. " wah.. itna pyar... mujhe to hansi aa rahi thi
Akhir decide kuch nahi hua aur hum gadi mein ja baithe.. vicky aur sheetal apas mein kuch baat cheet mein busy the itne mein mene phone nikala... ' bc.. 8 missed call.. ' missed call ankita mam ki thi.. pata nahi kya hua tha subh se.. lagta hai aaj besabar hoti jaa rahi hai.. acha hai ladkiyun ko jitna besabar banao vo utni jada chudti hai... example aage vali seat par baithi thi... Mene nazar utha kar dekha to sheetal mirror mein apna chehra dekhne ke bahane mujhe hi dekh rahi thi. Mein halka sa muskura dia jise dekh usne apni nazar vahan se hata li, kamal ki baat to ye thi ki ek ladki itni normal kaise ho sakti hai ? mujhe sheetal ne ye realize kara dia.. ki sahi kehte hai kahani mein.. ladkiyan bc randiyan ho chuki hai.. ya to unhe chudne ko chahie ya phir apne uppar kharcha karwane ke liye.. ye jo sharafat dikhane ki aur apne aap ko samjdhar pada likha dikhane ki kosish karti hai vo sirf dikhawa hai.. baki andar se to ek dum randi hoti hai.. randi.. sali .. inhe to sirf chodna chahie ... ye bani hi isliye hai..
Us din kuch khas nahi hua, sheetal normal thi par bol kam rahi thi.. mein bhi tassali mein ghum raha tha.. gand to mar h chuka tha.. ab chut ki bhi ek din vaisi hi band bajani thi aur mujhe pata tha ki usme der nahi hogi, sham ke time.. vicky mujhe ghar chodne wala tha lekin mene socha jakar ankita mam se mil aaun.. varna phir naraz ho gayi to manana mushkil ho jayega.. isliye bich raste utar kar mein ankita mam ke ghar ja pahuncha.. Subah ki tight chudai ke baad lund thak gaya tha par ab usme jaan aa chuki thi ki ek baar to ankita mam ko chod hi dega.
Mene door bell bajai aur kuch der baad ankita mam ne darwaja khola, mene muskurate hue unki taraf dekha.. par vo to kuch aur hi mood mein thi. Mein andar aya to vo mujhse kuch na boli.. mein samajh gaya ki phone ka na reply dene par gussa hai vo.
" sorry.. vo phone nahi uthaya.. asal mein jaan kar mein to apko surprise dena chahta tha.. " mein unke bagal mein jaa baitha .. vo sofe par baithi thi pairon ko hath se bandhe.
" kya hua. " mene unke kandhe par hath rakha to unhone jhatak dia.
" itni bhi kya narazgi yar.. aa to gaya ab.. ab raat ka dinner karke jaunga ab khush.. ? " vo phir bhi kuch nahi boli. Bahut lambe lawde lag gaye ye soch kar mene socha kaise manau tabhi ek idea.. aya.. ladkiyun ko gulguli karo to vo man jati hai.. mene aisa pada tha.. socha azma kar dekhun.. bas mene apne hath unki taraf badaye hi the ki meri hawa mein lehrati ungliyan aur chehre par ayi hansi bich mein hi ruk gayi.. aur mein vaisa hi baitha raha jab mene ye suna
" m pregnant... "
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" acha... " mein ek pal ke liye chup raha, " zara phone kya nahi uthaya apne to dil par hi le liya... " mene unhe kandhe se marte hue kaha. Unhone mujhe ghura to mera shak yakeen mein badal gaya ki vo mazak hi kar rahi hai.
" oo comon na.. aap to aise bheave kar rahi ho jaise mein apka pati hun aur mene apko pregnant karke apko bina baap ka bacha de dia hai.. " mein khade hokar hanste hue kaha par shayad mera ye mazak bahut jada galat tha.. matlab had se jada, agla pal jo mujhe yaad hai vo ye.. ki ankita mam ne mera hath pakda aur dusra hath mere gal par chipka dia, ek pal ke liye to kan mein sunnnnnn ki ghanti si baj gayi, abhi to vo ghanti shant nahi hui thi ki unhone mera color pakda aur mujhe sidha kar dia.
" tumhe kya zindagi koi kahani lagti hai... ki jo socha wahi sach hai.... " unki ankhein is waqt is kadar chadi thi mano pii unhone ho aur unki pi hui mere dimag ko dama-dol kar rahi ho. " how could you say this.. ? " is baar unki awaaz ladhkhadai aur meri zindagi ki ek takdeer hil gayi.
" i am pregnant ankit..... " is bar vo behad dhimi awaz mein boli aur unki ankhein kathor se narm ho gayi.
" ok.... " mene sans chhod kar bas itna hi kaha. Bas itna hi...
Kuch der baad... hum dono vaise hi baithe hue the, bina kuch bole... vo shayad ye soch rahi thi ki mein kuch kahun aur mein ye soch raha tha ki mein kya kahun ? i mean ... aisa lag raha tha ki lawde ke khet ke andar mein nanga nach raha hun aur jo koi mutne aa raha hai vahi meri gand mar raha hai....
" possible kaise hua ? i mean.. apne to hamesha pill li hai phir ? " mujhe in baton se sakht ghin ati thi.. i mean.. chut chudai bas... iske alawa ye pill aur ye samajh seva valle sawal lawda ... mere dimag ko irritate kar deta hai.
" maybe.. kisi din mein bhul gayi ... i dont.. know... " unhone apna sar pakad lia.
" aise kaise bhul gayi.. " mein ek dum se bol pada aur tab samajh aya ki log khud nahi gand marne atte.. mein khud deta hun apni gand... thali mein paros ki aao bhai bhojan grehan karo...iski bcccc......
" i mean.. ye galti meri bhi hai.. " aise gambhir mamlo mein hume apni galti bhi manni chahie varna gand parosi nai jati balki lut li jati...
" ab ? " mujhe to kuch samajh hi nahi aa raha tha, bc lawde lag gaye the itna pata tha par dimag ko yahi laga hua tha ki sab sahi hua isliye bc dar nahi lag raha tha ye pehla hi vakya tha.. bc.. aisa kaise ho sakta hai...
" i don't know... i don't " itna keh kar vo mere galle se aa lagi, lawda.. yahan lawde ka sperm pehli baar sahi jagah ja kar chipak gaya par galat time par lekin inhe galle chipakne se fursat nahi mil rahi ? i mean , itna hi nahi galle lag kar vo rone lagi... rona banta bhi tha.. ab ek ladki bina shadi kiye gaye maa ban jaye vo bhi mere dwara bc ladki ke to lawde lagenge hi... par beta ankit apna soch.. tere to ghanghor lawde lag jayenge......... par jab insan kante par khada ho aur vo kanta apke lawde ko chu raha ho tab apko dar is baat ka nahi hota ki apko bahut dard hoga balki is baat ka hoga ki na to aap kabhi muth mar payenge na hi kabhi chudai... aur aise pal mein apka dimag ek dum satik aur thik nirnaye par pahunch jata hai.
" idea.. " mene unhe apne se alag kiya aur unka chehra aisa ho gaya jaise mene suhane mausam mein kadkadati dhup lakar khadi kar di ho.
" abortion kara lo... so simple... isme itna tension lene ki kya jarurat hai yar.. sab kuch sahi ho jayega.. bas .. " mene apna aisa idea sunaya jisne mere sabhi sawalon ko hal kar dia.
Kash ye mera socha hua idea utna hi suhana hota jitna mene socha tha, par ye kash shabd hi sala aisa hai ki isme hum sirf soch aur afsos kar sakte hain lekin badal nahi sakte... usme hum sirf badalne ki soch rakh sakte hain. Us din iske alawa aur koi baat nahi hui, ankita mam ne kaha ki vo sochegi aur phir baat karegi, mene unhe ye pura dilasa dia ki mein is kaam mein unke sath hun.. mein unhe chhodunga nahi.. shayad is baat ki tasali thi unhe.. aur isme sirf unhi ki galti nahi thi, chudai ki bhasad to mere lawde mein bhi lagi thi na.. to galti aur is galti ko sudharne ka ilaz hum dono ko ek sath mil kar karna tha.
Mein ghar par baitha tha na jane kyun ankita mam ke ghar par tha tab thik tha par ghar par akar ajeeb sa ho gaya tha, sheetal ke whatsapp par message the par reply dene aur dekhne tak ka man nahi tha. Aisa lag raha tha jaise koi galti ho gayi ho.. ek pal aya ki ankita mam se baat kar lun unhe bhi acha lagega.. lekin phir socha vo shayad abhi baat nahi karni hogi unhe isliye nahi karta.. varna vo khud hi phone kar leti.. ye soch kar mene phone hi nahi kiya.. Khana khate time bhi maa bhi papa se baat kar rahi thi ki kisi ke ladka hua hai.. bada pyara hai.. pata nahi baat kiski thi.. par ye sun kar man mein aya, ' ki han bc.. aaj aise hi sunne ko milega.. pehle hi gand fati padi hai.' mene ek pal ke liye gaur se maa aur papa ko dekha to illusion hua ki mein baap banne vala hun ye baat unhe pata hai lawde ki kasam ... lawde fat kar uske andae titar beetar ho gaye.. aisi fatii meri.... Mene ankita mam ko abortion vali baat phir likhi kar send kar di.. par phone nahi kia.. pata nahi kyun..
12 se 1 baj gaya par nind na ayi.. dimag sala is baat se hat hi nahi raha tha ab.. abortion kaise hoga.. dr ko kya kahenge.. chutiap fail gaya tha mere dimag mein.. jitna socha tha ye to use kahin jada mushkil tha.. samajh hi nahi aa raha tha ki kya karna hai.. jab samajh nahi aya to mein laptop khol kar baith gaya.. par bc muth marne ke liye lawda bhi nahi khada ho raha tha isliye band karke sone ki kosish karne laga, dimag mein bahut se lawde jage hue the.. jaise agar abortion nahi hua to ? abortion hua to ? kahani kya banayenge dr se ? dr kya sawal karega.. kya mein bhi ankita mam ke sth jaunga hospital ? nahi nahi unhe hi bhej dunga... bc gadar movie ki tarah mere jism se handpump ukhad dia gaya tha aisi feeling aa rahi thi..... kareeb 3 baje ke pass mujhe nind lagi aur theek subah8 baje nind khul gayi.. 8 baje nind khuli ... aur 9 baje mein ankita mam ke ghar par.. ye soch kar... ki no phone no text... direct baat hogi ab... Mein bahut kuch soch chuka tha ki kya karna hai.. aur kya kehna hai.. aur kis tarah kehna hai.. mein unke ghar pahunch kar door bell bajai... koi ahat nahi hui..
" kya ho gaya.. kahin ruth to nahi gayi.. bc lawde lag jayenge ... " mene darwaja khat-khataya.. door bell bajai... par nahi khula.. meri aur fatne lagi.. bc andar hi andar aisa lagne laga ki mut nikal jayega bc mera .. jab darwaja nahi khula to mene phone karne ki sochi.. mene jeans se phone nikalne ke liye nazar niche ki to dekha...
" yahan to lock laga hai .... " darwaja bahar se lock tha... mene sochte hi phone par ankita mam ka number nikala aur dial kia...
" the number your trying to reach is switch off.. " mene ek nahi do bar nahi.. balki 30-35 bar ikhate dial kiya aur same response....
Ab ?
sham ke 7 baj chuke the...... mein vahin sidiyun par baitha phone try kar raha tha aur unki rah dekh raha tha... gate abhi bhi lock tha aur mere phone se nikla vo 157 va call tha.. jisme wahi response aa raha tha.. phone ki battery bhi ab dead ho chuki thi.. aur shayad meri hope bhi...
9:20 minute par jab kuch nahi hua mein apni jagah se utha aur nikal pada vahan se......