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Adultery Lust " Kimat " Love [completed]

Update - 80

" tu aaj kal na to phone karta hai na hi koi baat kya hua hai ? " vicky mere se bola, mein bina kuch bole thumbsup pi raha tha. Kafi dino se use mein koi response nahi de raha tha isliye vo majburan mujhe ghar se hi utha kar le gaya. " kuch bolega ? "

" job ki tension hai kya ? "

" hm... " mene bas itna kaha.

" mil jayegi.. tension kyun le raha hai... vaise bhi bc tu hi kehta hai dunia mein kisi se chudna nahi chahie hamesha chodna chahie... " mene uski baat ka koi jawab nahi dia. Man hi nahi kar raha tha kuch bolne ka.

" chinta mat kar.. exam hai next week se uske baad aram se naukri dhundio.. " itna bola hi tha vo ki uska phone bajne laga.

" han... kaisa hai ab pair ka dard ? ... hmm....nahi mein yahin saket hun.. ankit ke sath.. uska mood kuch thik nahi tha to socha thoda fresh ho jayega.. nahi bas vo exams ki tension... han all ok hai .. hmm.. w'll c you later.. sham ko ghar ata hun.. hmm babye.. " usne phone cut kia aur mere ko dekhte hue bola.

" mujhse jada to usne tere liye sawal kiye... bc kahin tune hakikat mein to meri gf set nahi kar li na " usne itna kaha aur meri nazar uski taraf uth gayi. Mujhe ghurta dekh vo hans pada itne mein uska phone dubara baj pada.

" iski bc.. ye badi dukhi atma hai yar... kasam se... " vo khud se hi bola.

" kaun hai ? "

" consultency... kitni bar mana kiya ise ki tumhari profile mein mere liye job nahi lekin roz ka randi-rona roti hai phone par... ki registeration karwa lo "

" laa baat karwa... " uske dimag se ye baat nikalne ke liye ki sheetal bevakuf abhi mere bare mein jada puch rahi thi aur uski vajah se iske dimag mein kuch jada khayal na aye isliye mene uska dhayan batana sahi samjha. Use mene phone liya aur pick kia.

" helo... yes mein vicky bol raha hun " mene vicky ki hi tone pakdi.. jaise vo baat karta tha.

" sir.. kya apne socha ki aap register kab karenge hamari profile mein ? "

" mein to abhi register kar lun "

" thats... great sir.. to apko mein details specify kar du "

" jara tehriye miss, pehle mujhe aap ye bataiye ki aap jo office mein interview ke liye bhejengi usme maal to tagda hoga na " mere muh se ye sunte hi vicky ki hansi chhut gayi.

" maal ? sir.. "

" item... bole to... ek dum chikni ladkiyan... "

" hainn... "

" i mean girls.. vo to hot and sexy hongi na.. agar aisa hoga tabhi mein register karunga... vo kya hai na dil tabhi lagta hai jab sexy outfit mein sexy ladki office mein kaam kare.. apko nahi lagta mein sahi keh raha hun ? " mere bolne ke baad vo kuch na boli. " kya apke office mein bhi nahi hai kya ? aur agar aisa hai to kya aap bhi sexy nahi hai ? " vo phir na boli. " yani aap sexy nahi to aap jo offer dilwayegi usme bhi koi sexy ladki nahi hogi... phir to bekar hai register karne ka.. sorry miss par ab mene man badal lia "

" nahi sir aisa nahi hai.. mein sexy hun.. i mean hamare yahan ka staff bahut acha hai hum recommend bhi vaisa hi karte hai "

" acha... to mein kaise man lu.. photo bhejo to janu ? " phone loudspeaker par tha vicky muh band karke hans raha tha aur rok bhi raha tha, mujhe bhi maza sa ane laga tha.

" sorry ? "

" your photo... selfie.. whatever you like... to send mein on this number.. vo keh hai na.. galle se nikli awaz sexy hone ka ye matlab nahi ki galle ke niche se bhi sexy hogi... " tun-tun... phone hangup ho chuka tha... jiske baad vicky jo hansa hai.. use dekh mein bhi hans dia.

" bc gazab... tujhse koi jeet nahi sakta.... seriously man... gand hi fad di tune uski... salle kah se sikhta hai ye sab "

" ek source hai "

" maza hi aa gaya.. vaise ek baat aur hai bc tune meri awaz ki copy badia ki.. matlab original nahi hai.. lekin koi phone pr sun kar pehchan nahi payega ki mein nahi hun... hui na tension kam thodi ? " tension word sun kar mene hasna band kar dia par chehre se muskan nahi hati.

" abe dost hote hi isliye hai... akele samjhega to akela rahega.. dost samjhega to akelapan nahi... isliye contact mein raha kar.. me nd sheetal ur good friends now.. "

" hmm sahi kaha yar... dhayan rakhunga... " baat mein to dum tha uski... mene khud ko akela banaya tha kisi ne mujhe majbur nahi kia tha.

" chal ab exam dete hai.. college se mukti lete hai.. phir ek party karenge aur phir lag jayenge naukri dhundne mein.. " hum dono khade ho gaye.

" vaise baat to tune sahi kahi thi.. "

" kaun si ? "

" college se bada bhusad koi nahi hai dunia mein.. madarchodo ne zindagi jhand kar di... " College ka naam ate hi flashback mein sirf ankita mam hi dikhne lagi.

" kya hua ? " mene gardan na mein hilai aur dono nikal gaye.

Uske baad mene sheetal se baat ki, use maffi mangi.. umid se kafi kuch badal gaya tha mere andar... next week se exam the aur mene exam bilkul man se die, uske baad project ki presentation hui.. jisme mene kafi acha respond kia... sab kuch jaise vo hua jo mene socha nahi tha..

" u've changed somehow i dont know ... " jis din last exam tha sheetal se meri baat ho rahi thi. Exam dekar bahar aya tha tabhi uska phone aya tha.

" i think.. hume vicky ko sab kuch bata dena chahie "

" are you mad ? " vo chaunkte hue boli.

" galti apni bataunga tumhari nahi.. " us insan ke sath kyun galat karna jise sala dost na mana phir bhi end tk vahi mere sath hai.

" don't you dare to think like this.... i swear.. mein kuch kar lungi.. "

" mein kuch kar nahi raha.. mein sirf opinion rakh raha hun "

" no need... vo chapter close ho chuka hai "

" really ? "

" what u mean ? "

" tumhari attraction meri taraf khatam ho gayi hai ? "

" this is not the question... "

" hmm.. ok.. jaisa tumhe theek lage.. vaise bhi job lagne ke baad kahan kisi ke pas time hoga.. jaise tumhari marzi... kuch nahi kahunga vicky se.. "

" thank you... " mein phone cut karne wala tha.

" ankit ? "

" hmm.. "

" don't ruin my life please i beg you.... but yes i am all attracted towards you.. but i am begging you... i don't want to be with you.. for me he is everything now.. "

" i know.. " mene phone cut kar dia.. aur sar tek kar metro mein baith gaya. Metro ne rail track badla aur mujhe bhi aisa hi laga jaise meri zindagi ki track badal chuki hai ..
 
Update - 81

Exam ke sath college life ka chapter to close ho gaya, par abhi kuch baki reh gaya tha jiske baad sahi mayine mein meri zindagi ka ek chapter close ho jana tha.

Vicky ki job lag gayi thi, kosish to mein bhi kar raha tha lekin meri abhi tak nahi lagi thi, job koi khasi badi nahi thi par shauk pura karne ke liye sahi thi, usi khushi mein vo party dene ke liye hume ek club mein le gaya, jahan college ke kuch ladke ladkiyan aur bhi the. Man to mera bilkul bhi nahi tha, ek tadap sine mein chub rahi thi jise man aur bhi jada kharab hota jaa raha tha. Bich party mein sheetal washroom ki taraf gayi aur mein bhi vahan se nikal gaya.

" ankit ? kya kar rahe ho yahan ? " sheetal washroom nahi balki kuch changing room jaisa ek kamra banaya gaya tha club ke andar hi, mein vahan khada sheetal ke bahar ane ka intezar kar raha tha. Jaise hi vo bahar ayi mein uski taraf kiss karne ke liye bada aur kiss kar bhi li par usne jald hi apne uppar se mujhe hata dia.

" what are you doing ? "

" bas ek bar.. "

" no... humne decide kiya tha... ki ye sab end ho gaya hai "

" i know.. par ek baar bas. " mein uske honton ki taraf lapka, chum bhi liye lekin phir usne hata dia, mein uski puri body ko chu raha tha, jaise naya naya jism mere hath ho. Hum dono us chote se kamre ke andar ghus chuke the.

" no please..... badi mushkil se mein aage badhi hun... let it be ........ tumne us din kaha tha... " vo itna hi bol payi

" pata hai but.. aaj last... " mein uski gardan par kiss karne laga, chatne laga, uske sine par hath rakh kar uski chatiyan dabane laga, vo kasamasa rahi thi, shayad uska man nahi tha.. lekin mujhe mere man ka ye bebas pan khatam karna tha aur ise badia chiz kya ho sakti thi mere liye. Mene uske pehne short ko niche khiskaya jiske sath uski penty bhi utar ayi, use ghumaya aur piche se lund uski chut mein dal kar usko chodne laga.

" i know.. u like it too..hain na... " mein uski pith chat raha tha, vo sisak rahi thi ya uhmm kar rahi thi pata nahi, sisha nahi tha uska chehra dekhne ke liye, par mein use chodta raha jab tak lund ne apna kaam nahi kar dia. Mene apna haal thik gaya aur vahan se bina kuch kahe hi nikal gaya, ye dekhne ke bhi kosish nahi ki uska sisakna kamukta ki vajah se nahi balki uske ansu the jo vo andar hi andar ghol kar pi gayi thi. Uske baad mein party mein nahi ruka, mujhe laga tha ki sab theek ho jayega... mera man ka bhoj.. sab kuch lekin aisa nahi hua, vo abhi bhi vaisa hi tha, mujhe yakin nahi ho raha tha ki aisa kaise ho sakta hai lekin aisa hi ho raha tha. Puri raat phir bechaini mein nikali, pata nahi kyun ab to jaise adat si banti jaa rahi thi aisi bechani mein raat katne ki, samajh hi nahi paa rha tha ki achanak kya se kya ye sab kyun ho gaya ?

" tera aur vicky ka jhagda mene hi karwaya tha aur us raat ko hamare bich kuch nahi hua tha... " ye line kehne ke liye mein kab se baitha tha, bar bar man mein aa rahi thi lekin keh nahi paa raha tha, himmat nahi thi sach bolne ki. Sheetal meri taraf dekh kar bhi andekha kar rahi thi, vicky ki kal se joining thi isliye kuch kapde kharidne ke baad hum sab kha rahe the.

" tu kuch bolna chahta hai ? "

" mein... nahi to... tujhe aisa kyun laga "

" bas laga... jaise tu kuch kehna chahta ho.. us din party se tu jaldi chala gaya, sheetal bhi tere jane ke baad ajeeb sa behave karne lagi, tum dono ke bich kuch hua hai kya ?" vicky ne bade normal andaz mein kaha.

" hamare ? no baby... hamare bich mein kya hoga.. " sheetal ne to palda jhad dia.

" mein vicky thodi na hun jo mere sath iska kuch hoga " mene mahol ko mazak rakhne ke chakar mein vicky bhare andaz mein kaha aur yahi mujh par bhari padh gaya.

" tu salle meri awaz bahut sahi nikalta hai.. kahin tu mere L na lagwa de is chakar mein ek din "

" language " sheetal boli.

" sorry "

" mein kya kar sakta hun yar... " mein khane laga.

" kuch bhi.. jaise paise mang sakta hai.. mere ghar walon se.. ya phir meri gf se baat kar sakta hai "

" uske liye mujhe teri awaz ki jarurt thodi na padegi " mein abi bhi aram se kha raha tha.

" abhi nahi.. par pehle jarur.... " uske itna kehte hi mene khana band kar dia.

" kya bakwas kar rha hai ? "

" bakwas nahi.. sach bata raha hun tu bas ha ya na mein jawab dio, us din sheetal ka jab phone aya tha tab tune hi baat ki thi na ? jiski vajah se hamara jhagda hua ? " is baat ko sun mein to chaunka aur sheetal mujhe ghurne lagi.

" kaun si baat ? bavla ho gaya kya.. "

" han ya na mein jawab de... "

" dekh kuch bhi mat bak.. mein chala ghar.. tu salle bavla gaya hai.. " mein uthne laga to usne mera hath pakad lia.

" chutia-panti mat kar.. " mein chillaya.

" relax guys.... please yahan se chalo... lets go.. vicky please.. come... " vicky kuch nahi bola aur uth kar chal dia.

" tu hamare sath ayega... " vo bola.

" kyun be tere baap ne kharida hai mujhe ya teri maa ne... " vicky ka khun khol to utha par sheetal ne rok dia.

" ankit... chalo hamare sath... just clear this out.. please... " pata nahi kyun mein uski baaton mein aa gaya, na ata to sab kuch sahi rehta, mujhe chale jana chahie tha par hone wale hadse kabhi talte nahi...
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Mera dil ise pehle itna tez nahi dhadka hoga jitna us pal mein parking lot mein jate hue laga tha, na jane kyun par dil zoroo se dhadak raha tha jaise mere hath mein kisi ne meri failure ki degree rakh di ho.. vaise sahi mayine mein to aaj mujhe zindagi ki ek degree mili hi thi...

" tu mujhe sach batayega ki tu hi tha us din ki nahi.. " parking lot mein pahunchte hi usne sawal shuru kar die. Bc ek pal to bahut gussa aya man kara muh tod dun par phir bhi mein chup raha, mujhe laga shant ho jayega.. shayad par nahi... vo nahi mana ...

" bata bc... "

" vicky language " sheetal chillai.

" tu chup kar.... mera dimag fat raha hai.. doubt to mujhe is par us din hua jis din isne meri nakal karte hue us consultency wale se baat kari thi.. tab se mere dimag mein chal raha hai ki kahin ye vo to nahi jisne tumse baat karke hamara jhagda karwaya "

" galat femi bhi to ho sakti hai.. " sheetal ne meri side li.

" galat femi hai to ye bol kyun nahi deta " vicky meri taraf dekh chillaya.

" chill... aram se baat karo guys.. sort it out.. itna bada matter nahi hai "

" matter nahi hai ? sheetal... tumhe pata hai mein kis ki baat kar raha hun hamare jhagde ki... jo iski vajah se hua " vicky ne apni baat meri taraf dekhte hue khatam ki. " iski vajah se hamara jhagda hua bhul gayi tum... kya pata hamara relation hi khatam ho jata... breakup hone mei koi kasar nahi bachi thi "

" par hua to nahi na.. baby.. relax... we are together.. " sheetal vicky ko thanda rakhne ki kosish kar rahi thi.

" jo bhi hua.. agar ankit ne aisa kiya.. so he will say sorry... baad mein usne hi to hamra patchup karyaa na.. remember ? " sheetal meri side par side le rahi thi aur vicky ko shant kar rahi thi isliye mein bhi kuch nahi bol raha tha lekin aaj vo bikharne ke pure mood mein tha.. total full on bikhar jane ka plan tha uska.

" oh yeah... iski dusri chaal... isne hum dono ko milwaya ye dikhane ke liye.. aur tumne kya kaha ki mein ise maaf kar dun.. iske sorry par.. ? "

" vicky please... maybe he was just kidding with me... par uski vajah se hamara jhagda ho gaya.. maybe his intensions was never like that... hain na ankit.. ? " is bar sawal sheetal ne kia, mein ek bar ke liye muh kholta par na jane kyun chup hi raha muh khula hi nahi.

" i dont think so... tumhe lagta hai ki he is nice.. par mein janta hun ye kaisa hai.. isliye mein puri tarah se sure hun ye isne jaan kar kiya... " vicky is bar meri taraf bada aur usne mera kolor pakad lia. " tune kyun kiya bas itna bata de varna kasam se mar mar kar salle teri hadiyan tod dunga.. "

" vicky.. leave... kya kar rahe ho ye.. " sheetal ne vicky ka hath mujhse hatane ki kosish ki par vo nahi mila aur yahan mera temper pura loose ho gaya..

" teri ma ka bhosda randi ke pile.. salle dalli ke dallle.... " mene vicky ko dhaka dia. " madarchod.. "

" ankit please... language guys... stop this.. " sheetal chillai lekiin kehte hain na shikar ke time bakri madad ki jeetni bheekh mang le kya farak padta hai sher to phir bhi use dabochta hai aur baki ke log ya to us bakri ko khane ki fairak mein hote hain ya tamashe ke maze lete hai.

" han salle mene jaan kar karaya jhagda... maa chuda le apni.. mujhse.. mere lawde se... maa se bhi tasali na mile to ise bhi le aaio... gand mar dunga iski bhi.. lawde ki hasiyat nahi aur chale hath uthane... bc aise lawde lapet kar gardan dabaunga teri ki lawda dabane aur khud ka hath dabane mein farak bhul jayega madarjaat ke pille... gand mein jada kide na uchal varna teri hi lawde se teri gand ke kide marunga aur tere ko hugne bhi na dunga... bhasdchod.. kal ke aye chokre.. abe kya uchalta hai ek ladki par.. han... kya uchalta hai.. vo bhi is ghasti par.. jiski chut aur gand....mene na jane kitni baar mar li hai... aur agar vishwas na ho to puch lena... tere samne hi gand mari hai iski... bas tu hi andha hai jo dekh na paya aur apne aap ko james bond ke tatte samajh raha hai.. jabki bc ye bhul gaya ki tum jaise hamare tatton ki tasveer dekh kar pranam karte ho.... hatt madarjaaaat...... " sar aisa bhana gaya tha ki bc bas jo muh mein aya vo ugla aur vahan se chala gaya... na piche dekha na daye na baye.. ye bhi nahi socha ki vicky gadi se rod vod nikal kar layega aur mere sar par de marega.. us waqt aisa bhi nahi socha kyun ki us waqt mene bas yahi socha ki nuni lawde ke samne kya hota hai ?

Par bc ghar jakar jo bhut utra hai meri khopdi se... uske baad jo bechaini hui hai mere zehen mein uske bare mein bayan nahi kar sakta...

Sheetal ko kyun fansaya ?

shanti se baat kyu nahi ki ?

sheetal ne to mera sath dia phir kyun aisa kia ?

madarchod... sab khatam kar dia bekar mein.. shanti se sulajh jata matter phir mene ye maa behen kyun kar di ?

Bc gand to fat rahi thi lekin mene sheetal ko phone milaya.. par ek ring ke baad cut.. dubara ... teebara... uske baad vicky ko uska to phone hi nahi laga... bc hath paun kanp uthe mere... sab khatam.. the end ho chuka tha...

Sham ho chuki thi.. mene bahut kosish kiya tha par koi reponse nahi tha..dimag had se jada pareshan ho chuka tha.. man nahi lag raha tha kisi kaam mein... sham se raat aur mein bas bistar par karwat badalta raha.. phone utha kar whtsapp check karta.. kisi ka to message aye.. ek ek karke sab zindagi se aise nikal gaye jaise lund se sperm nikal jata hai... kareeb 2 baje mein uth kar baith gaya, bechaini se pura badal pasine se bhig gaya tha.. mene laptop khola aur xp par story padne laga.. 3,4 aise hi baj gaye... nind nahi ayi.. pata nahi kyun.. par aaj nind hi nahi aa rahi thi.. akhir mein story se bhi bore ho gaya pehli baar aisa hua.. bas laptop band karne ja raha tha ki ajeeb sa ek khayal aya... ek bar man kiya ki band kar dun.. par ye khayal ne jaise dilo jaan par kabja kar lia.. soch kar hi ankhein bharne lagi aur kaleja bhari ho gaya.. akhir mene is soch ko bahar lane ka faisla kar hi liya.. mene xp par login kia.. aur login karte hi mene vo kaam kia jiski mene kalpana bhi nahi ki thi.. mene kahani likhne ka faisla kia aur kahani ka naam rakha..

Ek " Kimat " Zindagi Ki......
 
Update - 82

Us raat mene kahani likhne ka soch to liya par uske baad samajh aya ki sochne mein aur karne mein kitna farak hota hai.. mein koi writer nahi hun lekin phir bhi likhne ka ajeeb sa junun paida ho gaya, mein jo jo likhta gaya use mehsus karta gaya. Mene kahin pada hai ki likhne ke liye shabd sochne nahi padte jab vo shabd apke zehen se utre ho, shayad mere sath bhi kuch aisa hi ho raha tha. Mene likhna is soch ke sath shuru kiya ki mein sirf likhunga par jab uske lekhan par logo ko khud ke liye itni tarif suni to vishwas nahi hua ki ye kaam mein kar raha hun kyun ki zindagi bhar meri kabhi kisi ne tarif nahi ki kisi bhi baat ke liye isliye hamesha yahi lagta aya ki mere andar koi talent nahi hai. Dhire dhire hi sahi mein kahani likh raha tha par sabse badi bich mein jo rukawat aa rahi thi vo tha mera future jo is waqt ek aise gehre kadhe mein tha jise nikalne ke liye badi mehnat ki jarurat thi uppar se ghar mein maa ke tane jo vo mujhe dekh kar nahi marti thi na hi meri aur ishare karke lekin unke tane mere liye hi hote the, vo tane aur naukri na milne ki bebasi ab mera dimag frustrate hona shuru ho gaya tha.

" muft ki rotiyan kab tak todega.. " maa kitchen se boli.

" mat do yar khana.. ehsan mat karo aap " mein is waqt apni kahani likh raha tha aur mera ye ab roz ka ho gaya tha. Subh der se uthna.. aur uske baad sara din alas ke ghar mein pade rehna, hollywood series aur kahani.. bas yahi do kaam tha mera ab aur isi ke chalte mera basera ho raha tha.

" han mat kaha.. vaise bhi sara din pada hi rehta hai.. naukri mil rahi hai ki nahi "

" mil jati to yahan baitha hota "

" to kaun dhundega "

" dhund to raha hun milegi tabhi na karunga "

" college mein nahi ayi compani koi "

" ati to mil jata na kahin na kahin "

" kaise college mein admission liya tha.. "

" pta nahi tha.. apne bachon ko apke pas bhej dunga thodi dhang ki shiksha de dena "

" han jaise mene to tujhe di hi nahi hai " kitchen se bahar akar mere samne khade hote hue boli. " bas sara din yahin pada rahega.. sharir bekar ho jayega tera.. kam se kam kuch to kar.. sharir dekh mara sa pada hai.. koi kaam dhanda hai nahi.. roti bhi muft ki todni hai aur koi mehnat bhi nahi karni.. " tanna marte hue vo to chali gayi, mein ispar kuch nahi bola, gussa to bahut aya par kuch bola nahi aur apni kahani ka ek update likh kar mene post kar dia. Dimag garam tha man kiya kisi ko khub sunao par jaise hi mene update post kiya to mere profile par ek private message aya hua tha. Ye wahi ladki ka message tha jo kafi time se mujhse baat kar rahi thi aise hi jab se usne meri kahani padi thi. Aaj uska message kuch aur hi tha..

" give me your number na.. mein tumse baat karna chahti hun.. " use baat karte hue mujhe doubt tha ki vo koi launda hai kyun ki aaj kal ki yahi dunia hai ki laundo ko laundi banne ka shauk chada hai samajh nahi aya ki jab latka hua tambu uppar wale ne dia hai to khuli hui guffa banne ka kyun shauk chada hai in chutiyun ke pathon ko.. khair mein doubt ke chalte bhi use baat kar raha tha par aaj usne number manga to ajeeb laga samajh nahi aya ki dun ya nahi dun. Mene phir number na dene ke bajaye sawal kia..

" number ke bahane apni sundar photo dekhaogi kya " mene ye sawal isliye kiya taki uski man ki mansha jaan sakun .. message send karne ke baad mene logout nahi kiya mujhe laga ki uska message ayega aur aya bhi 10 minute baad.

" han bilkul.. tu number to de na.. i really want to talk to u " ab gaddi kuch aur ki taraf jaa rahi thi, lagne laga tha ki ye koi ladki hi hai lekin phir bhi apna number dena mujhe thik nahi lag raha tha, ek to xp jaisi site uspar se ek ladki ke sath apni personal detail share karna vo bhi aisi jiski sachai nahi pata ki asal mein vo hai kaun ... man bhi kar raha tha number dene ka jise aur baat kar saku agar ye ladki hi hai to.. man bada ulajh gaya tha.. kya karun.. kya karun.. takreeb 10 min tak mene ye socha aur uske baad ek idea aya..

' kyun na number hi badal lu.. vaise bhi purane number mein bahut bhasad machi hui hai.. koi hai bhi nahi jo mujhe phone karega.. vaise bhi purani har chiz se ab dur hi chale jana chahta hun.. jab koi mujhse baat hi nahi karna chahta to farak bhi kya padta hai.. yahi sahi hai ' mene number badalne ka faisla kiya aur shop jakar pehle naya number le aya.. is zamane ki sabse badia chiz.. sab kuch bahut fast hota hai.. number ek ghante mein activate .. mene purana sim sambhal kar ek jagah par rakh dia vaise bhi koi faida nahi tha lekin phir bhi rakh dia, phir whatsapp ko new number ke sath active kiya aur sab taiyar.

' ab sahi rahega number dena.. ' soch kar mene xp khola to uska message aya hua tha.

' tu to ladki se bhi jada darta hai, mein kaun sa tujhe kha jaungi.. ye le mera hi no. message kar dio ' usne apna hi number de dia tha. mene fauran us no ko save kiya aur vo whtsapp par thi, par uski koi dp nahi thi, mene use turant message kiya aur reponse turant aya, bas phir kya uske baad to batein shuru, vo mumbai se thi ... aur kasam se keh rah hun.. badi hi harami ladki thi.. thi ladki hi kyun ki mene uski photo mang li thi aur usne bhi mujhe dekh lia tha. Mein uske haramipan ki baat kar raha tha.. aur mein use isliye keh raha tha kyun ki vo bahu thi jada tharki thi.. sex chat to jaise roz ka hi khel ban gaya tha hamara.. usne apni chatiyan.. chut.. sabki photo mere sath share ki thi.. nahate hue apni chatiyan dabate hue tak ki selfie usne bheji thi.. itna hi nahi.. apni chut mein ungli karne ki bahut se sound file bhejti thi.. kasam se use sunte hue khub muth mari hai mene.. kyun ki uski awaz bahut hi jada sexy aur mithi thi.. itni gazab awaz mene kisi ladki ki nahi suni thi aur chut mein ungli karte hue jis tarah ko siskti thi kasam se bina muth mare to raha hi nahi jata tha.. ek ek sound file mene 3-4 bar suni aur utni hi bar phir muth bhi mari. Aisa karte karte kafi time guzar gaya...

" tu gym vym jaya kar...hadi sa hai ek dum " ek din usne aisa mujhse kaha.. jab hum dono sex chat karke baithe the.. phone par to kabhi baat hui nahi thi hamesha chat hi kiya karta tha uske sath usne kayi bar kaha par mene hamesha taal dia. Us din jab usne mujhe kaha tab bada chuba mujhe, mene sishe mein khud ko dekha aur apne chehre ko ... kamjori sach mein havi ho gayi thi.. khair kuch din aise hi nikle.. vo kuch din online nahi ayi.. to bada ajeeb sa laga mene use bahut message kiye par uska reply nahi aya... mene phir apna dhayan naukri dhundne mein nikala par hamesha ki tarah ek bhi meri profile ki nahi mili.. interview die par sabko ya to scam ke lye caller chahie the ya sahi mein customer care ke liye caller.

Meri kahani continue rahi.. bich mein kabhi cousins aye to mazak mazak mein unhone bhi wahi baat kahi ki mein hadi hota ja raha hun aur bhi bahut kuch.. vaie to koi aur hota to daiya maiya chod deta lekin filal mere halat kuch aise nahi the ki mein kuch bol saku.. us raat mene bahut socha aur apni life ki taraf dhayan dia ki vo kahan jaa rahi hai.. vakai mein kuch nahi kar raha tha aur yahi vajah thi ki mera dimag bhi frustrate ho gaya tha.. us raat mene ek aur faisla liya....

Kisi tarah himmat karke mein ek din gym gaya join karne.. ghabrahat ho rahi thi andar ghuste hi dekha sab ek se badh kar ek aur mein unke samne chuza sa.. par phir dhire dhire mein adjust hone laga.. hafte bhar mein mujhe bhi maza ane laga.. ek ajeeb sa junun dil mein baith gaya ya yun kahun ki dunia ko dikhane ke liye jee jan se mehnat karne laga. Ek taraf kahani... ek taraf gym aur kabhi kabhi vo ladki Ziva, jo kabhi kabhi apni ungli karne ki sound file bheja karti thi aur kabhi kabhi selfie bhi.. Isi tarah 6 mahine guzar gaye aur gym jate hue mujhe 3 mahine ho gaye the, 3 mahine baad mere sharir mein kafi badlav aye the aur mein ab muscles ne nikharna shuru kar dia tha, khud ko dekh kar sishe mein ab bada garv sa mehsus hota tha aur din par din selfie lene ka shauk chad gaya tha. Facebook par pehli bar jab selfie dali to add hue kuch logon ne khub tarif mari... chehre par muskan aur dil mein sukun milna shuru ho gaya tha.. purane waqt par jaise mithi ki chadar chad gayi thi aur ab ek naya safar meri zindagi mein aa gaya tha..

" mera ye number bahut se logon ke pas hai change karungi "

" apna naya number de dio "

" bilkul " ziva ke sath ye akhri message tha kyun ki usne uske baad number badal lia aur kabhi message nahi kia. Mene bhi is baat par jada bura nahi lagaya... online dosti shayad kuch aisi hi hoti hai kaun ata hai aur kaun chala jata hai uspar nirasha karne se koi faiyda nahi hota kyun ki hamara nata kabhi bhi dil se hota hi nahi.. shayd ek dikhawe par tik jate hai aise rishte..

Mera ab ek hi motive tha.. badia body banana gym ab mera junun ban gaya tha.. side mein ab mein naukri dhundne mein lag gaya tha aur ab jada dhayan mera usi par tha.. kahani se mera man to nahi hata tha lekin ab time kam de pa raha tha.. vo bas akhri ki hi bachi thi par abhi vo feeling nahi aa rahi thi shayad purane palo ko mein ikhata nahi kar paa raha tha.. jaise mene shuru mein kaha kahani likhne ke liye shabd sochne nahi padte vo zehen se khud nikalte hain aur is waqt mere zehen mein hi vo pal nahi aa rahe the jise mein jee chuka tha aur jise mein apni kahani mein dalna chahta tha. Aisa karte karte september aa gaya aur ye vo mahina tha jisne meri zindagi ka padav badal dia..

21 september... mera interview.. aur meri pehli naukri ab mere hath mein thi...
 
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Zindagi ki nayi shuruwat behad hi alag lagti hai aur vo bhi jab aisi ho jo apke lie bilkul alag aur nayi ho, iske alawa behad junun aur josh hota hai.. isi ke chalte is job mein mujhe jab ye kaha gaya ki first 15 din ki salary nahi milegi mene tab bhi ise join kiya aur pura man laga kar kaam kiya. Par junun aur ichayein aur nayi shuruwatein kab sali purani takdeer ban jati hai uska ehsas hi nahi hota.

Kutte ki tarah pela kaam mein mujhe, itna ki mein pilta gaya jiske chalte mera banaya sharir pil gaya, gym chhuta... aur jaise dunia se alag hi ho gaya. Exbii par ek din gaya to kai logon ki galiyan mili apni kahani par ..... kya karta waqt ki maar ne thaka diya tha.. isliye mene kisi tarah sabse pehle apni pehli aur akhri kahani ko khatam kiya. Pura ek saal sala bhut pela office walon ne mujhe, majdur ki tarah 500-/ rs roz ka tha agar mein apni salary ko mahine se divide karun to.. Uppar se itni chikchick aur bhosdi wala manager. Akhirkar mene October ko naukri se resign de dia, chahta to chhodte waqt bahut sunana tha office ke kayi sadasyun ko lekin akhri pal mein ye sab bachakana samajh kar nahi kia.

Naukri chhodne ke faisle par mujhe ghar par galiyan padi, lekin kai baar hamare maa-baap bhi sahi ya galat ko pehchan nahi pate, mana vo experience hote hain lekin hamari chal rahi life ko vo decrypt nahi kar pate, ya phir kahun ki haamre encryption wale chehre ke piche vo bechare hamari asli halat ko samajh nahi pate. Mein office join karne se pehle khud ko yahi manta tha ki mere baski nahi hai lekin ek saal mein mene jo kaam kiya hai, chahe vo office work ho ya client handling uske baad confidence itna tha ki mein ye salary aur ye jagah deserve nahi karta tha bas ek saal ke us experience letter ke liye mein naukri kar raha tha varna to 6 mahine baad hi chhod deta. Vajah yahi thi.. bas isliye socha kuch din ghar baithna pade lekin naukri wahi karunga jahan work ki value ho na ki mere kaam ko nazar-andaz kar dia jaye. Ye baat mein ache se janta tha ki market mein naukriyan bas ab naam ki reh gayi hai, sarkar ki kiye gaye vade unki asli aukat dikha rahe the growth 4.7% job ka down tha.. yani ki nallon ki tadad lakhon mein thi aur sarkar ki sirf juban chal rahi thi. Yahi vajah thi ki ghar par bahut galiyan padh rahi thi, lekin mene un sabhi baton ko ignore karke ek hi jagah badh raha tha, aisi naukri ki talash jo shayad meri zindagi badal de, bas dar is baat ka rehta tha ki har baar ki tarah kismat piche na reh jaye, kyun ki ek baat to tay thi ki zindagi mein ladne ke liye himmat to chahie hoti hai par kismat ke hone se wahi himmat jeet mein tabdeel ho jati hai.. mein bas usi kismat ke intezar mein tha, aur vo din akhirkar aa hi gaya...

December 15

Aaj mera video conference ke interview ka result ana tha, mein sara din bas laita raha... roz ki tarah thand ke mausam mein razai ke andar ghus kar, kamre ki light band kar bas laita raha bina koi tension liye aur phir vo pal bhi aya jisne mujhe ek sidi uppar chada dia. Mein select ho gaya tha, agle hafte Pune ki flight thi meri, dil mein khushi thi aur uske sath ek ajeeb sa dar alag aur akela rehne ki..

" ab to mujhse chutkara mil jayega... ab to aap khush hogi " packing karte hue mene maa se kaha.

" aisa na keh.. vo to kabhi bol deti hun bas "

" haa.. ab to yahi kahogi... " mene hansi mein unko aise dikhaya ki ab samajh ayega mere bina rehne ka matlab.

" tujhe kya malum ki kya dukh hota hai ek maa ko jab uska bacha use dur jata hai.. tujhe samajh nahi ayega.. chal mein khane ka saman pack kar dun tera le jane ka varna vahan maa to milegi nah.. khud hi banana padega.. " vo keh kar chali gayi aur us pal aisa laga ki vakai ab mein akela hone jaa raha hun.

Aisa watq nikalta bhi jaldi hai, kab vo agla hafta aya aur kab mein pune pahunch kar pehle din office mein ja baitha pata hi nahi chala. Ye office mere pehle se bahut jada bada tha, yahan sirf mera hi office nahi balki kayi office the, corporate world.. jo sala bolne mein bhi sahi se jaban par nahi ata tha mere. Mere to hath pair hil rahe the, confidence to jaise chudi hui chut se ek seal packed chut ban kar chup gaya tha.

Ek, do, teen.. aur pura hafta aisa hi nikal gaya... 10 baje ana 8 baje jana... na sar utha kar kisi ko dekhta tha na hi abhi tak kisi se baat cheet hui thi, bas jo mere sar the, vo thoda bahut kaam dete the vo bhi mail par hi.. face to face to baat-cheet hi nahi hoti thi. Collegues bhi shayad aise hi the.. attitude to kahan nahi hota aisi position par aur mera behaviour to shuru se nahi raha ki khud aage badh kar kisi se hath mila lun. Bas yunhi ek hafta beet gaya... saturay waise off hota hai lekin new comers ke liye 1 mahina saturday ana compulsary tha.. bada hi chodo sa rule tha par ab tha to tha.

" hume bhi off milna chahie saturday se.. " meri hi tarah do teen aur the jo naye the. Unme se ek bola jo aaj mere bagal desk par tha.

" hmm "

" kaam bhi itna de dete hain ki jaldi bhi nahi ja sakte "

" han vo bhi hai "

" varna to saturday ko to sara din aish karo.. " mene halke se honth khinch kar ye dikha dia ki mein uski baton se hansa hun, mere is fike response ke baad vo bhi nahi bola aur mein chahta bhi nahi tha. 6:10 par mein office se apne flat ki taraf nikal gaya, jo ki tha shared lekin abhi mein akela hi tha.

" khana khaya ? "

" han.. "

" acha to banati hai na ? "

" han khane layak hota hi hai "

" kya kiya sara din ? "

" wahi office "

" ghuma nahi abhi tak kahin.. "

" yar abhi to ek hafta hua hai.. kahan ghumunga "

" ghum le ab jakar.. kuch kharid le.. "

" yar maa bekar ki baat na karo.. chalo rakho.. thak raha hun mein.. "

" mujhse baat karte hue thakta hi hai tu.. chal nikal "

" han bye... " mene vedio call band ki aur laptop par surfing karte hue xp khola, kachre se bhara pada tha.. ek bhi dhang ki kahani nahi jo padh sake... par bc phir achanak dil kiya aur use close karke porn khola... aur phir kya hona tha.. aaj bahut dino ke baad muth mari aur itne dino ke baad muth marne ke baad maal bhi khub tagda nikla... bas abhi use saaf karne ke liye palang se uthta itne mein ghar ki ghanti baj gayi.
 
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Gate kholne se pehle mene apna bahaya pani saaf kiya aur bahar jo bhi tha vo kuch der khada hi raha. Saf safai ke baad jab darwaja khola to samne us flat ka owner aur ek ladka khada tha jise dekhte hi mein samajh gaya ki flat sharing wala aa gaya. Mein darwaja khol kar hall mein aa baitha jahan mera laptop rkha tha, owner ne use sab kuch samjhaya aur phir vo chala gaya us ladke ko mere sath chhod kar. Ajeeb baat thi abhi jab tk mein akela tha tab yahi soch raha tha akela kyun hun aur ab jab koi aa gaya hai to yahi lag raha tha ki bc ye aya kyun ? akela jada maza tha.. Vo sidhe kamre mein ja ghuse, mene socha sala akdu hai isliye kuch bola bhi nahi. Vi kuch der baad fresh hokar aya aur sidhe mere pas aa baitha.

" owner to bada hi chutia hai yar... " jaise hi usne ye line kahi sala uspar dil aa gaya. Kyun ki yahi same line mene yahan ghuste hi kahi thi aur is lehaze mein ek delhi wala hi bol sakta hai.

" delhi se hai kya bhai.. " mene laptop se nazar hata kar uski taraf dekha.

" han.. yar.. mein bhi delhi se hi hun... "

" ankit... "

" rahul " mene use hath milaya aur phir lag gaye dono launde gap-shap mein. Delhi ka launda tha, harami kaise na hota .. pakka harami tha... daru se lekar ladki baaz mein pakka... aur sabse badi baat vo bhi usi building mein kaam karta tha jahan mein par uska department aur uska floor bilkul alag hi tha.

" to mumbai kab se hai ? "

" 2 saal ho gaye.. "

" par delhi ki language nahi gayi yar.. "

" paidaishi hak hai vo hamara aise kaise jayega... " beer pite hue bola. Hum dono bahar khana khane aye the. " par tu engineer hokar nahi pita uske baad delhi mein bhi rehta hai.. sala ye to hazam hi nahi ho raha mujhe "

" han yar.. sab yahi kehte hai.. par adat nahi padi.. "

" koi na.. hum sikha denge... " mein bas hans kar reh gaya.

" lawde lag jayenge tere usme.. " meri baat sun kar usne ek baar mujhe ghura aur phir hum dono hans pade. Jab koi apne seher ka milta hai to itna acha lagta hai ye baat mene aaj jani. Vaise to kai batein ki humne... par abhi batane se kya faiyda jab us baat ka koi relation hi nahi hai abhi. Subh office ab usi ke sath jata tha, sham ko usi ke sath vapis aa jana, co-ordination ban raha tha, aur jo boriyat yahan ane ke baad hui thi vo dur ho rahi thi. 1 mahina aise hi beet gaya, diwali ka time tha, office mein kuch din chutiyan ho gayi thi jo ghar par maa ne bula liya aur usi waqt rahul ne outing karne ka program.

" abe bc.. ye kya chutiapanti hai .. itna gazab plan banaya hai.. "

" yar ab to ghar jana padega.. "

" had hai bc.. tum salle chutie log ho kasam se.. "

" abe tere doston ke sath mein karunga bhi kya.. tu enjoy kar "

" dost kya.. office ke hain sab.. bc launde laundia.. pair ke hissab se itna acha set kiya tha tune gand mara li bich mein "

" phir kabhi ... mauke to bahut ayenge "

" mana nahi kar sakta ? " usne nazar utha kar pucha aur mene sidhe chehre se na mein mundi hila di.

" bhosdika..... "

Mujhe bhi outing na jane ka afsos to tha hi par han diwali ghar walon ke sath manene ka maza hi alag tha. School ke dost.. priya ki galiyan.. itne waqt se baat na karne ki wajah se.. sab vakai bahut acha tha.. 4 din ki chutiyan bahut jald hi nikal gayi, ek pal to vapis jane ka kar hi nahi raha tha par kehta kya... zindagi ke is bhag-daud mein hum apni mili ek zindagi mein vahi nahi karte jo hamare man ka hota hai...

" kaisa raha trip ? "

" solid... tu bhi hota to maza aa jata " iske aage mein kuch puchta, uska phone baj utha aur vo bahar nikal gaya. Mein thaka hua tha isliye apna kamra band karke so gaya, kal se wahi life jeeni thi.....insani machine vali..

Office mein ab mein jamne laga tha, kaam kafi had tak janne laga tha, vo ek saal ka experience bahut kaam aa raha tha, isliye pakad banti jaa rahi thi .. kaam kuch alag nahi hota... karna vaise hi hota hai bas apke samne ki chizen badal jati hai mene bas isi baat ko pakad kar apne aap ko build kiya varna yahan to koi batane wala bhi nazar nahi aa raha tha. Mere sath jinka yahan selection hua tha, unse baatcheet hone lagi thi lekin office tak hi, itne ache bhi nahi the vo ki mein unhe apne sar par chada lun. Sath mein lunch.. ek dusre ki help bas itna hi...

" ye kaun jaa raha hai aaj ? " mene manish se pucha.

" senior tha.. resign dia yahan se.. shayad sir se koi jhagda hua tha tab nahi pta tha ki resign dega... "

" hmm.. chalo ek jagah aur khali hui "

" khali chhod.. sir ki fatti padi hogi.. "

" aisa kyun ? "

" client handling mein master tha.. ab jab ye chala gaya to company ke lag jayenge.. "

" kisi ke jane ki vajah se kaam nahi rukta.. han pareshani jarur hoti hai.. par yahi fact hai.. koi replace kar lega. "

" mujhe aisa nahi lagta ... " manish ne apna reaction dia. Mene kuch nahi kaha kyun ki mein janta tha ki yahi sach hai.. pehle mein bhi yahi sochta tha lekin apni pehli company se reisgn dene ke baad is baat ka ehsas ho gaya.

" Kaha hai ? " rahul ki call thi.

" mujhe thoda late ho jayega.. ek script mein fansa hu... soch raha hu nipta lu " mene ghadi mein dekha 6:30 ho rahe the.

" badia hai.. mein aa raha hun... kuch kaam hai "

" camera lage hain yahan... mona ko lekar yahan ane ka faiyda nahi hai koi " mona uski gf thi.. aur mein uske naam se use chidata jarur tha vajah... kyun ki vo gf sirf naam ki thi.. darasal thi to sirf ek sex partner hi... iske piche bhi dusri vajah hai aur vo aisa kyun ki vo uski boss thi....

" uske liye tera office hi bacha hai kya... 10 minute ruk aa raha hun "

" han aja.. " mene phone cut kar dia, mujhe pata tha ki vo kuch chutiapanti karega uske 10 minute adhe gante se uppar hone the isliye mein nischint hokar apna kaam karne laga aur takreeban 20 minute mein mera kaam ho hi gaya. Mein apna laptop pack karne laga ki rahul ki awaz ayi.

" aa gaya salle chut.. " mein plug se charger nikal raha tha isliye meri nazar uppar thi par jab uppar uthi to muh se nikla shabd andar ghus gaya, mene rahul ki taraf dekha vo jaise samajh hi gaya tha mein kya bolne wala tha, mujhe uspar bahut gussa aa raha tha kyun ki mujhe laga tha vo akela ayega par vo betichod apne sath ek ladki ko bhi laya tha.. jiski taraf jab mene dekha to halka hans di saaf tha usne bhi mera adha word samajh liya tha... mein apni image yahan achi banane aya tha par is delhi walle ne phir meri aukad samne la di thi
 
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Do min ki awkward silence ke baad rahul hi bola. " tune to apna saman pack kar liya yani tu mera kaam nahi karega ? " mein bhi is waqt thoda hadbadaya hua tha aur kuch pal pehle bole gayi baat ko badlne ke liye uski baat mein baat jod di.

" han to tu 10 minute mein aa raha tha... ab meri dukan band kal ana. " mene charger bag mein dalte hue kaha.

" aisa mat kar badi umeed se aye hai tere pas.. "

" kyu aisa kya naya kand kar dia tune ab ? " bolne ke baad phir dhayan aya ki vo akela nahi hai. " i mean kya ho gaya aisa ? "

" are kaam mera nahi.. akansha ka hai " Akansha... ishara uske sath ayi ladki ki taraf tha.

" kaisa kaam ? "

" are ise ek file nahi mil rahi.. bahut important hai aur IT wale ko server par nahi mili keh raha hai delete ho gyi hogi.. "

" han to kaise milegi.. trash nahi hota usme.. delete yani server se bahar.. " mere kehte hi rahul to chup hua par vo ladki yani akansha boli.

" to koi chance nahi hai ? "

" han yar dekh na... mene bola tu dhund dega.. tu to kuch bhi kar sakta hai "

" kuch bhi.. matlab... kaam karwane ke liye kuch bhi bahane lagayega... " mene laptop kholte hue kaha. " ip... " mere bolne ke baad kuch second dono ghurte rahe jaise unhe samajh nahi aya phir akansha ko jaise dhayan aya.

" oh yeah sorry... " usne bag se ek notebook nikali aur rahul ko de di, darasal vo mujhse thodi dur hi khadi thi.. jaise mere andar khujli wale kide reng rahe ho

Rahul se notebook li, ip aur user ke sath password usme tha, hairani ki baat thi ki IT ke bande ne server ka access de rakha tha.. varna aisa kaun karta hai.. server ka access kaun deta hai... sala chutia IT wala... mene man mein mazak udaya par chehre par expression aa gaye jiske bare mein jab socha to nazar rahul aur akansha ki taraf gayi vo dono hairani se dekh rahe the.

" file name ? "

" Important cases, like that thi file name "

" hmm, naam bhi nahi pata.. kaam bada dia.. " mein khud se bola par dono ne sun liya hoga.. mene pehle simple kuch command chalai, jise mujhe pata tha ki nahi milegi.. locate, find.. grep sab lagaya par nahi mili yani file delete ho gayi thi.

" file to sach mein deleted hai... " mene kaha par kaam nahi roka apna.

" yar delete kar di hogi kisi ne.. i am sure ki mene server par copy karwai thi. This IT guy... he is totally rubish... " vo thoda gusse mein aa gayi thi.

" email id ? " mene jab pucha to vo hairani se meri taraf dekhne lagi.

" excuse me ? "

" apki email id ? file nahi chahie ? "

" par apne abhi kaha ki vo delete hai.. "

" han vo to thi hi... "

" mene kaha tha na ye banda kuch bhi kar sakta hai.. " rahul bich mein kud pada phir akansha ne apni email id aur mene use file send kar di.

" thank you so much.. apne meri bahut badi help ki hai.. "

" its okay... " mein laptop band karke bag mein dalne laga.

" thank you rahul.. ok bye.. i gota go.. i will meet you tomorrow.. bye .. "

" bye.. " choti muskan ke sath mein bola aur vo chali gayi.

" chale ab.. " mere bolne ka intezar tha rahul ko bas. Hum dono raste mein the tab mene use sunaya.

" salle tune bataya nhi ki tu kisi ke sath aa raha hai.. khamakha meri reputation ki maa chodne par laga hai "

" abe to gali mat dia kar "

" aisa ho sakta hai kya... "

" hahaha.. han vo to hai.. par salle tu bhi ladki ke aage bahut style mara.. pehle kaha delete ho gayi hai.. aur phir baad mein de di file utha kar "

" abe delete hi hui thi "

" rehne de itna to mujhe bhi pata hai server se delete yani khatam "

" bc yahi tak to soch sakte ho tum.... server se delete hui files ko hum recover kar sakte hai.... iska bhi tarika hai.. mene script bana rakhi thi.. bas dono ko use kiya aur file recover kar li.. "

" tu to sch mein intelligent hai lawde.... , gaya beta IT wala ab.. "

" gaya matlab ? "

" tujhe pata hai akansha kaun hai ? "

" mujhe kaise pata hoga lawde "

" abe managing post par hai.. gand mar degi kal IT wale ki... "

" teri boss hai kya ? "

" nahi... hamara department alag hai mera HR uska marketing.. "

" farak kya hai ? "

" bahut hai hr vo hota hai jo marketing manage karta hai, resources provide karke aur marketing... "

" rehne de.. bc tum logo ki bakchodi na palle padti .. itne manager hote hain ye samajh nahi ata ki kaun kiski jagah hai... bas itna bata tere se uppar post par hai na "

" han ... "

" to tu gand mara.. "

" bc.... " vo bilbila kar reh gaya. Raat ko dinner aaj mene akele kia, mona ke sath chudai ka program tha bhai sahab ka. Mona ek divorcy akeli rehne wali aurat thi, aur rahul ki boss bhi.. dekhne mei kuch khas nahi thi.. par chudai ke liye khas ki kya jarurat bas lund ki atma ko shanti milni chahie aur vo rahul ko bharpur mil rahi thi. Mona aur rahul ka connection mumbai se tha.... aur dono ka transfer idhar hua tha ya yun kahun ki mona ne hi rahul ka transfer karaya tha apne sath. Dinner karte hue mein ye soch raha tha to lund bhi akadne laga lekin phir soch kar kuch nahi kiya kyun ki man nahi kiya. Phone utha kar dekha to mail hui thi o bhi thank you ki.. jo akansha ki thi.. mene use swipe karke hata dia aur tv dekhte hue so gaya pata hi nahi chala.

Diwali ke baad ke jo mahine hote hain us sal mein bache hue bade hi bakwas hote hain, aram karne ka time bhi nahi hota.. kaam hi kaam no holiday.... holiday milta bhi hai to year end par yani ki new year par. New year ki party announce hui thi office mein ... vo bhi kisi party disc type mein.... baad mein rahul se pata chala ki building ke kayi office ne co-ordinate karke party organize ki hai tabhi itni shandar ho rahi hai, mumbai mein aksar aisa hota hai ki jahan ek building mein kayi office ho to unme se kuch office mil kar party organize karte hian jise party badi aur badia hoti hai. Ek hafta tha abhi party ke liye, din tha 22 december jab mujhe mere sir ne apne cabin mein bulaya.

" Ankit... how are you ? kaam kaisa chal raha hai ? "

" all well sir.. " meri thodi fat rahi thi kyun ki jab koi maanger tumhe bulaye to samajh lo gand lagne wali hai.

" good... mene tumhe isliye bulaya hai kyun ki next month ek bahut bade client se meeting hai aur agar baat jam gayi to tumhe use handle karna hai "

" mujhe " kaha tha na... fad di na gand....

" han why ? tumne interview mein kaha tha ki you are very good in clint handling.. so now here is your chance.. "

" no problem sir... " ab ise kya batata fati hui gand ka dard..

" great... ready rehna... and don't worry i know you can handle... " mein room se bahar aa gaya.. gand to ab fadi jaa chuki thi.. bas ab border par ladne ke liye langadate hue jana baki tha. Khair mein akar apne kaam mein lag gaya kyun ki ane wala time kisne dekha tha...

31st december

" chal na bhai.. kitna taiyar hoga.. " mein adhe ghante se rahul ka wait kar raha tha bhosdiwala aurton se jada taiyar ho raha tha.

" han aa raha hun bas "

" bc aisa kaun si bra penty pehen raha hai jo fit nahi ho rahi tujhe.. salle "

" speical order se mangwai hai .. " vo bahar aya.

" bc mona ke sath aaj sex badal kar chudai ka program hai kya "

" tujhe kaise pata ? salle hamari jasusi karta hai haramkhor "

" han madarchod tu tikka hi isliye hai ... varna tuj jaise jhantu ko kuch ata bhi hai kya "

" yahin rape karwayega apna ya chalega.. " hum dono aise hi behas karte hue nikal gaye. Party vakai gazab jagah par thi.. behtarin hotel aur gaza ka enviornment..

" bada paisa lagaya hai "

" kamate bhi to bahut hai.. chal aja.. " rahul ke piche piche mein chal pada. Bc jitna mature ho jaun lekin ye party mein jakar hath wath milane se mein abhi bhi parez hi karta tha, ajeeb sa lagta tha mujhe in sab mein. Hum dono jitno ko jante the unse hath mila kar vahin khade ho gaye. Mahol bada hi gazab tha, ek se ek ladki thi jo fashionable dress pehen kar ayi thi. Aisa mahol mene aaj pehli baar dekha tha, ise pehle aisi party kabhi hui thi nahi meri zindagi mein.

" hey akansha... " rahul ki awaz sun kar mene apni nazar us taraf ki aur bas wahin dekhta reh gaya.
 
Update - 86

Akansha... kya ye wahi akansha thi jo mujhe us din office mein mili thi, yaad bhi nahi takreeban 1.5 mahine hone ko aye par iska ye matlab thodi hua ki 1.5 mahine mein insan itna khubsurat ho jata hai... ye kaise ho sakta hai ? nahi... mene us din shayad dhang se dekha hi nahi tha, sach mein ... dekha hi nahi tha...

Akansha, orange color ke one piece mein ayi thi, pata nahi kaise mene.. kaise mene uski itni sundarta ko us din dekha hi nahi tha.. itni sundar ? to mene kaise miss kar dia... ajeeb si bechaini dil mein uthi.. tez dhadak raha tha jaise vo chehra mere bilkul kareeb hai.. vo lambi badi ankhein... choti si naak aur uske honth... ise jada describe mein khud ko nahi de paa raha tha. Log kehte hain rang dekh kar insan ko chahna nahi chahie mujhe bhi samajh nahi aa raha tha ki vo rang ki vajah se khubsurat hai ya nahi.. par vo behad khubsurat hai ye mein samajh gaya tha.. shayad mere jeevan ki pehli aisi ladki jo mene itni khubsurat dekhi thi...

" ankit ? " rahul ke awaz se mein apne sawalon se bahar aya. " remember akansha.. " uske kehte hue meri nazar jo akansha par thi vo uspar aur gehra gayi, vo meri taraf dekhte hue halka sa muskurai. Jiske baad phir mere sawal bhoot ki tarah chipak gaye. Ye muskan to shayad us din bhi thi ? to meri nazar tab kyun is muskan par nahi gayi aur aaj hi kyun... kahin mene koi love story to nahi padi thi ? yaad kyun nahi aa raha kuch... bc... padi hi nahi to kaise yaad ayega.. par ye muskan ... akansha ki ye smile... ek aisi shanti kyun hai jo sukun de rahi hai... itni shant muskan par phir bhi itni pyari.....

" ankit ? " chipke hue bhoot jo mujhe behad ache lag rahe the use ek haramkhor tantrik baba bante hue rahul ne alag kar die.

" han bilkul... " jabki mujhe jara sa bhi akansha ka dhayan nahi tha.. bas naam chhod kar.....

" Hi.. " usne hath milane ke liye aage badaya to mene bhi bada dia aur hath milate time alag si hi gudgudi hui... fefdon mein... dil mein.... aur bas... iske aage kahin nahi... is baar ye gudgudi bas wahin tak simat kar reh gayi...

" Thanks for the help once again... uske baad tumse milne ka chance nahi mila "

" thanks ? " mein thoda confuse hua phir khud hi yaad kar baitha.. " ohh no problem... " hath abhi tak mene chhode nahi the, phir jab ye khayal aya ki ek skin aur meri skin se touch hai to mene hath chuda lia. Iske baad vo excuse kehti hui vahan se chali gayi aur mein use apni ankhon se use vahan tak chhod kar aya jahan tak chhod sakta tha...

" chhod aya ? " jab mene apni nazare uspar se hata kar vapis ki tab rahul ne mujhse pucha. Mene kuch nahi kaha.. na kehta to vo manta nah aur han kehta to use chedne ka mauka mil jata.

" mein tabhi soch raha tha ki kaise... matlab kaise kar sakta hai tu " vo ek dum se bola.

" kyaa.. ? " mein turant bola, mujhe laga kahin vo use jakar bol dega to kahin kuch gadbad na ho jaye. Ye dar wala badlav mere andar tabse aya tha jabse naukri lagi thi kyun ki suna to yahi jata hai hamare job culture mein ki log ek dusre ke khilaf bhadakate hai logon ko apni position uppar lane ke liye aur agar kisi ne ye mere sath kar dia to meri naukri to jayegi plus jo khun mera kholega use kahin mein kisi ka murder karke jail na chala jaun.

" yahi ki akansha se milne ke baad tune uske bare mein pucha kaise nahi.. "

" matlab ? "

" abe use milne ke baad koi us ladki ko kaise bhul sakta hai... salle.. par jis tarah tune use dekha ye samajh aa gaya ki tu use bhula nahi hai "

" aisa kuch nahi hai.. "

" sab kuch hai dalle... mein to hairan tha ki tune uske bare mein mujhse kuch pucha kyun nahi.. phir mujhe laga ki shayad teri kahin aur setting chal rahi ho isliye tune dhyan nahi dia "

" meri kisi se setting nahi hai be.. "

" acha matlab tu ye bata raha hai mujhe taki mein teri madad kar saku akansha se setting karane mein " bahut harami insan hai rahul.. baton mein tumhe kab fansa de tum samjah nahi paoge..

" harami pana band karega apna.. aisa kuch nahi hai.. ye baton mein uljhane ki chal kisi aur par chala kar.. aur ab yahan party mein khane pine aye ya phir teri bakchodi sunne.. "

" bukhad sala.. yahan bhi khane ki padi hai.. mein chala pine.. care to join.. ? "

" chal sakta hun par ise jada kuch nahi.. " phir hum dono us taraf gaye jahan bar bana hua tha, sabhi suit pehne gentleman vahan daru ka glass badi adab ke sath pakde khade the jaise bc inse jada agyakari koi dusra hai nahi ... vahan hamare sir bhi khade the.. kareeb 5 minute tak usne pakaya aur end mein enjoy bol kar chala gaya. Udhar rahul ne apne liye glass pakdwaya aur mene bhi par vo ek fruit juice wala without cocktail drink tha... vahiyad.. tha.. par dikhane ke liye pakda hua tha. Itne mein meri nazar phir vahan padi jahan nahi padni chahie thi, akansha par..

" ye ladki aaj mere piche kyun ghum rahi hai.. " mein use milna nahi chaha raha tha na jane kyun.. Vo apne group ke sath thi.. shayad uske friends ya colleague ke sath. Usne shayad dhayan nahi dia aur rahul bhi filal kisi se baat kar raha tha isliye sirf mein hi tha jo use dekh raha tha. Haye... ye khubsurti... ye masumiyat uske chehre ki.. vo muskurahat uske dil ki jo uske chehre par thi.. maturenes uske chehre par aisi bikhri hui thi jaise janmi hi use sath lekar ho... ek dum perfect figure ke sath... bahut kam ladkiyan aisi maintained hoti hai aur itni khubsurat bhi shayad ye professionalism ka bhi affect tha us par.. marketing line.. par mujhe kya farak padta hai koi bhi line ho... lekin uski khubsurti ki line bilkul sateek tha.. mujhe aisa feel na jane kyun aa raha tha ki ye ek movie jaisi love story rahegi.. bahut sundar ladki aur ek average guy but dimag se thoda intelliegent aur usne us ladki ki madad ki jiske baad kuch badti mulakaton mein use pyar ho gaya... Ek min.. pyar .. kya mene abhi abhi ye kaha ki mujhe use pyar ho gaya.. matlab ho jayega ? aur ye love story bich mein kaha se aa gayi.. Mujhe apni present value nahi bhulni chahie...

" kitna dekehega... bc us din office mein to dekha tak nahi tha.. dhang se tabhi tujhe yaad nahi.. jabki is ladki koi ek baar dekh le to ise baat karne ke liye tadapta hai... aur salle aaj tu use ghure hi jaa raha hai.. hua kya hai tuje ? " mujhe pata nahi tha ki rahul bhi ab wahi dekh raha hai jahan mein.

" aisa kuch nahi hai.. vo dekh vo bhi drink kar rahi hai vahi dekh raha hun.. chehre se lag nahi raha tha ki vo drink kar rahi hai .. " bahar se to mene itni asani se kaha jaise mujhe farak nahi padta ki vo kaun hai, kya lena dena hai mera use. Par sahi kahun dil itna jala aur itna gussa aa raha tha andar se ki ye kaise pii sakti hai.. kaise se jada kyun piii rahi hai.. pata nahi kyun par mujhe to gusa aa raha tha ab koi bhi mujhe jaisa soche.. society ki language mein vo kaun se chutiye shabd hote hain jo ladko ko die jate hain... bc yaad kyun nahi aa rahe chhodo maa chudaye...

" to shakal se tuje pata chalta hai ki kaun piyega kaun nahi aur tujhe kya.. salle ladki hai to pii nahi sakti kya.. "

" nahi.. "

" teri soch to badi kharab hai "

" mene kaha nahi.. mujhe kya farak padta hai piye khub piye.. " mene apni nazar mod li.

" padna bhi nahi chahie.. aur jo itna tu ghur raha hai vo jada ghurna bane ise pehle mein ye bata dun ki she is nearly to get engaged. " rahul ki akhri line ne dimag blank kar dia, blank tone.. ki tarah blank... par kyun ? abhi to kuch hua hi nahi na love story na pyar.. na movie ke chalte scene to blank kyun hona.. chal hat... mein phir normal enovirment mein pahunch gaya.

" ghurna paap thodi hai aur vaise bhi agar sundar chiz dekhni nahi chahie to unhe sundar dikhne ka hak nahi... kyun ki jaruri nahi agar hum ladke kisi sundar ladki ko dekhe to sirf uske sharir ko dekh rahe ho, uski value ki sundarta ko sarhana bhi ata hai hume.. "

" fair and valid point maharaj... " usne hath jod lie.

" hey rahul.. come join us.. " usko bhi bulana jaruri tha...

" chal aja.. akansha bula rahi hai "

" tu jaa.. mein nahi aa raha.. vaise bhi mein odd lagunga.. " yahi farak hai mujhme aur dusre laundon mein... mein apni value kabhi kam nahi karna chahta.. Ego kahe ya attitude lekin meri apni khud ki kuch shartein jinhe todna mere bas mein bhi nahi.

" sure ? "

" aise puch raha hai jaise mein suicide karne ko keh raha hun.. mana kiya na.. mein drink nahi karta yar.. aur phir odd banke khada rahunga, vo mujhse drink karne ka bar bar puchenge.. hasenge... do batein banayenge.. vaise bhi mein unhe janta nahi.. khama kha agar mera temper loose ho gaya to gadbad ho jayegi " pata nahi kyun phir se purane wala mein zinda ho raha tha, jo mein lana nahi chahta tha...

" ok " iske baad vo bhi kuch nahi bola aur chala gaya. Mood ka satyanash kar dia is ladki ne mera... isliye ladkiyun ko apni life se bahar kar dia tha taki focus mera bas ek cheez par rahe, apne kaam par apni tariki par..

Mein bas 2-3 minute hi baithe the ki kano mein awaz padte hi meri nazar ghumi, ye phir aa gayi , mene socha par sala ladkiyan tumhare man ki feelings kab badal dete hain pata nahi chalta.

" hey.. "

" hi.. "

" sorry, but its your choice lekin can i ask you something ? "

" yeah.. "

" why didn't you join us ? i know ki ye tumhari wish hai.. but if everthing's fine.. tum hamare sath join kar sakte ho ? if not then it's ok.. mene bas isliye pucha ki we are enjoying and you are sitting alone.. " vo ek sath bahut boli aur mein muskura dia.. ye kaisa expression tha

" nhi nahi.. aisa kuch nahi hai.. but it's like mein drink nahi karta.. isliye mein aap sab ke bich odd nahi banna chahta tha bas iske alawa koi reason nahi hai "

" seriously ? " mujhe pata tha vo ye bolne vali hai ki tum drink nahi karte bc inhi sawalon se ab chid ho chuki thi... kya insan ka pina itna jaruri hai ? really ? par jab vo boli to kuch alag hi boli.

" tumhe ye lagta hai ki hum drink ki wajah se enjoy karte hai.. no mr. you are wrong.. its just a gesture.. and we dont mind.. tum drink karte ho ya nahi.. actually we don't care...at all sorry mein tumhare muh par bol rahi hun par we still do not care for anyone personal life... " bc ladki ne to dil hi jeet lia

" i like it... " mein fauran bola aur meri tone itni funny thi ki vo hans padi. Galat disha mein dil mud raha tha mera... bahut galat.. mein single ladkiyun ke bare mein nahi soch raha tha and she is about to..

" to could i ask you to join ? " uske bolne par mein is infinite world mein aa gaya. Infinte kyun ? waqt ane par ye bhi pata chalega..

" yeah sure.. agar apko problem nahi to mujhe kaisi.. " mein apni jaah se khada hua aur hum sath aage bade. " apki drink ? " usne vo wahin chhod di thi.

" i don't need anymore.. i guess.. " ajeeb bandi thi.. khair bandiya to sab hi ajeeb hoti hai isme naya kuch nahi tha..

Us raat vo bahut boli.. mere se nahi.. matlab group mein ... rahul aur mein uske sath hi rahe puri sham aur phir 12 bajne ke baad sabne new year wish kiya, hum dono ne ek dusre ko offcourse... par usme itna khas nahi tha jo kahun... she is very professional, koi lalu chapo nahi... uske baad dance ka program shuru hua.. ye dusra kaam jo mujhse kabhi nahi hua.. usne mujhse pucha... par mene saaf mana kiya aur uske baad usne dubara nahi pucha aur khud chali gayi.. dance usne kiya 4-5 minute hi par jitna kia nazre wahi rahi... un logo ka raat bhar rukne ka plan tha.. par mera nahi... rahul ka to samajh aa gaya tha.. mona ke sath vo nikal lia.. isliye mera aur koi plan nahi tha.. Akansha ne mujhse pucha par mene na hi kaha jiske baad usne koi force nahi kia.. aur karti bhi kyu ? kya mein aisa cha raha tha ? pata nahi usne na kaha aur bye keh kar mein nikal gaya.

Ye saal bahut si batein bandh kar gaya tha mere sath.. jinko mein bhula kar hi aage badh raha tha... par jate jate vo mujhe kahin aur hi bandh kar chala gaya tha.. shayad takdeer ab mujhe kuch dikhana chahti thi....
 
Update - 87

Naya saal ane par sab koi na koi resolution lete hain ya sochte hain is baar kuch naya hoga.. ye saal acha jayega... par sahi kahun vo sab bhand ke akandh chutie hote hain jo aisa sochte hain... aisa kabhi bhi kuch bhi nahi hota.. aap vaise hi har saal jeete ho jaise ki jee rahe hote ho yani ki ... kisi chutie ki tarah.. sahi keh raha hun mana is baat ke andar mein khud ko chutia keh raha hun lekin galat kahan hai kuch bhi .. sali zindagi kam chutia thodi hai... jaise live scenario hi dekh lo, abhi do paise kamane laga to maa ke bheje utpat shuru ho gaya.. shadi ka matlab akhand chutiape ki shuruwat.. udhar office ki zindagi to waisi hi hai jaise paida hona aur marna.. subh paida hue bache ki tarah jau rote-rote aur vapis aau to marne jaisi halat mein bilkul chup chap pade rehna.. jo ki mein pada tha... rahul ne bahut bola ghum kar ane ko lekin mein alsio ki tarah pada tv ke channel badal raha tha.. vakai mein theek hun... zindagi chutia, log chutia aur hum bhi chutia hi.. do chiz hai life mein kamana aur chudwana.. bas.. vahi kaam karte hain sab aur mein bhi wahi kar raha hun....

Office bilkul waisa hi tha, bas kuch zimmewari badh si gayi thi, new year ke baad meri akansha se koi baat cheet nahi hui thi, shayad mein use bhul gaya tha ya bas dhayan hi nahi raha uske bare mein sochna, maa bhi ghar ane ko keh rahi thi, par chutti milni mushkil thi aur is saal ka pehla mahina khatam par tha, mein priya ko wish karke bas sone hi jaa raha tha ki phone par mail thi. Mene dhayan nahi dia aur so gaya. Agli subah mujhe rahul ne nind se aise uthaya jaise sale ke pichwade mein aag lag gayi ho aur aag bhujane ke liye use lund chahie ho.. sala gay kahin ka..

" kya hua bhutneke... " mene ankhein malte hue kaha.

" ye le phone hai.. " usne phone mere hath mein thama dia.

" kiska hai ? aur tere phone par mere liye kyun ayega.. bc drame na kar " mene phone patak dia.

" akansha ka hai.. " vo bol kar chala gaya, use offc jane ki jada jaldi thi isliye vo taiyar hone mein lag gaya. Bc akansha ka naam sun kar ek bar to man kiya is rahul the gand ko khub gali dun bc subh subh gali niklwa di aur use akansha ne bhi sun li hogi, ye meri izzat ke lawde hi lagwayega ek din

" helo "

" helo ankit, good morning " bc subh subh aisi awaz sune ko mil jaye to morning good kaise na ho

" good morning akansha ji "

" ji ? really.. akansha is fine " mein kuch nahi bola. " waise ankit i need one favor, if you do no mind ? "

" ji bilkul " uske baad usne jo kaha mene suna aur ant mein bye keh kar phone cut kar dia. " in ladkiyun ko tab hi yaad ati hai jab favour chahie hota hai, 'chalo bhai lag jao majduri par' mein fresh hua aur nikal gaya office. Office phuch kar jab mail dekha to akansha ka tha aur jo usne phone par kaha tha wahi mail mein tha. Mene uska kaam nipta kar mail par revert kar dia aur office ke kaam mein jut gaya. Lunch time ke baad mujhe sir ne bulaya aur mera pehla client bada client set de dia. Fat rahi thi meri, wajah no ek pehla itna bada client dusra jo technology par use install karna tha vo product naya launch hua tha office ka. Samajh nahi aa raha tha kaise hoga.. khud study ki kuch seniors se help li bas sham tak majdur apne naye hatiyar ke sath taiyar.

Sham ko office se bahar nikal kar rahul ka wait kar raha tha to dekha uske sath akansha bhi aa rahi hai. Wah is launde ke alag maze hai.. boss ki chut aur laundiyu ka sath nahi chutta iska.

" hi ... " akansha ne hath aage badaya, mene use hath milaya. " thank you so much for the help .. hamari IT team bas... "

" it's okay, ye to mera kaam hi hai " baat karne ka man bhi kare aur bolne ko kuch na ho tab insan kaisa feel karta hai .. mujhe bilkul wahi feel ho raha tha is waqt.. bc ajeeb si ulti aa rahi thi na nikalne ko ho rahi thi na andar kahin adjust ho rahi thi. .. behen ki lodi

" aisa nahi hai.. tum mere liye thodi kaam karte ho, mana bhi to kar sakte the "

" adat nahi hai "

" kiski "

" mana karne ki.. " meri baat sun kar vo hans di.

" mera to koi kaam nahi karta tu sab mana karta hai " rahul bina bole kaisa reh sakta tha.

" han nahi karunga.. jaa jo karna hai kar "

" dekh li teri dosti.. "

" han dekh lenge.. ab chalein.. "

" aree.. kahan sara time jana hota hai tujhe us boring se flat mein "

" galti se wahi rehta hu to wahi jana padega, ab chal "

" nahi bahar jaa rahe hain.. "

" bahar ? "

" han.. and infact mein tumhe hi bulane ayi thi.. " akansha boli.

" kahan ? "

" aise hi hangout.. with all.. chalo .."

" nahi yar.. aap sab jao "

" kaha tha na mene ye aisa hi hai " rahul phir bola.

" why ? you don't like us ? " mein hans dia.

" nahi yar.. par office ki thakan bahut hai.. phir kabhi chalenge aap log jao " mera man hi nahi tha ya mein tha par jana nahi chahta tha. Akansha kuch der mujhe ghurti rahi jaise man hi man galiya de rahi ho.

" rehne do akansha .. ye bekar hai.. na drink karta na ise ghumne ka shauk.. hum chalte hain... "

" hm.. chalo bye.. " is bar uski bye mein vo hi wali feeling nahi thi, mene bye kaha aur chal dia flat par. Uske baad koi baat cheet hamare bich nahi hui jaise ek dusre ko jante hi nahi.

Din aise beet rahe the jaise superfast train mein baitha kar time travel karwa rahe ho... kal mujhe jana tha, subh 9 baje ki flight thi, maa ke arman pure ho rahe the unhone ghar bulaya tha aur client bhi delhi ka tha.

Mei bas tv band karke sone ka soch raha tha, rahul aaj bhi bahar tha aur ab 12 bajne wale the tabhi mera phone bajne laga.

" itni raat ko kise kya ho gaya.. kahin rahul pee kar mar to nahi gaya harami.. " mene phone dekha, unknown number tha.

" helo " mene kaha aur samne se awaz sun chup ho gaya.
 
Update - 88

" Hi "

" helo "

" sorry late night call karne ke liye ? am i disturbing ? "

" no.. "

" ok thanks, i need a favour "

" ok " mein chote jawab de raha tha kyun ki lambi baat karne wala mahol nahi tha background se shor bahut jada aa raha tha.

" actually rahul is a bit drunk, isliye use tumhara number lekar mene hi call kar liya "

" uska aisa hi hota hai hamesha " vo ye sun kar thoda sa hansi.

" actually, mene call isliye kiya kya tum meri ek help kar doge ? " madad ke alawa ise kya chahie hota hai .. ajeeb hi hai ye.. mana karne ka dil tha aaj na jane kyun par mana kar nahi sakta tha.. professionalism par sawal lag jate.. maa ka lawda professionalism... zindagi jhand ho gayi hai.. .

" sure.. " usne apna wahi kaam bataya.. na jane kyun ye ladki khud koi kaam time par nahi karti.. aur agar iska IT itna bekar hai to salla use nikalte kyun nahi..

" thank you so much.. and i am really sorry.. tumhe itni late night disturb kiya "

" no its ok.. "

" thank you so much.. ankit.. okay have a good night bye.. "

" ek min.. " mujhe fauran yaad aya ki us ullu ke pathe ko pata nahi hai ki mein kal jaa raha hu.

" han bolo "

" actually mein kal delhi jaa raha hun office ke kaam se .. to rahul ko bata nahi paya.. message to drop kar dia hai lekin pata nahi dekhe ya nahi.. isliye use yaad se keh dena please... "

" ohh.. yeah... no issue sure.. "

" thanks.. bye.. enjoy.. "

" you too.. " raat ko 2 baj gaye, kuch apna dimag aur google devta ki jai.. dono ki madad se mene akansha ka kaam kiya aur so gaya. Subh jab nikla to as usual rahul aya nahi tha, mene phone nahi kiya aur nikal gaya.

Ghar pahuncha to mummy ke liye surprise tha unhe pata nahi tha ki mein aa raha hun. Us din se lekar agle teen din tak client ke sath rakh kar marwai mene. Agle din mene kaam khatam kar dia, vaise to 7 din ka kaam tha lekin meri banai planing pehli baar kaam ayi thi jiski badault hi 7 din wala kaam 4 din mein nipta dia tha mene. Kaam bhi successfull raha aur client ne mujhe dinner par invite kia.

" han khana bahar kha kar aunga "

" pehle kyun nahi batata ? ab mene khana bana dia "

" to kya hua bana dia to.. bekar ki baat na karo "

" tujhe sab bekar lagta hai.. chal rakh phone " maa ka behaviour abhi bhi waisa hi tha, dimag kharab kar deti hai.. khair baat khatam karke vo sham client ke sath hi nikli.. ghar ate der ho gayi thi, sab chuke the, mein bhi apne kamre mein jakar aram se so gaya aur aisa soya ki pata hi nahi chala subah kab hui, 4 din ki thakan ka asar acha bhala bol raha tha sharir mein....

Subh jab maa ne darwaja khat-khataya tab nind kholi usme mene darwaja khola aur phir so gaya. Maa ne light on kar di aur pata nahi kisi ke sath baat karti hui andar ayi. Mene chadar lapeti muh par aur so gaya.

" kitna soyega... raat mein late aya tha kya ? "

" hmm "

" batao yahan itna late ata hai vahan to pata nahi kya kya karta hoga "

" sone do yar abhi "

" 5 minute mein uth jaa.. kaam wali aa gayi hai safai karni hai... "

" mein nahi uthunga "

" han yahi umid hai tumse.. maa to kamwali hai.. jo sab kaam kare.. parwah hi nahi hai " ye tanna mujhe aisa chuba ki mein nahi janta kyun chuba...mein fauran uth baitha.

" ek to sala admi itne time baad ghar aya hai uppar se ye sab suno.. agar nahi jhel sakti to bulati kyun ho.. chala jata hun mein... " mein is waqt behad gusse mein tha.

" han to chala jaa.. roka kisne hai.. mujhe itna moh nahi hai .. jada bolne ki jarurat nahi hai mujhse.. "

" theek hai.. chala jata hun... sala kadar hi nahi hai.. aunga hi nahi ab " mein bistar se tilmilate hue utha.. kamre se bahar aya papa wahin khade the kuch bole nahi.. umid thi ki bolenge par nahi.. mein fresh hua aur apni ticket jo teen din baad ki thi use aaj dophar ki karwa di. Packing karna shuru kar chuka tha aur udhar se maa ke tanne ab badhte jaa rahe the.

" meri to kadar hi nahi hai is ghar mein.. shadi ke baad pati suna raha tha ab beta.. yahi naseeb hai mera.. " vo rote hue papa se baat kar rahi thi aur mujhe farak nahi padh raha tha. Choti si baat par itna bol jati hai tab unhe koi parwah nahi to mene kya theka le rakha hai.. bhad mein jaye sab.. mene packing ki aur ghar se hi nikal gaya, na kisi ko kuch bola aur na hi dekha... jabki abhi flight ko bahut time tha.. ye mera gussa tha jo shayad bahut din se kahin daba tha.. jo nikal chuka tha.. bas jagah aur halat theek nahi the..

Airport par baitha tha aur bas subh hue vakaye par soch kar khud se hi keh raha tha ki bekar mein gussa kar baitha.. insan gusse ke aage sab bhul jata hai vo ye nahi samajh pata ki kuch second ka gussa agar hum andar rakh le to kismat ki kahani kuch aur ho jati hai... Mene ek baar socha ghar phone karun par phir himmat na hui.. vaise bhi unki taraf se koi response nahi tha.

8 baje mein vapis pune tha... ek hi din mein kya se kya ho gaya.. kya soch kar gaya tha... kya ho gaya.. office mein sir ko mene keh dia tha.. aur vo is baat se khush the ki mene time se pehle kaam khatam kiya aur iske chalte do din ka off mujhe mil gaya tha.

Generally mein fb par status dalta nahi lekin us din mene pune vapis ane ka checkin dal dia tha, rahul ko bataya nahi tha, use surprise dena tha aur check in dekh kar vo hua bhi.. vo office ke kaam se mumbai tha aur kal raat tak ane wala tha. Mein khana kha kar fb scroll kar raha tha, acha time pass ho jata hai.. usme kuch chutiye videos aur memes dekh kar. Phir scroll ke time par ata hai ek sabse bada chutiapa, friend suggestion ka.. time pass karne ke liye mene socha chalo us list ko hi check kar lia jaye...

Pehli ayi ek gaunv ki ladki.. ' bc fb filter nahi lagata kya ?' mene delete kia to uski jagah ek aur aya, launda.. swipe.. agla bhi launda.. swipe... jitne launde ate gaye unhe swipe hi karta gaya mein.. chehra bhi dhang se nahi dekha.. kuch school time ke chutie the.. jo aaj stylish ban chuke the... mene unhe bhi swipe kia aur phir ayi ladki.. jo shayad apne school ki thi, mutual friends bahut the.. mein uski profile mein gaya aur dp dekhi.. bc pehle to gareeb lagti thi ab khandani ban gayi thi.. mene back kiya aur phir swipe karna shuru kiya.

" itni khubsurat.. fake kahin ki sali.. " dp dekh kar hi profile ki sachai pata chal jati hai.

" ye to pakka nakli hogi.. behen ki lodi.. naam manju aur photo bc itni sundar.. maa ki lawdi naam par dhayan deti to kuch launde fans jate.. swipe.. "

" waah madarchod... iske to naam mein hi jhol hai... priy@, ye pakka angel priya ki sagi hai... swipe... " aisa karte hue mene vo suggestion list complete ki aur jaise fateh hasil kar li ho aisi tassali hui. Mein fb band karke phone lock karne wala tha ki ek ke baad do message whatsapp par popup hue, unknown number plus no dp.

Mene whtsapp khola aur message box, message tha. Hi and came back ? mein confuse ki kiska number ho sakta hai. Mene reply kia.

" hi.. who's this ?" message blue tick mein tabdeel bhi ho gaye.

" offcourse you didn't know. Mein wahi hun jo tumse hamesha kaam karwati hai "iske sath dant fad vala smily.

" Ohh akansha.. "

" sorry, mene tumhara number save nahi kara tha us raat isliye nahi pehchan paya " mene puri baat ache se samjhayi.. adat padh gayi thi office ki wajah se ek-ek akshar likh kar samjhao warna boss log gand par hath fair jate hain..

" its okay.. waise tum to week ke lye gaye the ? "

" vo actually ghar par ladai........... " mene itna likha aur phir delete kar dia. " kaam jaldi kar aya to socha vapis aa jaun "

" rahul ne kaha tha ki tum family ke sath rehte ho "

" han.. "

" then ? gaye the to ghar par aram kar lete "

" ghar par kaisa araam............ " mene phir delete kia. " bas aise hi .. "

" hmm.. " is hmm dekhne ke baad na to jawab samjh ata hai kya do aur khud se sawal karunga ? to sochegi chep ho raha hai.. aur nahi sochti bhi to mein kya puchu?

" so back to office tomorrow ? " usi ne message kia.

" nah.. "

" then ? "

" sir ne 2 din ka off de dia.. "

" really ? why ? "

" mera kaam acha lag gaya unhe.. "

" that's great... " aur thumbs bhej dia.. na jane kyun mujhe ye sab conversation ek tarfa aur badi hi practically si lag rahi thi. Maza hi nahi aa raha tha.. Uske baad mene koi reply nahi dia bas simple smily dia aur whtsapp exit kar dia. Bistar palang se nikal kar jab palang par laita to akansha ka message aya hua tha.

" hey.. !! "

" Hi... karne ka shauk rakhti hai aap ? " ye pehli dafa tha mene jab kuch aisa apni taraf se likha tha... send karne ke baad khayal aya ki kyun likha..

" hehehe.. actually that hey is for.. ki mujhe ek idea aya.. "

" ohh kaisa ? "

" why don't we have lunch tomorrow ? " umeed nahi thi.. par lunch ka sun kar ajeeb si feeling nachne lagi

" aap free ho ? "

" lunch ke liye to bilkul.. tumhara office hai nahi isliye we can meet.. if you are okay ? "

" yeah.. i am okay "

" that's great.. "

" then i'll c u tomorrow.. "

" ok.. " iske baad vo to chali gayi lekin mein us convo ko khole baitha raha. Man mein bahut se sawalon ka khayal aya ki puch kar phone net off karke so jaun subh jab uthunga to reply mil jayega.. jaise.. kahan milna hai.. kitne baje.. etc etc.. par phir man hat gaya... mene conversation se exit kia aur phir whtsapp se exit karne se pehle mene us number ko add contacts kiya aur Akansha ke naam se save karke band kar dia.

Mera bheaviour, mujhe khud samajh nahi aa raha tha... ek jagah kuch acha lagta to dusri taraf sab kuch bekar... aur filal na mujhe kal ki chinta thi aur na hi koi excitment ... mene rajai odhi aur so gaya..
 
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Kya faida hota hai sochne ka ? Na chaha kar bhi insan sochta hai aur sirf tabhi jab usme koi ladki ho, lekin faiyda kya hua... raat ko to mein ye soch kar so gaya ki koi farak nahi padta lekin agli subh ki khulti ankhon ke baad hi sala chain se baithna mushkil ho gaya tha, pehle to hath mein phone lekar ye sochne laga ki samne se mein khud message karun... sochne mein time lagaya phir himmat kar phone par message bhi likha ' kya plan hai ? ' par use delete karke koi message nahi kiya.Phir is baat ki umeed bhi puri thi ki vo message karegi kyun ki usi ne pucha par sath hi sath is baat ka dar bhi tha ki kahin vo busy hokar bhul gayi thi ? phir laga ki mein itna kyun soch raha hun ? Subh ke routine se free hua to ye sochne laga ki uska message ayega vo mujhe apne pass bulayegi phir hum sath jayenge ek sath, baat karte hue... lekin hua kya...

Mein Akansha ki batayi jagah par pahunch chuka tha, aur kareeb 15 minute se uska intezr kar raha tha. Vakai mein kuch bhi sochna bekar hai.. aur sahi mayine mein ek baat samjhun to mein itna interest kyun le raha hun ? Ab mujhe gussa aa raha tha kyun ki mujhse intezar nahi hota, sahi mein ? ya phir gussa mein shayad isliye tha kyun ki mera man ka abhi tak kuch hua nahi tha..

" ankit ? " shayad dusri ya tisri baar mein mera dhayan aya ki koi mera naam pukar raha hai. " kya soch rahe ho ? "

" kuch nahi bas aise hi.. " akansha mere samne khadi thi.

" sorry thoda late ho gayi.. "

" nhi koi baat nahi "

" hmm chalo.. fir.. bahut tezz bhuk lagi hai.. " Uske baad hum lunch karne gaye, vahi socha tha bahut batein hogi.. lekin vo bahut shant thi aur mein to kuch bolne jaisa tha hi nhi.. order dete time humne thodi baat ki ho uske baad kuch der aise hi baithe rahe, phir kuch sawal jawab.. Mein bich bich mein uski taraf dekhta, sundar to bahut thi... use jada itna shant chehra mene shayad hi kisi ka dekha ho, matlab kaise samjhau.. aisa lag raha tha jaise na to kisi baat ki chinta hai na hi kuch... Phir abhi lunch khatam ho rha tha ki baton mein ek dusre ke kaam ke bare mein baat chalne lagi.. rahul ne bataya tha ki marketing ki head hai.. mere bare mein jitna pata tha use aur thoda jana.. phir vo batein families par ayi aur phir vo baat ayi.. jo rahul ne kahi thi... she is about to get engaged.

Lunch normal raha, mera thoda mood kharab ho gaya tha pata nahi kyun par aisa lag raha tha jaise kuch sahi nahi hai. Us din ke baad mujhe laga jaise sab normal ho jayega.. aur hona bhi shuru ho gaya tha, rahul vapis aa gaya tha, routine life bhi chal padi thi, par ab uske sath sath meri aur akansha ki baat cheet hone lagi thi, din mein 5-7 min hi sahi par hone lagi thi. Mere andar jo feeling uske liye aye the vo gayab ho chuke the, mera vo upset hona sab kuch jaise khatam.. ye meri soch thi.. kyun ki mene apna dimag filal apne kaam mein laga lia tha ...

Us din sham ko mein office se jaldi ghar aya tha, laptop par baitha tha, aur achanak muth marne ka man kar gaya.. aur phir muth marne laga.. vo porn thi bhi gazab.. bc 3 minute mein hi beh gaya mein to... aaj bahut dino ke baad muth lagi thi to sar aisa halka ho gaya tha jaise dunia ki sab takleef dimag se khatam ho gayi ho.. dunia bekar mein sharab par kharcha karti hai.. thoda kharcha apni hath ki lakeer lund par masal de to vaise hi safal ho jaye sab kuch.

Muth mar kr tv dekhte hue raat ho gayi aur roz ki tarah aaj bhi akansha se baat cheet chal rahi thi.

" tell me one thing ? "

" hmm.. "

" tum asal mein sharmate ho ya sirf dikhate ho "

" samjha nahi "

" last time hum lunch par gaye the tab mene notice kia "

" kya ? "

" tum mujhse nazre kyun chipa rahe the ? " ab mene message read kar lia par jawab kya dun ye sochne laga. Bahut socha ye likhun vo likhun.. par end mein kya likha..

" nahi aisa kuch nahi hai.. "

" itna kehne ke liye itna time ? kuch to gadbad hai boss.. "

" nahi nahi aisa kuch nahi hai " aaj pehli baar hamari is tarah ki baat cheet ho rahi thi shayad itne dino ki understanding ki vajah se attitude mein changes aa rahe the jo ki bahut normal tha.

" gf hai isliye nahi dekh paa rahe the ? "

" gf ? meri.. nahi koi hai nahi "

" r u serius ? "

" yep "

" juth mat bolo "

" nahi yar seriously.. "

" hmm.. strange "

" aisa kyun ? "

" bas aise hi.. "

" apko aisa kyun lagta hai ki meri gf hogi ? " vo offline jaa chuki thi, iske baad usne reply bhi nahi dia. Subh utha to akansha ka message tha ki sorry was in call, mene swipe kare hataya aur office ke liye nikal gaya. Office ka kaam ab office mein kam client ki taraf jada rehta tha.. yun kahun ki office ko client side handle karne vala ek naya banda mere roop mein mil chuka tha.. khair badia tha.. mere liye bhi .. jab kaam kam hota to ghar bhi jaldi aa jata tha.. lekin aaj kuch jada hi late ho gaya tha.. pichle kuch dino ka sara aram aaj hi nikal gaya.. Ghar akar mein fresh hone ke liye chala gaya aur khane pine ke baad, jab charging se phone hatane gaya to dekha 5 missed call the akansha ke. Mene time dekha to 11:45 ho rahe the, aaj se pehle hume kabhi call par aise baat karne ke liye call nahi ki thi, isliye ajeeb laga.. socha phone karun ya nahi.. ye sochta raha ek pal ke liye phir kuch soch kar phone lagaya.. dil mein dar tha aur man mein sawal ki vo kya sochegi ? itni raat mene use phone kyun kia... Akhir phone ki ring bajti rahi aur end mein phone cut ho gaya... mera bhari dil thoda halka hua ye soch kar ki chalo mene apna farz pura kia call karke varna vo sochti ki missed call dekh kar bhi call nahi kia. Bas abhi phone rakh kar mein bathroom ki taraf jaa raha tha ki mera phone bajne laga.. umeed yahi laga raha tha ki akansha ka ho... par dikha aisa raha tha bahr se ki na jane kaun aa gaya itni raat?

Screen par akansha ka naam hi flash ho raha tha, mene phone kuch soch kar kuch second baad uthaya.

" hello " mene kaha.

" helo ankit... " vo itna bol kar chup hui... aur phir.. " kuch nahi.. " itna keh kar usne phone cut kar dia. Ajeeb baat thi.. bahut ajeeb... aisa call par kaun karta hai.. aur iske alawa jis tarah ka sanata aur khamoshi thi mera naam lene ke baad use aisa laga jaise kuch hai.. vo kuch kehna cha kar bhi nahi keh pai isliye phone cut kar dia, awaz normal thi ya nahi ye to mein samajh nahi paya.. par kya ho sakta hai ? khud se itna sochne par dimag ne kuch aur nahi socha aur is baar bina parwah kiye mene akansha ka number dial kar dia..
 
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